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i wonder if it's common practice for other blogs to randomly change their blog names once in a short while. because i did it first and then connie did it and we both do it now to a ridiculous degree. so i'll just go rename my blog now again.
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Sunday, December 31, 2000
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you know, i haven't been out of the house for more than twentyfour hours. that's kind of strange. maybe after lunch i'll walk over to some of those stores and do something. mm, i wish i could drive. hehe.. ellen, take me with you wherever you're going..! anyway, i'm so bored. yesterday i did three loads of laundry [dark, dark, white] and washed dishes and folded the clothes in my room and wondered how i was going to get it all cleaned up. so in the end, i didn't actually do much cleaning. and then i was online for a while downloading things and trying to think of website ideas -- space invaders are cool. so now i'm here and i woke up around eleven and i remember that my bible's at church somewhere [doh] and well, i wonder what i'm going to do today. maybe i'll go eat some lunch now, and then go out somewhere. i wonder if riding a bike is going to be dangerous..
alright, so i'm back to blogging again. after the whole snow-trapped in house-can't go anywhere-madly bored day, i'd say this weekend is turning out pretty weird. ok, how weird is it not going to church because it snowed TOO MUCH?? i dunno..i woke up on a sunday at 11 for the first time..and, we're going out to eat with will's family? weird. just plain weird. anyways, you guys....HAPPY NEW YEARS! the time of the year to reflect back on the year..make stupid resolutions [one of mine is to get nice, sleek, toned abs..um...]..and look foward to a whole new one. if you ask me, i never really liked the whole new years thing...time passes too quickly for my own taste. that and..don't you feel like you always have this insane pressure on yourself to succeed in all these things the next year?? and then it sucks when you can't do it. ah wells...second thought, i have no idea what i'm talking about.
anyways, so it looks like i'm going to have a free day today! i think..i might go to harvest for church. does anyone want to join me? either i go alone or...with my brother and phil? and then they have to do some fruity thing like pick up tailored pants from banana republic. hah...ok, well..someone can join me! hey, what's everyone doing for new years? just wondering...alrights i'm out. Saturday, December 30, 2000
ah, the joy of fresh snow on the ground. how i love the snow or at least until i have to shovel it. 2 hours! i was outside for 2 hours shoveling snow...maybe that's not so bad, but it certainly wasn't fun. actually...it was kinda cool when my stinky brother threw snow in my ear...i tackled him and then buried him. okayokay, so maybe he let me...but that's not the point...it felt quite good to beat him up. :) lalala
Anyway...i wanna go see 'Finding Forrester' among many other moovies...hrm, i was gonna go today, but there's soo much snow! blah. i feel trapped. i hate being at home for so long with nothing to do 'cause then my parents end up finding something for me to do...and that's not good. unless of course your idea of fun is doing hours of practice SAT's. yay! i know... i'm tired...perhaps i'll go eat some ice cream..okie...bye bye :P
i was just reminded of the shania twain song....and it just sounds weird when a guy says, "man, i feel like a woman." woah now. that was a little strange.
anywho, it's snowing today. and it's going to snow all day. *sigh* why couldn't this happen on tuesday? that would have been awesome. oh well. :P i cleaned today. i organized my room and all my drawers and stuff. i have so many clothes that i don't wear...they take up so much space. and i feel like redecorating my room. it's really girly right now. everything is peach and yellow :) i want to make it cool and sophisticated. yeah. i want a cool room. a lot of people have been redecorating recently. maybe that's why i have the sudden urge. hrm... guess what i saw yesterday?? crouching tiger hidden dragon! it was REALLY good! the fight scenes were so cool and it was really romantic, too. *sigh* awesome movie =) yeah, skiing was really fun.. i'm done now. bye bye everyone.
man, i feel like a woman. my mom's in texas, and i've been doing all these daily household chores. like the pile of dishes and bowls and plates and silverware in the sink just kept getting higher and higher, so i had to load the dishwasher. eew, they were all oily and disgusting -- i think my dad enjoys putting his mouth to bowls and slurping. and then i just put another load of laundry into the washer. tell me if this is right: i used cold wash and cold rinse for the dark colors, and then warm wash and cold rinse for the warm colors, and well. it's all very confusing to me. and there's no one to explain. i think i'll get my mom to teach me how to cook. i don't want to be like my dad.. he can't do much of anything. we've been eating frozen foods. oh, and rice with stuff in little containers.
well, my scarf was kind of gay. it was this blue knit thing that some family friend gave us sometime [i don't remember at all] and i had a matching hat, too. but they both looked kind of girly, especially when i wore it after skiing the first day and steph arranged it into this style and then stood back to tell me i looked gay. and then i gave christine the hat to wear on the second day. and there were these kids who were throwing stuff at us from the ski lodge -- it was kind of interesting. you can go ask dan about it. i think he went up the stairs after them, and they closed the door in his face.. haha. well, do i have a point here.. hm. holmdel's better than high tech. and it's a lot more fun. except sometimes the people aren't that nice. i remember that all the high tech people were all really really nice, but then there were the really really strange people. so it's like a trade-off. i think i'll be back [really]..
Friday, December 29, 2000
wow. i'm so jealous of all you skiers. it sounded like so much fun. even tho i did ski, just not with you guys. i missed out, yet again. *sigh* as everyone's been sighing lately, i figured i'd jump right in and sigh with you. yeah, am i like...going somewhere? far away? cuz it seems like it...i'm so far from you guys, and the ski trip just kind of, opened the gap a little wider. gap. yeah, while i was skiing, i kept thinking of ellie's gap scarf. and how much warmer it would've been if i had one like it and not the one i was wearing, which was fuzzy in a scratchy kind of way, and not as warm as one without..holes. but it was nice. cuz my grandma made it. and it was pink, like my hat. yeah. it was great being with you guys this week, even though i wasn't really technically with you guys as much as some of you guys were with some of you other guys. and girls. i'm not trying to be sexist. freehold sucks. do you think we'd be closer if i lived in holmdel or marlboro? what if i went to holmdel high? i'd see most of you guys everyday. and...i can't imagine what that would be like actually... to see half the school population being chinese. weird. we have like, 20 chinese kids in the whole school. a school of about 1950 kids. and our building's smaller than yours too. argh. we're so cheap! yeah freehold. go us.
grr. i'm still kind of bothered that my blog missed two days straight. anyway, so i'm back after a day of nothing. ellen, you should've blogged at mine. and well, i made a new layout [kind of] for my new site. it's up now, and so you can't get anywhere unless you know the url to the old site. which is "whatever.html".. so if you have some weird urge to go see it, you can um, you can go see it. yeah. i want to do something.
wow, hey. well.. it's the first time that my blog's ever missed a day. and it was two days. *sigh* skiing was fun. i don't think i like big boulder, though. it's kind of annoying when you know all the slopes and you've been on all of them and there's nothing really new to you when you ski down.. maybe i'll do snowboarding next time. except i probably don't think i would want to do it without lessons. hm, i don't know. i think the best part of skiing is probably being with your friends. or for me, at least. i think if they stayed in the lodge the whole day, i probably could've done it too without really minding about not skiing. maybe. i don't know, my thinking's kind of incoherent right now -- i can't really understand what my thoughts are. skiing was fun. i really like being with my friends. well, sometimes.
mm, so i don't think i feel like going into detail. maybe i'll go write in my journal or something.
ok. so i promised derek that i'd blog..so here i am..not only cuz he told me..but cuz i wanted to too. so anyways, just got bck from skiing yesterday..mah whole body is sore and i can barely move. mah abs are sore and i have a sore throat..so wenever i cough..not only does mah throat hurt, but mah stomach hurts too. AI CHI! it was really really fun. i blogged about the whole trip at BLUEBEAR WALLIE..if u wanna go check itout..GO BLOG AT MINE TOO!. but anyways, yeah...i'm pretty tired...some things happened at the trip that got me terribly confused..but all in all, i had a lot of fun. thanks for all those that were with me! you made it a lot of fun and it was very enjoyable. you all should try snowboardin sometime...it's really a lot of fun. i'm not goin to vermont anymore..mah dad canceled it cuz he has a lot of work to do over the weekend..so we might go back to the poconos for a day...hopefully i'll be all rested up bah then...well, anyways, i gotta go..i'll blog more later
Tuesday, December 26, 2000
i love watching movies. especially chick flicks. haha, i know that's a sexist term, but what else can you call them? warm-fuzzy-romantic movies? hahaha ;) i like romantic comedies the best. *sigh* they give me a tingly feeling all over. it's great :)
i think i got everyone sick. or maybe it was norman, because he has been sick even longer than i have. i dunno. but, fortunately for me, i am feeling lots better today. i just need to blow my nose every five minutes and i seem to be hacking up a lot of..stuff. haha, yeah, stuff. ;) i got this really really cute TY stuffed animal for christmas. it's soooo cute. it's a little sheep-guy named woolly. he's white with a black face and black legs. except he only has front legs. he's SOOOO cute! aw. :) okay, i'm done. i hope all of you who are sick get better soon!! byeeee~*
um, so i'm back again. it's weird, these days i seem to be in such a "i want to watch a movie i want to watch a movie" mode. like all those movies i've always wanted to watch and never did, i suddenly want to see all of them. and then i want to see some of those warm-fuzzy-romantic movies at the theater, but then it seems kind of weird if i ask eric and norman to go. like, weird in a gay kind of way. well, i would feel kind of weird. anyway, so i know what i need: one of those friend not-girlfriend kind of people that would go with me to watch movies so i don't feel stupid. like you know how on tv and in movies they have those boy-girl "we're best friends" kind of situations, and they do normal stuff together. but then again, it seems like they always fall in love. oh well, hum de dum. i don't know, but i want to see those movies. like all those good romantic comedies and the touching poignant movies and just a bunch of them. what's on my list, hm. like i want to see "good will hunting" and "the usual suspects" and "my best friend's wedding" and "she's all that" and just a bunch of other ones. those just happened to be in my mind at the moment. grr, need to watch movies.
wah, everyone so sick these day. tomorrow we go ski.
um.. so anyway, we went to see "vertical limit" yesterday. it was a really suspenseful movie -- not suspense like horror-suspense "the killer's the boyfriend and he's about to kill everyone because of what happened to his mom!" but more like "oh no, don't get hurt don't get killed by a big avalanche or all that snow or rocks don't fall.." yeah, it was one thing after another. i heard quiet laughter to my left and i asked christine and steph "why are you guys laughing?" and they were like "we're not laughing.." so then i felt kind of stupid. and then christine was cringing the whole time and making funny whimpering "oh no" noises.. hehe. um, and because of all the swedish and australian and french-canadian and other foreign characters in the movie, i couldn't understand half of the dialogue. maybe i'll go find the screenplay sometime. and that one woman had like the most perfect skin throughout the whole movie. you could see her face, and it looked like it was all clear and she had rosy cheeks like she was wearing blush and well. i just thought it was a little strange -- you're on a freezing mountain, i don't think perfect skin can really happen. or maybe it can, i don't know. well, so now i'm trying to find a ride to sheila's house this afternoon. i'll come back. Monday, December 25, 2000
ahh...i'm so sick. or at least i was. what a blah way to spend christmas...i woke up at like 11:30 and ate lunch, then i got really hot and then really cold...so i went back to bed and slept from like 1 to 7:30...i've accomplished absolutely nothing today...fun...i think derek called, and then eric, i must've sounded really weird cuz i was so out of it...oh well...i'm tired...maybe i'll go back to sleep soon..okie...bye bye...merry christmas!
hey everyone! merry christmas!
i'm finally here blogging, after weeks of derek's threatening me to blog...jk=) so...yes, i feel so far from all you people. i don't know why, but i do. how's everyone's christmas! mine's very boring, and all i've been doing all day is watch tv and play nintendo. what a way to spend christmas. oh yes, i can't forget, i've been eating too. a lot. i must have gained like 10 lbs since thanksgiving, cuz ever since then, all i can remember me doing is eating. yes, so...happy christmas again! bye!
herro allison!!! so you finally blogged! how cool. hahaha ;)
i don't have that much to say, really. what am i doing online now? i don't know. okay then. everyone have a merry christmas!
hey. eh, my birfday's in march. three-two-one. oh, and eightyfive -- if you must know. anyway, here i am online again on a time when i should be with my family. my mom's in san antonio and my dad's upstairs doing work, though. he gave me a red packet envelope whatever-you-want-to-call-it with sixtysix dollars. something about the number six being lucky in asian cultures ["especially hong kong"]. mm, he could've given me sixhundredsixtysix dollars.. or because that's not such a good number, maybe sixthousandsixhundredsixtysix dollars. that would've been nice. and a little unbelievably amazing. i kind of want to see a movie today, if they're even open. and i'll make some more pillows. but anyway, happy christmas everyone. i'm going to look for an MD, hehe. er, hehe. he.
Sunday, December 24, 2000
hrm....i had the urge to blog....so here i am...herro!
well, it's christmas eve and what does my family do? we go to flushing and eat at a chinese restaurant. it might be nice to actually stay home one year and have a nice family dinner and all that good stuff, but i suppose this is okay too... but anyway...sorry derek, i really thought that someone told me you only liked regular nice cameras, but when your birFday comes around again, expect it...by the way, when is it? i'm sorry, but i'm too lazy to go get my planner and find out, for some reason i think it's in september...lalalala... there's only one hour and 8 minutes left until christmas! unless i did my math wrong, which is very possible...i kinda wish i didn't open all my presents already, cuz now there'll be no surprises..stoopid allison, oh well...oh wait...there's still one more, but my mom and my brother got it for me, they said it was for daily use, it's kinda small....why do i get the idea that it's like a new toothbrush or something... okay...i'm tired, this was interesting...maybe derek will stop bugging me about blogging now....g'nite! merry christmas in one hour and 4 minutes!
hello, hello. my brother has an i-zone camera. the film is so expensive. but i think it's cheaper at price club. or costco. i call it price club...because price club is so much cooler. ha! ;)
people with glasses always look so different without them. like, really different. it's weird. i think i have a problem with change. =) okay everyone...that's it for now. have a very merry christmas!!! :-)
*gasp gasp gasp* i thought for a minute there that my blog missed a day. but thanks to steph, it um.. okay. so it didn't, and if it did -- that wouldn't have been such a big deal. i probably would've been over it in a few hours, yeah. and hey, you left the cd there on friday night. we were listening to it the whole time, and then you left, and then we were like "um".. well. and allison, if you ever blog or read this, I-ZONE CAMERAS ARE SO COOL! and in those pictures you gave me, i look pretty stupid. without my glasses, i feel naked. i mean, like i'm missing a body part. maybe i'll get contacts some other time.
Saturday, December 23, 2000
aaaaaaargh. i hab a code. a bery bad code. poopy. my nose is stuffy and my throat is all nasty. i think i caught it at church last night. they really need to turn on the heat in there! *sigh* i hope it goes away soon.
i think i'm having some serious PMS. i've been having the hugest mood swings lately. sorry to all of you if i've been annoying or mean or whatever. i've been feeling really sensitive, too. yesterday, i was feeling really really stressed out and depressed, so i just sat in my room and cried. *sigh* i'm such a baby. that was probably a huge downer for all of you. sorry =) i don't think i'm ready for the christmas program tonight. i think i'm spazzing out. you know how i borrowed sheila's CD so i could practice? well, it was the wrong CD. so, i went online and i found the lyrics. i tried practicing. ARGH. i suck. but, that's ok. i must not panic. panicking is bad. ok. must stay calm. whoo. breathe..... so winter break is finally here. i thought i'd be a little more excited. is it just me, or does it feel less christmas-y than usual this year? i'm just not in the mood. *sigh* i have to get out of this bad mood! i need to have someone make me laugh right now...=P okay all. i'm done. sorry about the bad mood thing. it'll go away eventually :) alrighty, bye bye then. Friday, December 22, 2000
doo doo. i just got back from church. im sooo tired. tomorrow i have another full schedule...i cant wait until sunday night...christmas eve....where i can just....sleep in as late as i want...hey..if anybody isnt doing anything christmas day...call me and we talk talk on the phone!! i probably wont have anything to do..=( oh well. my family is boring. we dont do anything or go anywhere for vacations and stuff. oof. tomorrow i have to wake up early and go to salvation army...aroudn 8:45 i gotta wake up...then i get home around 1....get rady to go to OCM church around...2:30 i think...and get ready for their christmas program thing. their thing ends at like 5 or 6 or something like that, and then i gotta get to MCCC by 6:00 for orchestra and drama, and body worship and choir. i think i am in too many things....*sigh*....soo tired...i dunno why i dont just go to sleep early, i just cant. i dnuno. these past 2 weeks have been raelly really stressful with all the work and stuff. ive gotten like...3-4 horus of sleep a night. my schedules have alwayz been really really full. monday nights are the only free nights i have. for those of u who know my schedule, u know what i go through...kinda...u just havent gone through what ive gone through. i hardly have any time to finish any of my homework. sometimes i dont even finish my homework and i just go to sleep, and do it in the morning or something. doing homework during lunch is not an option for me because lunch is my second to last period, and the last period i have is band, so i obviously dont have any homework for that. do THAT nights homework during lunch u say? i gotta eat man!! and sometimes i just put my head down during lunch too...after school i have track almost just about every single day, and then wen i get home i usualy have to rush somewhere. i think starting next year my monday nights are gonna be filled too. my mom wants me to try out this new violin teacher and get me ready for orchestra tryouts next year. they are reauditioning everyone i think. and i stoped lessons like a long time ago. i gotta go people, my bro wants to use this computer...thanx for all the presents people!!! lub ya!!! merry christmas!!! happy holidays!!!! g'luck everyone tomorrow!!!
ugh, that's so not fair. i spent last night until around one making and writing and wrapping the christmas presents for those people that i won't see after today, and so. this morning was the second day in a row that i came to school late. i thought it would for sure be delayed when i woke up around six and looked outside, so i pressed the "snooze" button and went back to sleep. except my alarm clock never went off again, and i ended up waking up at around eight. i hope my english teacher doesn't mind. i left my essay and "postable quote" on her desk -- but then again, i hear from michelle that she says not to do that. well, hm. there wasn't anything else i could do. i just watched the rock, and wow. it's such a violent movie, but it was really good. or pretty good. and i think i'm going to do a lot of nothing for now, i might be back.
hm, I'm really full. my eating and sleeping schedules are really messed up at the moment. like, I've been sleeping at 3 and eating at all strange hours of the day [like I just ate dinner now, 1:30 about]. ah, a taste of college. ;-) argh, except I think it makes my stomach hurt. I think I like it better when it's normal ... maybe I'll make an effort to wake up tomorrow at a decent time.
I can't believe I have like five months left of school ... I think I'm going to die, just thinking about it. like sometimes during the day I'm like, "wow, I do nothing," and then I'm like, "that's good. I never want to go back to school. ever." senior year is so worthless, especially without your license. aaaand my stomach still hurts. goodbye all. Thursday, December 21, 2000
whee, my blog is back..! but i don't think i have time to blog. i just took a quick break from writing on my christmas presents, and i'm just waiting a little for the ink to dry. like, i'm leaving now. maybe i'll be back later when i'm done with my dumb engrish essay.
Wednesday, December 20, 2000
well, okay. here's your snow day, everybody. [there's a song by lisa loeb called "snow day".. i liked it.] so i was kind of dumb to not have checked my answering machine before i walked outside, and i saw norman across the way there waiting for the bus. i only walked out because i saw him. anyway, so we stand there for maybe fifteen minutes and no one else comes by and the bus doesn't come and the wind is blowing all this snowdust into our [or at least my] faces -- then norman comes over and asks if school's delayed. so i go in and check, and yes. so i tell norman to go home, and i come in to blog. oh, boy. i know i had something to say yesterday, but i think i forgot.
hehe, a bubble for a gym. and i'm not a font freak. i'm just into design -- print design is fun. except i don't know how i'll ever be a designer without creativity. right now, i don't think it's there inside of me. i have to start preparing these christmas gifts. hm, is anyone not going to the christmas thing? because then i'd have to give you a present beforehand.. ah. well, i finished an essay yesterday and i wonder if i'll have to hand it in today. hopefully a blizzard'll blow in in the next two hours. everyone come skiing with me [i mean, "us"].. Tuesday, December 19, 2000
two more days until i get out of the hell hole people call school. i just wanted to say that. the past two days have felt like an enternity. and you know what happened today? there was a fire in our school! actually, some kid in my grade set off a smoke bomb, which made the alarm go off. but then, there turned out to be an electrical fire anyway. so, my whole school stood outside on the football bleachers for an hour or so IN THE COLD..and then they moved us into the bubble - the detached fake gym with paint fumes inside. i thought we were going to be able to go home...but...we stayed anyways. at least i missed chem, gym, and math. maybe there'll be a fire tomorrow? or maybe a snow day. either one is good for me. i wannnt winter breakkk. =) thats all i have to say. alrights, i'm out. a girl needs her beauty sleep..or else i look like crap. =P oh..and..derek with his fonts again...sheesh.
hello, hello.
you know what derek? you are way too critical. as sheila would say, poop on you :P i mean, you were criticizing things that we weren't even responsible for!! *sigh* you are way too into the whole graphic design thing. you even know how much certain fonts cost. weeeeird. oh, and i don't think i'm going to even try to get that font for you. mwahahahahaha...:) i think it's going to snow tonight. well, that's what my mom said, anyway. i hope it snows a lot so we have a snow day...that would be SOO cool. but don't hold me accountable if it doesn't snow.. ;) i had a huge dinner today. i feel like my stomach is going to explode. ick. i feel sick. unghh.. [<-- that's a groan] okay, i really don't have anything of importance to say. not that i ever do, but, you know. alrighty then...buh bye, all.
uh oh, i haven't really blogged. i've been incommunicado, whatever that means. anyway, today was a little better than yesterday -- i didn't feel as crazed. stayed after until around four for this science research thing, and then sat in the yearbook office with steph and christine and criticized a lot of things. i want to be on yearbook. well, next year. and i think i'll take a quick nap, because i have orchestra soon.. why am i always so tired.
Monday, December 18, 2000
bri2k...hahahaha...that's really funny. :)
so i got the first of my christmas presents today. it was a beanie cow with a santa hat. it's really cute. i think i'll name it "nicolas armando so II" after norman. yup...nicolas armando so II. coolness. i'm feeling extremely pressured right now to finish this blog. chris is pressuring me. he needs to talk to his friend about a money-making scheme. yeah. he's even got busket bothering me. [busket is this way-cool gund bear with a smile. he's so cute :)] it was sooo cold today. and it was the first day my mom hasn't driven me in about a week. AND the bus was about fifteen minutes late. *sigh* it felt like my fingers were going to fall off. okay, i'm going to go now. but, before i go: "Drop and give me twenty!" "Okay, but that doesn't leave much room for yogurt!" boy, that was a funny one.. =)
hm, I thought I posted yesterday. a really dumb post, but I thought I posted nonetheless. ah, apparently not. anyway, I'm kinda sleepy. I didn't sleep til 2 last night and for some reason I woke up at 9:30 this morning. with this really wonderful dream in which I got deferred from college. it's kind of scary that I actually had a dream about that. but it really seemed real when I opened the letter, etc., and I didn't freak out, so I guess I'll be ok when I get my real letter if it's a deferral too. how comforting.
anyway, you guys must think I'm a freak b/c I talk about this so much, but c'mon, the college thing is very interesting. my friends at school call brian "bri2k" b/c of his school picture. senior pictures, they have one picture that you can choose to buy w/your year on the background, so I have a picture of brian with like ... him ... and in the really corny-looking background, "2000." so I think they got it from that. speaking of senior pictures, I've had mine for like 2 months and I keep forgetting to bring them in. yummy. wow, the mail truck just pulled up. Sunday, December 17, 2000
hello, you have to let me borrow the bbmak cd. i'm kind of angry from tennis. sundays are the only chances i'll get to play until spring when the season starts, and i want to improve different parts of my game. like my serves, which don't go down my back, and drop-shots and overheads and my ever-crappy backhand. so i'm playing a little not-so-good because i'm trying to get better, and because my racquet doesn't go down my back when i serve i decided to start with it behind me and do a half-motion -- and so i'm playing pretty badly and my opponent [roger chen, everybody] gets annoyed. so he tells the instructor guy who kind of yells at me in a calm voice and got the point across that he was a little annoyed too that i wasn't playing competitively, and that he wanted me to play to win even if my technique was horrible. so i didn't improve today. i'm angry. i'll never get better at those things. oh, and my guestbook's broken because they updated it. i'm going to totally fix everything computer-related over winter break. hopefully i'll find a nice hard drive, and i'll burn a bunch of these songs and movies onto a cd or many, and i'll install this webcam and take funny pictures. i'm such a nerd.
hm, I love the richard marx donna lewis song. I have the anastasia soundtrack b/c I'm the coolest girl alive, aaliyah has a really good song on it. I really like cartoons, I didn't realize that so much until this week. anyways, I've got to go, I just thought I'd break derek's lonely blogging streak. later!
Saturday, December 16, 2000
aha, i'm back. i blogged on "bluebear's wallie" [um] before and it's probably going to be longer than this one, because no one's said anything. i've been on a three-blog streak. that stinks. that shouldn't happen. well, so i downloaded "at the beginning" by richard marx and donna lewis, and i think i like both their voices -- they blend really well. i really like good duets, too. oh, and who's going to see miss saigon? if anyone goes, take me. i've heard so much [well, a little] about lea salonga and will chase and all that, and i want to see what the hype's all about. haha, hype. that's a funny word. if you add an "r".. it's "hyper". and if you get rid of the "y" and the "e" and the "p" and the "h" and you add "derek", you get my name -- wow. i'm dazed.
well, i have no idea what's happening today. i think i'm going out for lunch with my mom, we're going to go somewhere and maybe do christmas shopping, and then i don't know. i'm a little tired here. mm, and i still feel kind of dazed -- it's like a sad kind of feeling, too. in this weird depressing lonely way. anyway, so yesterday we played taboo and it was fun. i had a hard time controlling the volume of my voice. and i have to plan a discussion on "uncle tom's cabin" [i know, it should be underlined, not in quotes] for monday, and i have to write this newspaper essay too. ugh, what a boring week. i thought the holiday season was full of good cheer. oh, and hey -- i'm "sixteen-hundred boy"..
Friday, December 15, 2000
um, hey. what a weird week. and especially, what a weird day. i feel a little dazed right now. and if you don't know what i'm talking about, you can probably refer to eric's blog down there. but anyway, it doesn't count -- i wish it did. because i am most probably definitely going to do worse next year. and then there's still the real sat and the subject tests and everything, ugh. life is a test. okay, i'll be back later.
hm, how weird, the first time I opened this it showed all the blogs from like, 11.30 or something. weird.
anyway, I'm really tired. and oh so sick of school, this week has been like torture. [sigh] also waiting, waiting, waiting ... I'm definitely going to know by tuesday [college] and it's scary. or not scary, it's just a big pain to wait for so long. haha, I almost wrote "pig bain." and, derek, I dislike you. you are very good at standardized tests. hm, this day was really pointless except for one test that I had to take. every other period was like a study hall and really ... retarded. and I'm really tired today. at least I get to play taboo tonight. and at least brian's coming home in like four days now. and I'm going to find out about my deferral real soon. whee. this is so much fun, isn't it? sorry, not in the best of moods today. ah well, everything works out for the best ...
okieee.. well i tried to read everything.. but maii eyes hurt... and im in library and i dont kno if this is like.. illegal in our scool or watever...
the girl dat thought i wuz acting like a bitch is reading over maii shoulder. go away!!! sniff. there's a sub here instead of our normal librarian.. and she has freaky eyebrows. she looks like cruella deville.. or however u spell dat. hmm disney movies make mee warm and fuzzy. i think the other librarian is racist.. she only yells at mee and this other black girl.. and everyone else is like.. they can do watever they want. =(( she sucks. and.. wat is this online test thing? i wanna do this.. hm hmm im wondering who maii celeb match would be.. yupyup so im gonna go. biee
la la. im here at school and i have another free period for drivers ed. its weird cuz hes not suppose to be missing school a lot so maybe hes got some kind of sickness that doesnt have a cure. i dont like drivers ed at all. oh well. we got our PSAT scores back today. and guess what derek got! hes such a nerd! =) (sorry derek) derek got something a 1600 (sat score) with math and verbal combined. with his math and verbal and writing skills he got a 238 out of 240 i think. i did so bad. dereks just.....smart. ah well. im really bored. people are walking around me and talking and stuff. ok...some kid just hit my with his backpack....hello! u dont carry around every single stupid book u have around with u! thatrs what those stupid cabinets with locks are for! lockers! ugh. that really gets on my nerves. people go around carrying every one of their books. i dont care if their locker is on the other side of the school but u should never bring all your books around. doo doo. im really really hungry. i hate 7th preriod lunch. after this period is over, i have another period before lunch, but its a fun period. i have political development with mr. dooley. hes really kewl. he gave su a quiz couple days ago, 10 questions all multiple choice, and made all the answers A. we asked him after the quiz and he said it was easier to grade that way. actualy...all the answers were A except one which had 2 answers, but one of them was A. ah well. on our test, he gives us 10 points for just writing our name on it. he can do a lot of the accents too. its really funny cuz he has a conversation between himself with like a french accent and a english accent. i like his spanish/mexican the best. its so funny. ok. im really really broed. and i still have 15 minutes left of this period. i COULD do my homework, but then i would become too asain. so thats why im here. typing away on this blog. derek, how can u take bad pictures of us rehearsing? did u get me in any of the pictures? did u get my good side? doo doo. bored bored bored. im running in the stupid track meet on saturday. 400 and 55. the coach knows my name, which isnt too good. he said i was a good runner, and im in trouble now. i dont want to go to any of the meets cuz i know ill stink and i dont really have time. but i obviously have to go this saturday from 1-7, only i have a dance to go to at 7. so theres conflict right there. ugh. i hope i can get my mom to pick me up or something. i really dont want to stay. i dunno if i should go to MCCC on sunday. im really busy and i havent gone to my church in a long time. our church is having their christmas presentation on the same day MCCC is having theirs. but i hope itll end in time so i can go to both. argh. sooo busy...throughout the week, ive gotten maybe 4 hours of sleep a night. monday nights are my only free nights. tuesday, i have track, get home 6, guitar lesson 6:30 - 7, and then i have catillion practice from 8-9. catillion is for my friend who i havent seen in 6 years. its pretty kewl cuz i saw her for the first time this past tuesday and shes pretty. oh well. wednesdays i have to go to SAT class straight from track, thursdays i have to get home really fast and go to orchestra, and fridays i have to get home really fast to go to worship team practice. argh. doo doo. saturdays i wake up early to go to chinese school. i have learn the lion dance and yo-yo. i seriuosly cannnot wait until we are off....free from school...free from work....argh i cant wait. hmm....about 10 minutes left. la la. what to write what to write. school stinks. smeels haha. smeels. theres hardly anyone i know in the library right now. i nkow like 2 people and they are being asain and doing their homework. maybe i should do my hw too. haha. i crack myself up sometimes. just like i talk to myself a lot. it annoys me when im talking to someone and then they listen for 4 seconds and then start talking to someone else and leave me there talking by myself. it happens a lot during school and lunch and stuff when i talk to people. whats wrong with me? do i smell bad? am i THAT ugly? maybe i should just start talking to myself from now on. *sigh* la la. bored bored. ok..i gotta go. 4 minutes left and i dont know what to do. maybe ill jsut type for the next 4 minutes. oh wel. school stinks. my schedule has 4 academis classes first, then gym, then another academic, then lunch, then bandi hate this. i get sooooo hungry by 3rd period. uyhtrtd hehe. that was yishuan. she says hi to everyone. and now shes ltottttttttt oopos..that was her again. HI DEREK!!!!!! you're so hot.... hahaha. that was yi-shuan. she was one of the people i know doing her homework and being asain. i think she likes u derek!!!!! *wink wink* too bad u like christina though....hehe. so....2 minutes left. la la. what was i saying before. i dunno...i forget. i could just scroll up and read but im too lazy. my hands are hurting from all this typing and my left hand is cramping up. oh yea...did i tell u guyz i went to the hostital on wed? i had a leg cramp. but it lasted longer than usual. oops...bell rang. gotta go...c ya!
Thursday, December 14, 2000
mmpf, i signed up to be a "reporting photographer" today. and then he made me go right away to take pictures of a band rehearsal, and then he wanted me to take pictures during the quiz bowl meet -- well, not really a "meet". but okay, i did eight pretty bad pictures of the rehearsal, and none of the quiz bowl thing because i didn't really get a chance or have any real things to take pictures of. i feel embarrassed when i get a camera out to take pictures of people.. somehow it feels kind of weird. anyway, i'll be doing this the whole year. it seems more fun and easier than writing four articles a month for a total of a hundredeighty for the whole year. yuck -- i think i like photography better. i just have to get a good camera, and know how to use it really well.
so i came back from that quiz bowl thing, and it was okay. not all that fun, because grace picks the weirdest people for our team. we have a fat gothic girl with a pretty bad attitude and she seemed so full of herself, and this slightly weird asian girl with a goatee. kind of a goatee, i guess. mm, i'm being mean. anyway, it wasn't all that fun [well, it was okay] and i left early with grace lee. my mom and dad aren't home. i'm stuck here blogging. Wednesday, December 13, 2000
haha..so i'm pretty bored right now, so i decided to take all those wonderful tests online just like steph..=P so this is..me?
i'm an observer my color is green my celebrity match is brad pitt my type is the artiste [hah..] wheee..well that was fun. alrights, i'm out.
yeah, i was "in" newspaper last year. hahahaha...right =) i did not enjoy it. especially the whole thing with all the senior editors quitting. it just got ridiculous. plus, i hadn't written any articles and the "assignments" were getting a tad annoying..oh, and every issue came out about two months late. not that i'm trying to stop you from joining or anything... ;)
brad pitt. everyone thinks he's such a hottie. why don't i? hmm. actually, i don't think i've ever seen any of his movies. how weird. and i watch a lot of movies. maybe that's why... tomorrow's the quiz bowl tournament! i'm sort of excited. i feel like such a dork saying that...hahaha =) but, i am excited nonetheless. and then after that is the field hockey banquet. yay! fun stuff. :) alrighty then..that's all for today. i am outta here.
hey, and mine was jennifer aniston. i don't remember too clearly now anymore, but it said something about how she was normal and fun and down-to-earth and yet she was sophisticated and smart and elegant and something. oh, and the type of girl for me [according to them] is the "hopeless romantic" type. anyone know any? oh anyway. i kind of wanted to join the school newspaper, and i went to this orientation meeting today. but then i don't know whether i want to be a photographer or a reporter. and then it seems like a pretty important and busy commitment. i don't know, he says i can get back to him tomorrow -- mr. baranowsky. his armpits are really disgusting. well, hm. and the coca-cola marketing division got back to my e-mail. apparently, they can't give me a digital copy or a tape of their commercial. i'll have to find it somewhere else, then. or i'll just bug them again in a week..
wow, steph..my celebrity match is brad pitt too! haha..yeah, we both like guys who are sensitive...and yet extremely extremely attractive. =P anyways, i'm actaully typing this out in school..journalism II class to be exact. my indepth article was getting really boring to type..so...i went to blog? yeah..sad, i know. thank goodness this is the last period of the day. i am about to fall over and sleep. hah..alrights, i'm out. back to work i go! deadlines stink.
Tuesday, December 12, 2000
mm, i came to write a quick little blog about nothing too much. everyone look for that coke commercial. wow, eileen called today. i was stuck at school for an hour and a half doing nothing, because the stupid meeting was cancelled and they didn't announce it. i can't believe she's giving us a spanish dialogue to work on only in class, and it's due on thursday. and it has to be memorized. my celebrity match was jennifer aniston. i think she's married to brad pitt.
okay, so i took a few tests, and here is what i have learned:
my color is yellow. my celebrity match is brad pitt. my family is like the huxtables (you know, the cosby show). i am an "ambivert" which is somewhere in between "less extrovert" and "more extrovert" but more on the side of "more extrovert"...whatever that means :P and my superpower is invisibility. now wasn't that just fascinating? ;)
you know, when I went shopping at freehold mall last week, I kept on coming out of the store and turning the wrong way. you know, going back the way that I had come. so a three-hour mall trip probably could've taken like two hours if I'd just kept going the right way instead of making several long and involved circles.
anyway, I'm at school, and I am sleepy, and I am bored, but I am going. Monday, December 11, 2000
hello everyone! i haven't been here for awhile. well, actually, it's probably only been a few days, but at the rate you guys blog, it's like a month :)
anyway, i went shopping yesterday. man, it was TIRING. my parents went to see "proof of life" while i walked around for 2 hours by myself. i should have seen it with them. but i wanted to get christmas shopping done. so, i got 5 presents. 5! and i was walking around for like, 3 hours! aaaargh. i got so unbelievable tired. i felt like my arms were going to fall off. and today i just realized that i need to buy presents for, like, 20 other people, so i have to go shopping AGAIN. urg. but that's ok. i love christmas. =) my friend told me about her dream at lunch today. i was practically dying of laughter, i probably looked like a huge idiot....i laugh so loudly. anyway, so i tried to explain it to derek and i just kept laughing and it just didn't come out right. *sigh* and before that i tried to tell another joke, and that one didn't come out right either. i'm having an off-day, joke-wise. but then again, i was never that good with joke-telling. i'm using a lot of hyphens. wow. how random was that? okay, so..that's it. i'm going now. buh bye
hey. so i was trying to blog last night, but some unknown program was making my browser act really stupid, and it was getting me really angry [amazingly angry, ask ellie] when i kept losing blogs. my first one was almost three paragraphs and almost finished, and then the browser all of a sudden loads a page for a doubleclick ad that redirected to another page that wanted me to buy some stupid electronic thing, and my browser language encoding changed from "western" to "cyrillic". and so i was pretty mad, and had to go back to blog again. and then two minutes later, it did it again. and it kept doing it the whole time. i was so incredibly mad. okay, anyway. what was i going to say.
i'll be so mad if i lose this blog. so yesterday, i was preparing christmas gifts and i discovered that price stickers are so annoying to get off the packaging. those little pieces are still on there sometimes, and they make your hands and nails all sticky, and it's just so irritating. and then i was talking about how tennis yesterday was pretty funny -- the instructor pro guy brian was making fun of us about how our overheads were so bad, and then we walked around to the other side to practice serving, and he was still there, and i said "hey brian, stay there for a few more minutes", and he said "you guys couldn't hit me if you tried". well, we tried. and i hit him about five times in the lower body before he walked away after a minute or so. somehow, it felt good to hear the little fuzzy yellow-green balls smacking into him -- it's probably because he was getting on our nerves so much. he's so incredibly loud. and i don't plug my site, not anymore. i did change servers, though. i think i'll start making a new webpage soon, and it'll be grey letters on a black background too. but i think i'll probably have to learn more html and image stuff and. i need to find a muse, too. okay, i think i'll be back later. i've been at the same page for too long.
nice site jo...you make new jersey look..cool. =P you konw what's great about you? you have the ability to subtly plug your site..not like some people i know *ahem* who say "go to my site!! go to my site!! go to my site!! i change my server every month!" repeatedly over aim. ;) you know i'm kidding derek. haha..plain and simple, your site is really cool. i have a strange urge to go see rent..hm...=) anyone want to join me? alrights, i'm out. more blogs later...=)
it aint xmas yet . poo . so as you sit there thinking about the many presents you want but will not ever, ever, not ever, get, visit my site , and then i will be happy . so at least one of us will be happy . muahah. muahah. muahah... [ fade out ]
Sunday, December 10, 2000
i was going to blog on saturday, but i didn't get a chance. weird things..you know, my concience got to me about this blogging deal..like, i felt guilty becuase i didn't blog. haha...
anyways, this weekend was kind of..ah..i dunno. i went christmas shopping saturday night with eugene.. for the "joint presents" we're giving to people from the both of us. dang, we spent so much time walking, we only finished shopping for..3 people. *sigh* i need to do so much more shopping. and my funds are quickly running out. =P i'm confused what to get people. like, my friend will be like, "i found the perfect present for you!!" and i'm like.."ah...i ...dont...know..what to get you...." *sigh* well, whatever..its all good. i like christmas trees...they smell good. [wow, that was random! =)] anyways, in the middle of the "funny service" today [yes, i thought the shiny black eyes thing was pretty funny..], i all of a sudden felt soooo sick. like, blah i want to go home and sleep and throw up sick. eew..that wasn't fun. so..i went home! and..i don't konw why i'm saying this. but..yeah i'm a little out of it today. =) alrights, i'm out. my dad wants me to study..which means..i'm going to go sit in my room listening to music pretending i'm studying. riiight. yeah, something i need to do: change my mp3 playlist!! too many sad sappy songs. hehe..bye you guys.
hello. I was on hiatus. whee, hiatus. dude, I bought pants from delia*s [the outlet store, I went down there today], and THEY ROCK. soooo comfortable. [sigh of ... contentment] yeah.
anyway, let's see what's been going on since I last blogged. [you know, that was only three days ago probably, but it feels like a long time.] okay, tomorrow there's math league [see you all there ... half of you ... maybe just connie. see you, connie!] cheerleading, for all of you that would like to know, *was* fun. grr, ... everybody thinks my being a cheerleader is sooo funny. okay, so do I. one of my friends was in the stands and whenever we did a cheer he just pointed at me with this big goofy grin on his face. oh, we did one of those cheers where everybody has to say their name, and I couldn't think of anything, so I did dove hands. [do you know what dove hands are?] yeah, that got a couple laughs too. but it was still fun. I've been shopping like a maniac today and yesterday ... shopping is fun! I've found it's reeeaaally handy to go shopping with a guy. well not clothes shopping maybe, but like, gift shopping. and you know what, dan [the guy I went with, duh] needed my help a lot too. :-) yes, it works out well. anyway, I went to the six flag outlets today, which was a good time, except I forgot a couple people that I could really easily have bought presents for. I might go back next week [my flute thing is down near there anyway so ... why not?]. yes. yaaawn I'm so tired. and I've been shopping and not working, which is bad, b/c I have a test in I think every subject except physics next week. but on thursday I'm going ... somewhere [this dorky physics thing] and on friday I don't have any tests or anything so basically my week is going to screw me over [sorry for the language] until wednesday. and then school basically ends. oh my goodness, in a week I'm going to know whether I got into my early action school or not. my my.
oh wow. i came to check my blog and started reading the one at the top without reading the name, and then i was like "woh, i don't recognize this writing" -- hm. wow, eric posted. so now where's norman? and okay, church today was okay. i actually didn't fall asleep during the sermon, even though allison said there was a lack of movement for a while and my eyes were just staring down somewhere. connie and frances gave me their pics! i'm in a picture-asking-for mode -- everyone give me their picture. and write something on the backs, too. i kept laughing during the whole service today at funny things -- like ed said "we invested the money in cds" and then the pastor's wife was like "how nice to see all your shiny black eyes today" and then pastor al was doing this little touchdown dance and my voice was all shot. i need to get some sleep.
Saturday, December 09, 2000
well...i havent posted for a while. this past week my cmoputer has been uncooperative. its been giving me a hard time...but i did get a new computer that my mom brought home from the office. we havent hooked it up yet cuz we dont knwo who it goes to. i think its pretty much giong in my room in place of my old computer. right now, the computer in my room is a pentium I and its..."dying"....*sniff*...the one in my study room is a pentium III. and the one my mom brought back is a pentium II. so we have a pentium I, II, and III. the pentium I (in my room right now) is really messed up. there was a time when it died on me..and it wouldnt load up without a boot disk....and with the boot disk, u can get into DOS but nothing else. so it was pretty much useless...until i fixed it the "Russian" way. u know...if uve seen Armageddon u know what im talking about. it started to work after that. but ah well. enough of that. today instead of going to chinese school to make fun of the people in class by standing outside in the hall and making faces, i was stuck at the Kumon center taking an SAT for practice. it was weird. the lady gave us the form to fill out, and then after 5 minutes out of the blue shes like "ok start" and we're all like huh?? oh well, we were suppose to have 2 minute breaks inbetween but it got dragged to 5 minutes. after that i went home and watched TV and then when my mom got home, we went to Woodbridge mall with my "scary looking" bro, norman, and my moms friend. norm an i went christmas shopping for u church people. i made up a lsit and we went around writing down what to get people. hehe. we had fun. there are lots of thigns we could get derek, only i dunno if he would be offended by it. would u derek? hehe. ill tell u this now cuz we didnt get it for u, but we were gonna get anti-bacterial hand lotion for u at the bath and body works or something hehe. but we didnt. bad news is, (about our christmas shopping that is...) is that we've only managed to get stuff for 6 people so far..i dunno if i should name these six...i shouldnt. oh well. we'll have to find some other time to go or jsut find somewhere aronud here. its already the 9th!!!!! aahh!!! 15 days! can u believe??? ahh! im sooo not erady. its gets harder and harder to get gifts for you people each year. blah blah...wow. this is most ive written ever. doo doo. so bored. what to write what to write. la la la. oh well. ran out of things to write about. well...see you guyz around!!
my blog is acting weird. i just tried to reload the page to see if my new post was there, and it says "microsoft vbscript runtime error '800a003e' input past end of file /index.asp, line 94". um, okay.
oh, stop it. i don't make anyone blog, i just make suggestions. ugh, okay. and sheila, what are you doing up at midnight? and your blog doesn't show up on the page, weird. anyway, chinese school a few hours ago was boring -- i make all sorts of stupid comments the whole class, and i think i'm pretty annoying. came home and recorded my piano piece, and then i'm here to blog. and i want to go christmas shopping, and i have yet to make a christmas list -- ugh. i don't know who or what or when or where to get presents for, and it's all confusing. what if you get someone something and they don't get you anything and it just makes them feel bad? or what if it's the other way around. it's kind of a little problematic here. i'll come back later, i guess. yesterday was pretty cool.
hey all......i was supposed to write before..like..way before..but i didn't realyl have time..but yes..hehe..derek made me blog =) hehe. but anyways, i haven't blogged in a while. not even in mah own blog...i'm freezing right now..but i'm extremly happy! =) (hehe..ellen! i had such a good nite..like u wouldnt' ebelieve) but anyways, i have such a stressful month coming up..i have to teach body worship on sunday..and I DUN EVEN KNOW IT..i dun even know waht song we're doing...i'm in deep trubble =( but anyways, no a lighter note...how was everyone's week....it seems as if everyone i talked to had a cruddy week, but..hey, sunday will come! (hehe..i remember this guy gave a sermon..abotu dat) btw, ellie. hehe. how was cheerleading =) i hope u had fun. i wanna see u cheer! =) in ur lil outfit..well..sorry but i gotta go..i'm in trubble..*Sigh..bye
Friday, December 08, 2000
"leaving town" is pretty ok..it ..grows on you. at first i hated it..but..derek made me download it anyways. new song to like: "imagine" by john lennon. this whole john lennon day is getting to me. i don't *really* like john lennon, but its a good song..i guess. yeah. more blogging later, i'm out. gnites
"leaving town" by dexter freebish is a pretty cool song. yeah.. =)
i can't believe i had the highest score in the pretest thing for that academic bowl. hahaha....how funny. but, i think i've come to the conclusion that girls are better at taking tests than answering questions on the fly. you know, like trivia. it's either that, or guys are just more extreme than girls. like, they're either really stupid or really smart. i dunno. whatever ;) we made the cooooooolest layout for yearbook today! it was so pretty! ah, i feel proud of myself. and it wasn't even my section...i was just helping someone out. it was so cool! hahaha...yeah :) it looks so much like it's going to snow. the sky was really gray all day today. hehe, that sounds really funny.."gray all day today"...haha. ANYWAY, it better snow either on sunday night [and stick, of course] or monday night. that would be cool. that way, we wouldn't have gone through all this bitterly cold weather for nothing. it was so cold this week. one time i went outside and it felt like the wind was tearing through my body, it was so cold. *brrr* and i can't ever get up in the morning anymore. it's always too cold outside of my covers. it feels so good to be all warm and snugly [or snuggly--i don't know which] under the covers. mm. i want to spend a day in bed. that would be nice. it'd be even nicer if i had a tv in my room. yeah, that'd be really fun..
and hi again. i'm kind of tired today, i don't know why. i woke up this morning and my radio had been on for maybe over half an hour, and it was weird how i didn't hear it. i need to get some more good sleep sometime. nice, warm, comfortable bed. so today i forgot for the second week in a row that i had lab instead of gym, and if it wasn't for the same person for the second week in a row, i would've gone to gym instead of going to chem for my lab. and my chem teacher makes fun of me for not paying attention. um.. doh. i forgot a bunch of my stuff at school. i guess i'll get it tomorrow during chinese school. yuck, chinese school.
so what else am i going to say here.. hm. doh, christine called me obnoxious today for stealing grace's pictures. so being the impulsive not-thinking person i am [and also tired], i said right away "no, you're obnoxious". and um, those were the last words we said to each other. other than the ones i said later "wait, so did you want to see the pictures --" and the ones she said "no, i'll get them from grace later" and then that's it. well, i guess i offended her or something.. i'll apologize sometime. oh, and then i completely forgot that it was a lab day. lunch was interesting. i don't remember what happened, but i'm sure it was. and then i stayed after school and the whole time i wanted to go home. hm, what happened. i think more happened in that short time than during the whole day. some kid sitting with a group in the commons called me over and said "hey, _____ told me to tell you that you're gay" and i said something like "oh, tell him i said thanks". and then eric wong poked me in the sides and i turned around and impulsively kicked him in the back of the leg. and then right after that, dan came to push me into a table for stealing grace's book -- he had a big smile on his face, and was like "you stole grace's book.." and then what else. i went home on the bus. weird, mary lo was on our bus today. i slept the whole time, and never noticed the person next to me get off. bye, christina. and then i came home and ate something. and started to blog. and. i think angela was right. there are a lot of people in holmdel that i doubt will ever get anywhere. dorks. Thursday, December 07, 2000
hahahahahaha, cheerleading. cheerleading outfits. thinking about ellie cheerleading is just kind of interesting, in a hilarious way that makes me want to laugh. i wish i was a cheerleader. but ow, track shoes with spikes. and so hm, i'm remembering to say some things that angela told me yesterday to blog about. first she wanted me to say something about holmdel people being dorks, but then she decided it was too philosophical for this blog -- which she said was pointless, i think -- and so, scratch that. and then the second thing was that she wants everyone to listen to simon and garfunkel. we started talking about music after she mentioned them, and she wants me to listen to oldies music. something like the bangles and the beatles and other names of other bands i don't remember. anyway, so okay. listen to simon and garfunkel if you ever get the chance. i think it was a song about a bridge over troubled waters, or something like that. i heard duncan sheik on the radio today.
today, hm. went to school, did a lot of nothing, took a spanish quiz. stayed after school longer than usual for this science league thing -- i guess it would be fun. and then i came home and then went to an orchestra concert where we didn't practice, and just stood around for an hour or so [there were no chairs, ugh]. oh, and i stole grace's photo album. so i can't think of much else. the chem homework was annoying. oh, and i remember steph being on our academic bowl team, and she was the only girl [haha] and she had the highest score on the little try-out test too. and then i remember how we went in seventh grade [this time without her] and we won first place. and thank you, they chose me to be the captain in the playoff round. and we won free tickets to six flags [whee]. so guys are smarter than girls. except the weird thing is that there are so fewer guys in all my honors classes. okay, so what am i saying. smart guys are smarter than smart girls, while there are a lot of stupid guys. who are stupider than stupid girls. i guess so. some girls are pretty dumb. but not ones i know personally.. what's a garfunkel. i wish i had a cool camera, and took lots of pictures of everyone.
ooh, cheerleading. for some reason, ellie does not strike me as the "cheerleading type." but perhaps i am just stereotyping cheerleaders in general as the dumb blond types. yeah, i probably just offended about twenty people right there. i should learn to shut my mouth sometimes...i tend to say things without thinking and end up hurting other people's feelings. poopy. it makes me sad :'(
okay. so nothing really happened today. or maybe stuff DID happen and i just don't remember. hahaha =) i've been so scatter-brained recently. actually i'm like that all the time, but it's been more severe this week. i was so disoriented the other day at lunch. it was weird. yeah..
hello. friends is on! whee! argh, I'm pretty tired. in a physical manner. well you wouldn't think it but cheerleading *can* be tiring ... admittedly, not as tiring as, say, ... basketball, but it's still a big pain. like for instance, I was lifting this girl today. she was standing w/one leg on my shoulder and one on another shoulder. and she didn't take off her shoes [which would make sense b/c she wouldn't take off her shoes when we did the stunt for ... you know, a game] buuuut she wasn't *wearing* her cheerleading shoes, she was wearing *track* shoes, with *cleats* [don't mind the *'s it riles me up thinking about it] so my left shoulder has these charming red marks that her shoes left on me. [siiiigh] it really hurts. and we're cheering tomorrow night for the first time [I'm not going to felly] and we're like entirely not ready, but who cares. but I have a cheerleading outfit in my house right now. in my room. twenty feet away. scary, huh?
Wednesday, December 06, 2000
darn. now i feel bad about "ditching" derek....blah. christine and i (oh, what good grammar) were having the hardest time deciding what to do. i don't know why or when the job for deciding the teams came to us, but it did. so, we spent about a half an hour trying to decide what to do while JK was laughing at us. (i say JK because it just sounds so much cooler :P) anyways, we were using all different kinds of methods of decision making: head-or-tails, pick a number 1-10...you know what i mean. and we talked to grace, and she decided that she and derek would be some sort of package deal, so we either went with them both or neither of them. and then we talked to janet and by that time, we were just tired of thinking, so we went with her and allison. we made it out to be more complicated than necessary, i know. whatever. it's all said and done, but i feel bad now. oh well. i think i'm being a bit too melodramatic. augh. :)
i haven't blogged in while. i don't know why, but for the past few days, i haven't been able to get in here. it was really annoying. i was sitting here thinking, "NOOOOOOOO.....must blog....haven't blogged in so long.......nooooo..." while every time i tried to "edit my blog" the screen wouldn't show. the site was just being a dorkbutt. :P i just remembered the time i was on the school team for the academic bowl in 6th grade. hahahaha, it was soooo funny. i contributed nothing. and i was the only girl. dang, now that i think of it, it was hilarious. we sat there eating our lunches while mrs. jacks quizzed us on all sorts of trivia. i think "we" won 4th place..ah, good times. =) okay, i'm out now.
hello, hello. yes, of course -- blogging is always the first thing you should think of as soon as you enter the house from wherever you've been during the day. okay, so it isn't for me, but it should be for you. anyway, today was okay. what happened: watched english presentations, missed a special math test because my teacher never told me like he should have, went to an assembly with a motivational speaker, took a computer programming test, relaxed in yoga for a whole period, my chem teacher made fun of me [not in a bad way], and spanish was actually a little fun. oh, and then christine and stephanie ditched me for quiz bowl [thanks, guys] and i don't know if grace found a team. come to think of it, i really enjoy quiz bowl and other trivia-based games and whatever. i like games. i'll be back.
i talk to myself a lot. =P i came home today, and went straight to the computer to blog...just for good measure you konw? derek seemed rather upset that not many people have been blogging lately.
but anyways, i got back psat scores today..wow, i'm not as intelligent as i thought. =P hah..i mean, these things don't even matter. this is going to be a really random blog..i can feel it coming on. the baby blue 3/4 length pea coat is on sale at jcrew!! i wish i could get..psh. ah oh well. alrights, i'm out. i have nothing to say today. hm..after watching the caedmon's call vid, josh moore is now my hero. josh moore is my hero! haha... Tuesday, December 05, 2000
aw. don't tell me people are like doing schoolwork or something. too busy too blog? it cannot be. yeah, anyway. I cut my hair today ... or rather ... got it cut. and I was like, "what the heck, layer it." and she was like, "long layers?" and I just said, "I have no idea what I'm talking about so just do something different." and she laughed. so my hair is layered now. or whatever the adjective would be ... it looks all right. I kinda like it ... of course, it'll probably find some way to get annoying later in the year. my mom noticed immediately and said, "hey, so you're trying not to look like me" [ha. ha.] and when I got home, I asked my dad if he could tell anything was different, and he said, "er ... it's ... shorter, right?" men.
anyway, ... yeah. on saturday [sunday? I no remember] I recorded a song that I wrote. and it's on my website now. [I don't use your blog as a plug for my site, derek, I SWEAR.] oh, and I bought boggle! wait, no, not boggle. taboo! that's what I bought. so that our small group can play it two fridays from now. I'm not psychotic though. oh and they have chrono cross for playstation and now I really wish I had playstation instead of n64. the only n64 game I like is super smash brothers which I don't even *have* [which is probably good b/c I'd play it way too much anyway]. [siiiigh] I decided that n64 sucks. ... but I have nothing to do so maybe I'll go play it!
i love how a lot of the blogs here start off with, "derek is making me blog." hah...anyways, well derek is making me blog. and here i am, blogging. [wow, that sounds really stupid]
anyways, so piano comp went pretty well...christine spazzes out more than i do!! wow, thats amazing. i'm pretty good about spazzing out over things. anywyas, so christine and i help this little cello girl in front of us bring in a bench to sit on. we came on right after her, and apparently the judges had been discussing if we were twins or not......yeah. so we spend about 3 minutes discussing us looking like twins..this is the first time i was actually waiting for THEM to get ready. well, its all good. we charmed them with our lovely personailites. one note, that asian guy that does the timing..how distracting could he be?? another note, haha, a young cheng piano. i thought that was the funniest thing. after all was said and done..christine kept spazzing, and for the first time, i was actually the calm one. wow. anyways, christine came over to my house..and we bummed. you know, the usaul bumming things we did. we were really tired..we actually SLEPT. thats a new one. =P then..off to the grove. we were in gap for..oh...3 hours. haha...i think a chunk of it chatting with derek. the employees started to laugh at me and christine..i think mostly becuase we were like, "derek, try this on!" and "no, derek..just PICK one..don't listen to us, we don't want to pressure you like eric and jon." haha.. [oh, and i got this really nice feeling 3/4 turtleneck from br and this stretch shirt on sale..score!] hehe...off to starbucks..random talking with hot chocolate [you're welcome, derek]..home..more bumming with christine..then eat at tgif. i think i deserve eating out..piano is stressing/tiring! hehe..ok, enough of my boring intinery-ish blog. oh, note to ellie - that song playing at tgif..you know.."i'm like a birddd blah blah blah" ..yo, the title of the song is acutally I'M LIKE A BIRD. by nellie furtado or osmething. check the spelling. how gay a title is that...the song grows on you though. hah oooo..super long blog by ellen. =) alright, i'm out. derek, i tried to make this longer..to make up for all the blogs that should've been here for the past two days...hey, so now you're not talking to yourself anymore! eileen, i hope your eye gets better..=) and hm..what i think about the friends thing. in the summer...that was pretty much..a chunk of the summer. at nyack, the worst tuesday of my life, etc..things now are good..how i have no idea. yeah, i know this is no help. but sometimes, even if its not your fault, saying sorry helps. makes no sense? i know. maybe that's why i have a habit of apoligizing so much..but, yeah. and if it is your fault, saying sorry helps. ouch, it hurts your pride [trust me..] but ..yeah. i don't know why i'm saying this. or..even over blog for that matter. anwyasy, i'm out.
so now even i'm thinking "what's the point". derek, hey. how are you? i don't think that i ever had any weird habit of talking to myself. the only times that i have a conversation with me is when i'm memorizing things, i think. or when i'm really tired and telling myself my secrets. or when i'm just trying to think something out loud. or when no one's blogging on my blog and the only one i'm left to speak to is me. so hey, how's your day -- really. wow, you and i did the same things today. wow, it seems as though our days were exactly the same. and wow, you look like me. we're wearing the same thing right now, too..! we must be twins or something. something like retarded.
poop, no one's blogging. except eileen yesterday when i told her told her to, and [wow] she did it twice. and they were pretty long, too.. but okay. and after listening to what you said, [eileen] i don't really know what to say. maybe you should ask all these girls i'm blogging with. and ugh, i didn't make that competition. i guess i'm just not as good a pianist as my mom really thinks i am -- she says i have talent stored up, and the potential to be really really good, and i just don't work at it, and well. i don't know. she told me, and i just thought "oh well".. but now it just keeps popping up in my mind. oh, whatever. i have orchestra in a few minutes and the chinese carpool's going to be picking me up -- so. i'll come talk to myself some more later.
Monday, December 04, 2000
okiee.. well derek is making me blog.
so im blogging.. but its gonna be quickie-blog. soo.. umm i've had a realie crappy week. and this week is starting off even worse. soo.. last week.. i had huge fights and stuff wit my parents.. and then this week.. i get this horrible disgusting eye infection. soo.. maii eyelid was soo swollen.. u couldnt see my eye. it wuz like this huge puff, and then a teeny lil slit. and.. as soon as maii eye gets better... ...my friend gets pissed at me. so.. she says dat im ignoring her and acting bitchy.. and i dunno.. the ignoring part i dont kno about.. the bitchy thing.. well sumtimes ill be playin around.. and ill be like.. o, ur such a loser.. haha j/p.. u kno.. i mean, everyone does dat rite? ok well.. so she gets all upset and she's like, all u ever do is insult mee... and im like o no!! i realie didnt mean it dat way.. but now she thinks i think she's stupid or sumtin.. and then.. so i thought.. mebbe she's overreacting? or mebbe i am a bitch? i wuz all... ugh. so then i asked my other friend if she noticed the same stuff.. and she said yea.. but the two ob them are realie close.. and they always like... talk about mee.. and, ugh, well. i dont wanna think about this anymore. but... tell me wat u think? awrite.. im done venting.. i feel much better. im gonna go sneak in and try to watch ally mcbeal.. or mebbe not.. i might get my butt kicked. hmm.. i think ill risk it.
you know derek, you have an awful lot to say on this blog. like more than you ever talk in real life. and even on IM. that's ... odd somehow.
I'm doing my french essay right now (essai) ... I wish I was really good at speaking and reading french. like I'm ok at writing it and whatever, but I wish I was fluent in it. it sounds cool! I don't care what you say about its being an ugly language! (a lot of my friends at school make fun of the french. aside from the whole armpit hair thing ... they're cool, I swear!) ally mcbeal is on in 15 minutes! watch it watch it watch it! (then again what are the odds of someone reading this within the next fifteen minutes?) Sunday, December 03, 2000
um, so that was a pretty freaky episode of the x-files. that little kid with the stare was really scary -- and then the camera angles and music and everything just made it into a really weird suspense kind of episode. oh, and i saw this coke commercial with this kid with mistletoe that was so cute-romantic i don't know how to describe it warm-fuzzy. what am i talking about, i'm going to go to sleep.
okay, so my educated guess was wrong. that's a good thing, i guess -- in this case. whew, i didn't miss a birthday. and hm, that's weird.. why did i write out "stephanie chuang"? i think i'm getting kind of formal here. hello, how do you do. and how are you.
this morning i woke up and had to rush to get ready for church, so i didn't eat anything. and during worship and the sermon, my stomach kept making weird noises -- especially during the prayers and communion. after one of the weird sounds from my stomach that was quite loud, i turned to allison next to me and said "i think my stomach is making weird noises", and she was like "yeah, i heard". she was like, she was like. i hate saying that phrase. anyway, i was thinking wow, it was that loud. i should eat in the mornings. my mom always tells me that i should have a healthy breakfast everyday, it's good for me. so then we had choir and i stopped singing to listen to the rest of my bass section [well, not mine] and people are out of tune or out of rhythm or rushing or completely not singing or singing a different thing altogether. it was kind of interesting. and then i went to tennis in the afternoon and found out how much more i really need to practice. i have to get my racquet down my back when i serve, and i need to get a second serve. i think i have a love-hate relationship with tennis -- right now, it's kind of in an annoying slight dislike situation. Saturday, December 02, 2000
ah. cards and letters and stuff, was there something special i missed..? my educated guess tells me that it was a birthday, and it was stephanie chuang's -- am i right? uh oh, how come i don't know anyone's birthdays. i feel so.. unthoughtful, kind of. i have to make a list of birthdays.
oh, and that competition. i go to the basement of the brookdale library and it's a whole crowd of chinese people and a bunch of them are whispering in chinese about piano teacher's son [me] and so i register at the desk and wait for about half-an-hour, and meet christine and ellen coming out just as they call my number. thirtynine. my hands were cold, and then the weird anal [according to ellen/christine] girl tells me to sit down in this inner waiting room, and it's kind of like when someone gets up and goes in, we move over a seat, and it's like a line of chairs. so i wait there for about maybe fifteen more minutes, and then it's my turn and i go in. i walk into the room and there's this guy with long hair and this fat guy sitting side by side with their hands folded on the table in front of them smiling at me, and so i gave them my music and the guy was like "make yourself comfortable, play anything to get yourself warmed up a little" -- so i didn't take a bow, like my mom told me to. it seemed kind of weird to do that, after what he said and how the two men were just so relaxed and like laying in their chairs. so i played this quasi-scale thing, and then i played my piece. weird, i don't think i even really knew i was playing it. i don't think i really concentrated.. after i finished, i was just like "woh". and then the guy with the long hair in a ponytail made a [unfunny] joke about how i don't get to have my music back. and then i was like "okay, thank you, good-bye, have a nice day, you too, thank you" and i left. i think i walk-jogged out the door. maybe that's not so good for the twenty-point part about "appearance" or whatever it was that was on the little piece of paper. my mom was freaking out over that section. i had to wear a suit jacket. so then i went to tennis and played on a court with these two middletown south girls who were all hyper and weird, and then this korean-looking kid who wore his hat backwards came to play doubles and he had this blistering serve [i swear, he just had so much power and had spin and could mix it up] and he hit really really hard. i think i almost died on a volley. and then my mom picked me up to go to the grove just for some quick shopping [i need warm clothes, and especially pants and a coat] and woh, we run into ellen and christine at the gap. so they're picking out clothes for me to wear, and my mom is putting weird hats on my head, and then we stay in there for a while -- they keep saying how they were in that store for so long already. then we go to starbucks and drink hot chocolate [thank you, ellen] and talk about nothing really, and my mom makes these weird hand motions through the window that apparently mean "i'm going to go over there for a minute, i'll be back" and then my mom takes me away to go look for tennis shoes. and i buy these really white nike tennis shoes at foot locker, that i'll never wear other than when playing tennis. you know, i really wish i had a nice pair of everyday sneakers. what a quasi day. i'm feeling kind of quasi. wow, it's quasi in here.
hey ellen, i didn't get to thank you for the letter you sent me! [sorry, i know we're not supposed to direct this to specific people, but...whatever =P] it was really sweet and cute and stuff :) i should write you back.. actually, i think i will. ok, be ready to get a letter in the mail. soon. anyways, thanks to all the other people who gave me cards and stuff, too :) you guys are so cool. ;-)
anywho, i think quasi is THE new word at this blog. quasi quasi quasi. if you say it over and over it begins to sound funny. same thing with "the". hahahaha..i crack myself up =) i asked this at bluebear's wallie, so i guess i'll ask it here, too. *ahem* how did you all do on your piano competition/auditions? i'm not too sure what they were...but tell me how you did anyway. so, i think i exhausted all my creative reserves last night when i was going for a loooooong blog. i can't think of anything interesting to say now. i'll probably stop here. byeeeee~*
yo, life can be so quasi sometimes. hm, but I think I ranted enough on my roller coasters page just now [go!] so ... I'll talk about stuff.
argh ... I think ... I don't have that much to say. [hm, I'm retarded.] just ... very ... [sigh] I hate when life is quasi like this. it's so ... [sigh] bothersome [sigh about a hundred more times] later! Friday, December 01, 2000
hey wow, derek we have so much in common. i just got finished practicing piano with christine for tomorrow..my audition time is 11 23. nice round number, isn't it? yeah i thought so too. i keep feeling this odd feeling..i think mostly becuase i didn't go to fellowship for the whole time. i didn't get to complete the full on fellowship feeling. you know, its like, hm..worship..and ...go home! i wanted to talk to people..apoligize to sam for acting so meanly when sheila introduced. i actually like..muttered, "i hate this.." when we were introduced. *sigh"..i don't know what i was doing. i felt really mean. and i didn't get to say hi to anyone..or go to small groups..its like, you start something..and it never finishes. alright, don't mind me, i don't know what i'm talking about.
i'm thinking this will be a long blog. just a warning mentor ellie. =P anyways, wow, i recapped on my past week..but i never realized how much happened in just two days. way too many emotions i tell you!! i feel like i'm on emotion overload. its like..in one hour i'm happy, sad, angry, rejected, accepted, and then i'm embarrased..and there was much more to add to the list...so much more..like, my emotion-y place [i dunno..my heart? head? soul? er..] is about to burst or something. yeah..told this to my friend, he was just like, "its pms." whatever..i think that i, as a female, would now how i am when i'm pms-ing. hah.. oh, hey derek, i am like, half way done with your letter! i started it late last night when i should have been studying, but i was so tired..so i fell asleep. hah, so i only have a few things written down. but, yeah you'll get it sooner or later. derek, you like letters, don't you? haha.. oh, well i'm thinking i will go and sleep now. its been a long tired week. even if i did get a lot of meaningless things done ..my quasi phases...ah..i don't know. i really could have done without this week. it wasn't exactly the thing i wanted *sigh* this sounds kind of depressing. hey, i have a feeling this was the most ranting i've done so far..and the closest thing to a "real rant." alrights, i'm out. gnites everyone! good luck to everyone going to the piano comp..perhaps i'll see you there. gnites
i try to write long blogs. i start out with all these cool things to say that are really interesting, and then by the time i finish saying one of them, i forget the rest. supposedly that's a sign that it really wasn't that important, but whatever :P
i am the worst piano performer on the planet. if you've ever seen me play, you know what i mean. it's pretty funny, now that i look back on it...but at the time i feel like i want to crawl into the fetal position and weep in the corner. i get extremely nervous and i mess up on things i never mess up on.. i should practice more. i have to learn and memorize this seven-page song by march or something now. poop. it's really hard. i started "playing" it yesterday, and i don't think it sounds like it's supposed to. hmm. oh well. i have practically NO homwork this weekend. i am esctatic yet again. hehe :) so, i plan on shopping and buying lots of stuff, because last week, i went to the mall twice and the only thing i bought [for myself] was a headband that's really shiny. i like shiny stuff...it's so....cool. i know, i'm simple-minded--shiny things amuse me like nothing else :) ellen and i are trying to make our blogs extra-long just to annoy a certain person...:) actually, i don't know if it'll work with me, because i'm not that creative. but maybe if i just ramble on, something of importance will come and be interesting to you all. hmm...oh yeah, so lunch today was really really funny. my friend michelle was talking about how in english class she was trying to stifle a really bad cough, so she was clutching her throat and telling herself to swallow periodically while tears were streaming down her face. if you just picture it, it's funny as anything. i think i almost died of laughter. or at least of the pain in my abdominal muscles from laughing so hard. it was a real workout. there was some other stuff, too, but if i tell it all, it's going to get boring :) yeah, so writing a long blog is getting increasingly difficult. and time-consuming. it takes me way too long to blog. i think i'm slow or something.. well, i've given up. i am outta here
you guys are mean. what's wrong with long blogs? long blogs are good, you should always blog a lot. and so i'm here missing fellowship and about to go practice piano for tomorrow -- this carnegie hall competition. i hate competitions. they're just so.. nerve-racking.
hm so, i just came back from practicing -- i must've played that piece about twenty times. i have this not-too-hard piece that sounds pretty hard and it's really fast and has so much rubato and hopefully the judge[s] tomorrow are going to think that i worked a lot to play this. but then again, i hate recitals. i don't think i exactly want to go to carnegie hall all that much. when i was younger [like in elementary school, those times] i used to play in so many recitals. spring recital, summer recital, fall recital, winter recital, halloween recital, valentine's day recital, christmas recital, thanksgiving recital -- it was crazy. and now i don't play in any at all, really. and i can't play when my hands are cold. i'll need so much warm-up tomorrow. and i have never written twenty-page-long notes. ever. |