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i wonder if it's common practice for other blogs to randomly change their blog names once in a short while. because i did it first and then connie did it and we both do it now to a ridiculous degree. so i'll just go rename my blog now again.
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Wednesday, February 28, 2001
hello, i finally got accepted into derek's blog!!! well anywayz this is my first time blogging here and i gotta say, you're popular derek. i am intrigued by your social status. maybe that's why everyone comes to you when they wanna slow dance. =) well my blog isn't getting anywhere so i'm joining an "A" class blog. i feel like i'm in the "in" crowd now. so anywayz just wanted to say that. toodles
christine, you are beautiful. =)
we did timed miles today at practice. i totally did not pace myself and i was ready to die on the second lap. well, i didn't and i kept going and ended up running it in 8:30. that's pretty good for me [i think] and i felt like i was going to puke. then we had to run back to the school and i felt like dying again. running with this cough thing is really annoying. i kept getting this really nasty phlegmy feeling and .. yeah. ugh. anyways, carly and me are, like, twins! i mean, we look so much alike and everything..and we even have the same lacrosse sticks! except hers has a yellow head and mine has a white one. but, anyway, i suddenly got really excited about ireland at practice. i'm so excited! yay! hehe. sorry, i'm weird. =) a short blurbito. sounds like burrito. mmm.. those are good. i wish i could take a trip to spondee city. i bet they'd have a lot of ellision there. and scansion. latin is cool. and i am a dork. =) i need to apply myself more. argh, i've been such a lazy butt lately. and then i started freaking out yesterday because i realized that practically every single class i signed up for next year is honors [or AP]. ACK! i don't think i'm going to make it junior year... doh. what am i getting myself into? oh well... :P ok, i guess i'm done. bye guys.
ack. this is my second attempt at "blogging". it took me forever just to figure out how to blog in the first place. gee did i feel like a moron. so anyway, i finally got off my lazy butt and went running today with caitlin and ann to the park. needless to say, i died. i'm so incredibly out of shape- it's amazing what 3 months on your butt can do to your physical fitness. i was so incredibly relieved to finally get back to school..and as i was chugging down a bottle of water, jeremy takes a picture of me. yeah, i'm sure i looked beautiful with my sweaty hair all over the place and my face bright pink. i prolly looked like i was about to puke. yeah. beautiful.
um, blogger's messed up again. i just posted this little short blurbito about how i played guitar a little yesterday and today, and how i didn't get to officemax because it was turning dark and cold by the time i got home. and my fingers hurt, that too. and i pressed "post and publish", and this stupid stupid thing wouldn't publish. actually, it published -- just not my blog. i think it just republished the whole thing. i want to go to design school. and make cool things.
guess what, everyone? i'm copying derek. i'm suddenly motivated by his "applying himself" blog. sounds like a good idea. it reminds me that i should get off my butt and do something. so basically i made a list of things to improve in, and now hopefully hopefully (*crossing fingers*) i'll be able to stick to it. so that, you know, my life has somewhat of a purpose. anyway, i'm going to go outside and draw now... sorry, derek, for umm..copying you. and steph/richard, how cool is scansion? spondee city...
Tuesday, February 27, 2001
and bomb scares are interesting. brookdale's quite prone to them -- last year, there were at least four. we always had to stand outside the stupid high tech building on the grass and just stand around. the high tech building is actually a pretty cool building. it has this whole side that's like a huge glass paned thing, and yeah. i was reading this article about the "ten best new media" schools and i really want to do this now. number one is mit's media lab, and you get free tuition and a stipend, which ellie says is a "sum of money"..! except it says you have to be a supergenius to get in. that's taken verbatim from the article. and another quote about the possibility of getting in: "your chances: applicants must demonstrate a substantial level of commitment and accomplishment, although many successful candidates have unorthodox backgrounds that aren't narrowly technical. still, knowing unix and programming languages c or lisp is crucial, as every research area depends heavily on computational methods. but if you're not intimidated by the website, you probably have a reasonable shot." and then there's an interactive telecommunications program in nyu, the arts school in ucla, college of design in art center in pasadena, et cetera and so forth. they all look good. and none of them are more than like $10000 per year. wow, i want to go there. all of them.
guess what, everyone? i haven't combed my hair in four months..! and today i wrote in my journal for like two pages, okay. i don't think i have much to say -- um. school's kind of boring. i'm going to start to apply myself to other things, and get smart. or something like that. tomorrow, i'm going to buy a notebook and a sketchbook, and then i'm going to be constantly jotting things down and drawing things from now on. i mean, hopefully. it'll be like something i'll carry around all the time, i guess. and i'm going to start actually trying to play guitar. i want to order those cds soon -- maybe tomorrow. and tennis, that's something i want to improve in. but i don't think athletics fit into the big picture, i guess i'll just do it to exercise. and get in shape so i won't be as fat. and you know, i have no idea what i'm talking about. "applying myself", hm..
My school is so ghetto. I dunno if you guys have heard or not, but one of our physical education teachers, who is also our school's wrestling coach got busted for being part of a drug ring. Yeah people from other schools may be like "yeah our school is ghetto, all the kids sell drugs." Well from our school, the TEACHERS sell drugs too. Heh. then later today, we had a bomb scare....after school was over. I was at a school newspaper meeting, and all of a sudden the PA system was like "In a moment the fire alarms will go off and everyone should evacuate the building." My friend was at the office before the announcement and he told me he saw LOTS of police in there...and they were like "Uh...Yeah it might be a REALLY good idea if you left school at this time." So then i was going to get a ride with eugene home but he had left his backpack in the school. So we couldn't leave until at least 30 minutes later...until the school was "secure."
I started running yesterday. It pretty much sucked. I have no idea why i want to do track. It starts on march 8th for us too! My one month hiatus from track is .... over. It went by way too fast.
Guess what everyone? I went running today! And it was a really cool feeling after 2 months of bicycling and sitting around, except for the fact that I was dying after only 1 mile on the track. And it was somewheres between an 8 or 9 minute mile, which is pretty ugghh. But I guess that's too be expected. At least my back didn't give out. That's a good sign. I think I've had an unusually sick winter this year, too. I was sick half the winter. Everyone was getting each other sick, especially me and Howard. I think it must be the stress of this year. nobody wants a sophomore slump, so we're all stressed and getting sick. but i think i would rather be stressed and sick and getting good grades, than healthy and failing. wasnt it touma that told us the 7 second attention span thing? and mr. kennedy told us the 20 minute thing, about how we could only concentrate on a subject for 20 minutes, and then we would have to take a break or change subjects? i found that it applied to me, and i was like, wow.
woah.. i feel weird right now. hmmm...
ANYWAYS. *ahem* i still have that nasty cough. it's icky. yesterday, everyone at our lunch table was coughing that phlegmy cough except allison and michelle and they were like, surrounded by germs. it was quite funny to watch them cringe in fear. hahaha :) what is up with this year? i am getting sick a lot more often than usual. noooooo..... i hate being sick. not that i'm that sick this time. it's just really annoying right now, especially when i try to laugh. it seems that whenever i laugh, i breathe in through my mouth and that makes me cough.. and it's yucky. okay, i'm going to stop talking about myself now... how are you today? and.....we're back. i've noticed that michelle has a very short attention span. did you know that the average attention span of a person is about seven seconds? weird stuff. yes, it's the dorky trivia nerd showing in me. =) anyways [i say that a lot..], how could you reject someone who asks you to dance? man, i feel for you ellen. ouchies. but, there are plenty of fish in the sea, and i bet plenty that are better than derek. hahaha. of course, i'm only kidding. this IS the 'i love derek' fan club after all. hehehe... ;) la la la.... i need to know more about music. i know all these people that know everything about music and then there's me. man oh man. i feel so clueless. but it's okay. i know other stuff. yeah... other stuff. :) okie dokies, i'm going to go now. i need to start my homework. i'll come back.. sometime. and thank you for the 'happy birthday's!! you guys make me feel all warm and tingly inside... =) hehe, okay, need to work now. BYE! Monday, February 26, 2001
just a really quick blog, i'm probably gonna forget everything i meant to write...yea, derek you said something about an acoustic guitar a few days ago, but now I forget...oh yea, yes i do play piano, but i quit. and....oh no i'm losing it...noooooooo gosh stupid darnit!!!! my stupid memory span only lasts like 3 seconds!!! oh screw it, just forget it all.
oh nooooo i was just about to reblog and say something but i forgot it again!!! nooooo!!! and i think i lost my blog about the band Plumb and wanting to know what good songs they had besides "Stranded"...blurg...oh yea, ellen, we don't need derek, not when we have each other! yay! .....
i'm taking a break from homework, which i really don't need nor have time for. distractions are fun. and distracting. national latin exam tomorrow! good luck, latineers...i should really memorize those 4th and 5th declension endings. hmm. i went running today. it was gorgeous out. and the sun didn't set until like 5:45. or sometime around then. i really hope it doesn't snow wednesday.
that mormon girl's guitar was out of tune? shows how much i know. except actually, i do know how to tune a guitar. so, yeah. and i downloaded that coldplay song, and i've heard it before. probably on 92.3. or maybe 106.3. grrr...stupid sellout station. it's a pretty cool song. i haven't listened to enough others by them to make a judgement about the band. i'm off to make some lewis dot diagrams, old school style [as opposed to modern], so, umm, that should be fun. right.
whee, its a monday! i hear that its supposed to snow on wednesday..well thats a thought. oh, and feel better derek. you were acting kind of...yeah.
party party party? dude, it was fun!! dj was a bit scary looking but that's ok. gospel music during the candle ceremony? that was interesting. but allison looked sooo pretty!! [and i know she will read this..danggg stop stalking] hehe. it was really deja vu-ish though...i was still at table 2, in the same room, and janet was there looking a bit similar to her sister. and we did the electric slide. weird. oh, and i looooove how i was the only girl at the table who wasn't "with" a date. and of course, allison's brother will brought his "boyfriend"....and my brother danced with will...so then i danced with will's boyfriend?...right. it sounds like a twisted love triangle. or quadrilateral? wow i sound like a dork. derek, someday you will crawl out of your shell and then you won't have an excuse to shoot me down and break my heart. *sigh* i saved the last dance for....you. the "i love derek" fan club is coming back... anyways, i like coldplay! the album is good, they're some cute brits, and well..i think they're better than radiohead. "ok computer" was a really really really good cd, but kid a was...everything is so digitalized and electronicalized and a lil jumbled..and they totally don't have melody anymore. i dunno..i'm a purist i guess. either that or a conformist. anyways, these opinions are all coming from a girl who also likes nsync, so..yeah. =P hey, and what's this new obsession with guitar playing?? but i too want to play guitar...well. i kind of want a new guitar. haha, and the morman girl was pretty cool...kind of like the skater-blonde-naive-free spirit character. her guitar was always out of tune though..and now i sound like derek. woh. alrights, i'm out. steph, happy birthday again..you'll get a lil somethin somethin from me soon..hehe. everybody..feel better!!! Sunday, February 25, 2001
okay, so i guess my blog's fixed. and i'm sick. not like i'm a nasty disgusting person "sick", but my throat is filled with phlegmy stuff that i keep coughing up. my voice sounds funny. it cracks for some reason, so it sounds like i'm going through puberty or something -- fun, very fun. i was very not myself today. sunday school was interesting.
anyway, party party party. i was feeling kind of tired and a little dazed-sick after the first hour or so, and well. i can't dance. and even though i probably should go out and try it, i just don't. being sick and tired mixed with the shy and self-conscious part probably didn't help too much -- so i sat around a lot last night. i danced with caitlin again. because for some reason she asked me, again. and then i didn't really get up after that, only to spill water on grace on my way to watching eric light a candle. and when ellen and connie [ and kind of grace, i think ] asked me to dance, i ended up saying something like "no, i'm sorry, i can't.. dance". i wasn't really feeling like doing anything -- sorry, you guys. if you ever read this. blah. what's "guitar-wise"? and coldplay is this cool young new british band that's supposedly the "cute british band" of the 00s, with their brooding counterpart radiohead. or something like that -- i want their cd. and the bbmak cd. bmg, here i come.
Happy birthday Steph! I danced yesterday. It was kind of an odd feeling. I tried to do the electric slide, but I kept messing up my hands and feet. The DJ actually played the music Srikar and I requested. So I was singing Bohemian Rhapsody again, but this time with Alex. Maybe the next sweet sixteen we go to should have karaoke so we can sing it with Neil. And I danced with Michelle. If that dj didn't make the girls choose, I probably wouldn't have danced with anyone, or maybe I might have, but probably not. I tried to limbo, but I failed miserably. stupid pole. I want to light a candle. It looks fun. Maybe I'll go try it now, or maybe i'll write my ben franklin journal. Maybe some of you should download Mas Que Nada, or Trashin the Camp, or But Mr. Adams, or If You're Gone, or Bohemian Rhapsody, or Tainted Love, or Domo Arigato, Mr. Roboto, or the Firebird, or the Peer Gynt Symphony. yea. ok.
happy birthday steph! sorry i forgot to tell you last night...but dude, you have to like, tell everyone when it's your birthday. coldplay? what kind of music is that? never mind, i'll just download some songs...so to my absolute delight, i found real latino ska on napster today (and yesterday). los pies negros. good stuff. i wrote this other blog today and it got messed up and i lost it and i was kind of mad, but then i realized it was all crap basically so that's okay. everyone's sick! i think definitely something was going around last night, because quite a few people i know aren't feeling well...watch, i'll be sick, next week, after everyone else has recovered, as usual. hehe, this blog is turning out to be crap also. oh well. michelle, i agree with you about the dj..he was a little weird...but the party was still fun. but c'mon guys, dance. when you're all like 40, you'll realize how fun it is, and it'll be too late. hehe, isn't it funny imagining us all at 40, getting our groove on to some song like "she bangs?" oh yeah, so here's my observation: did you guys ever notice how you always save stuff for the weekend, thinking you'll have SO much time (like, oh, i'll catch up my chemistry comp book over the weekend, or i'll study for the test, or i'll have time to watch tv, or sleep, or relax, or make a cd..) but then, you never ever do! damn...i think weekends should be longer...like, why is a week 7 days long? a week should be 8 days long or maybe 9, the extra days going into the weekend. so you would have time to do something substantial, and you would have time to do nothing at all, also. if that makes sense. or not.
guitar playing is really neat. i wish i could do it..i want to be like that mormon girl from real world new orleans, playing guitar-wise at least.
hahaha, michelle, you are hilarious. =)
i went and saw 'chocolat' with my mommy and daddy today. it was goooood... and very cute. hehe. it had a happy ending and i love happy endings :). and the story was very cute and all that. yup :) my brother got me the coldplay CD . it's pretty good... i only listened to it once, so i'm not used to it yet. i have a thing where i have to listen to a CD a few times before i absolutely love it. well, unless it's really really really really good. yeah, you know what i mean. ;P i hate this cough.......................ergh. i'm must have gotten sick last night. i probably should have payed more attention to which glass i was drinking out of.. hehe :) but, it was fuuuuun. allison looked so pretty!!!! hee hee :) okies, i'm hungry. i'm going to go and write my current event summary now. byebyes..
ugh, where is everyone
I hope I didn't smell all sweaty n crap when i was dancing.... so i didn't like that dummy DJ-oh well, the party was still fun can you believe we don't have a break until march 30? ugh!!! yea, well i'm outta things to say... I was goin home w/ srikar and like i kinda forgot his dad was there and started talking about how em n brian were making out n srik turned around n was like shhhh and i was like CRAP and just was like "ummm yea...soo....." blah I'll be more careful next time Saturday, February 24, 2001
yuck, i just took a shower. i hate taking a shower in the middle of the day, and well -- now i'm wearing a dress shirt and khakis. and i have to go write a card and wrap a gift, so my scissors and tape and pen are in front of me, and i'm about to go upstairs and do all that. soundtrack: bbmak's "again". i like that song, for some reason. i think i'm always drawn to the slow more depressing plaintive touching okay-whatever songs. and anyway. michelle, do you play piano? i have this really nice acoustic-electric classical yamaha guitar that's been customized by the last person who owned it, and he sold it to me for like only two hundred dollars -- and i haven't really been playing it. i know most of the normal major chords, except for like b and a lot of the weird accidental ones, and then i don't know the other chords at all. i should start playing sometime. oh and norman -- if you ever read this, i want my drum set back.
this is weird.. i was just talking to christine on the phone and we were talking about how we both really wanted to play guitar. yeah. i think it's something a lot of people want to do. mm..i want to play guitar. that's another one of those poetic things. i wish i were [or is it was?] more poetic. i also need to work on my grammar skills. ;)
i think i'm getting sick again. i have this yucky phlegmy cough. why is phlegm spelled phlegm? it should be spelled flem. okay, anyway.. i don't want to be sick again... blaaaaaah. hehe, oh well. oh, you don't have to get me anything... unless you want to, of course. hee hee =) i'm devious. or not. hehe, YEAH. ok, i'm babbling. :P maybe i should go and get ready soon... alrighty then. bye!
crud... i lost my train of thought...oh yea, derek, I was thinking the same exact thing, i really wanna learn how to play an acoustic guitar n be able to be like one of those people with a guitar...like jewel or something, ya know? yea. But then again i've been planning to start learning for like the past half a year, so it's prob not gonna happen anytime soon. Oh well.
well now. i just noticed that i said i would "bore you some more later" -- that kind of means that i'll drill a hole into you, right? or like what's the word. i'll hm. i don't know. i have something poetic. actually, i don't. okay, i'm being stupid now.
eileen. that was completely, um -- well. you should talk about something next time, and you should IM me next time you're online, and okay. anyway, i was listening to the bbmak cd last night, and i've decided that i really really want to learn guitar. i mean, i want to learn to play it well, very well. you can't bring a piano places, and with a piano, it sounds stupid when you play chords. it doesn't work out. well, i don't have much to say. i signed up for the may SAT. and i have to find a ride to tonight's thing. i haven't written in my journal for months.
oh, and i forgot. happy birthday, stephanie chuang. i'll get you something. Friday, February 23, 2001
oh, how poetic! hehe.
thanks ellen!!!! you are so sweet =) [and you are so much more creative than anyone i know.. forget those actor prodigies.. they are nothing! nooooothiiiing!! hehe :) ] hum hum hum. it is very late. and i am tired. don't ask me what i'm doing here. well, i'm blogging, that's what i'm doing. okay, my daddy just told me to go to bed. alrighties, i'm outta here. bye guys..
hiee everyone...
umm.. sowee i dint blog in awhile.. especially to derek.. buh i mean... man, stop bitchin about it already!! so i im not gifted wit the ability to babble on for hours.. sniff. um um.. i had the week off from scool.. =)))))) <--- extra lips symbolizing mah excessive happiness .. buh.. i did NOTHIN the whooole week. =(((((( <--- extra lips symbolizing excessive disappointment i did get a lotta sleep tho.. and.. watched too much tv. and.. ate too much. mm .. chocolate ish guud.. yumyum ughhhh i realie suck at dis.. deres nothin to say!! mah life is boring!! im sorie derek.. but its the freakin EFFORT dat counts.. okiee, see.. juicy stuff rite here... im habin a nervous breakdown thanks to derek.
"Make-believing we’re together
That I’m sheltered by your heart But in and outside I’ve turned to water Like a teardrop in your palm " poetic, isn't it?
you guys didn't have school today. [ ?!?!?!? ] oh well, school wasn't that bad today. i had a boring english class. oh, we were supposed to pick music that would go with ethan frome, which is this really sad and depressing story about love that's not supposed to happen and that messes up and screws up the life of two people. tragic, very tragic. we were supposed to pick art that fit the characters and setting, and i got one of cezanne's portraits of his ugly wife who looks very mean and her mouth juts out a lot. anyway, the music. i had picked this orchestral suite thing with heavy strings in a minor key, and it was all kind of sad and dramatic and haunting -- but then i wanted to do something by moby, for some reason. so i went up with two cds, but then i got scared and decided not to do the moby thing. i was going to play that song he did at the grammys with the fat lady and the three messed up blue guys, but i decided not to in the end. but i did end up saying "so i wanted to pick a moby song, but nothing seemed to work out -- but moby's cool" or something like that, and then i played the boring piece with lots of strings, and yeah. i guess that was it. that was yesterday, by the way.
we had an assembly today for second period, so i missed the last day with our geometry sub. she reminds me of a quaker, somehow. hufnagel's been absent for two weeks now -- i wonder where he is. at our guidance assembly, we got registration forms for the next school year, and it says that i didn't make honors english three. even though i've never gotten anything lower than a, um. nevermind, but it should've said "honors" there. computer programming was boring. we got a test back, and mine said "natural __" on it. um, drivers ed was kind of boring too. the teacher tried to circle something on the board with his pencil, and my ears hurt. chem was dumb, and i had to rip a page out of my composition book. and ceramics and spanish were boring too, and i just told you my whole day. or almost. well, i have to go. maybe i'll bore you some more later.
yeah..middletown is GHETTO. however its times like this that i love it. and nsync. and jc of nsync. =) hm, and i bet your english teachers would be so proud of you guys for all that vocab usage. plethora...thats from the scarlet letter! i loved that book. why? i have no idea...its such a chick book though.
i'm in a weird mood. have you ever had those spurts where you are/want to be creative? thats the mood i've been in. oh, but i think my creative mind is amazingly limited. besides music and all that pen and paper stuff...i'm gone. my friend pointed out to me that i would never make a good brooding artist. heh..i guess not. you know, all these dang talented people in my school, it makes me feel inadequate. *sigh* the actor prodigies and the bands with an actual fan base and cds and recording studios and..blah blah blah. i think i should accomplish something. hmph. dang, isn't this what people say when they're in a mid-life crisis?? woh. hm..maybe if i go to sleep now it'll be different. um..yeeaaaah MICHELLE IS SO COOOOOOOOL!! i feel so dorky in her presence. oh, and whose birthday is it in 2 days? ;) hint#1: she lives across the street from me. kinda. hint#2: she is quite the movie buff. and buff. hint#3: i know we all get a good kick out of her blue retainer case. alright, that one pretty much gave it away. hehe...happy early birthday steph. alrights, i'm out. =) Thursday, February 22, 2001
so i don't have school tomororw. I came home from school after some dumb national honor society meeting, took a nice look outside, and decided that i would not do any hw for the rest of the day b/c middletown would not have school tomorrow. Yeah, so i took a nice nap. Our school system is so messed up. See what happens is that the senior graduation ceremony is like a week after the last day of school because of...uh...an nsync concert. So now our district heads are taking every opportunity to stretch out our school year. Im loving how our district heads respond to new situations...oh well, it works out for us middletowners for now =)
oh, and here's again what blogger has to say about losing blogs:
"tip: the best way to keep from losing data, is to copy your post to your clipboard before hitting the post button. while in the posting form, you can do this in windows with two quick keystrokes -- ctrl+a, ctrl+c. i'm sure there's a similar easy way on other platforms. i do this for all web applications where i'm entering a lot of data, because by nature, they are precarious. but it's especially important in these times for blogger and has saved me many groans of frustration." i'm sure you needed to hear that again.
Yea ok. I just clicked post and publish and it reloaded the page and cleared the whole paragraph i wrote. Hmph. Now i'm gonna go study for Latin.
oh, wow. big words scare me sometimes. unless they're cool big words, and in that case, i think that they're cool. guess what, my birthday's the first day of spring. march twenty-first, the vernal equinox. i think it's that day where you can stand an egg up and it'll balance or something. i like sandals. and my mom doesn't want me to do track at all, because she hears about people getting injured all the time. she thinks mr. loughran must be a pretty bad coach to work his team so hard that so many of them get hurt. okay, and i don't know if i want to do tennis still. it seems like so much work -- practice all the time, every day after school, and then there's that pressure. sports give me a lot of that. oh wait, that's right -- i love pressure. i kind of want to sign up for the march SAT, but i think the deadline's tomorrow. uh oh.
gee, if mr touma could only see this page and note our *bigwordhere* use of words, he would be so proud. So far i've seen a whopping 2, count it, 2! vocab words! plethora and quandary! we are just totally on a roooooolllllll!!!!! k i feel sick now i go bye bye
i definitely sweat. like a pig. or perhaps i glisten like a pig. but i heard somewhere that pigs don't even sweat. hmm.. that is quite odd. i wonder where they got that phrase from..
pliny rules! oh yeah! =) and i think michelle is the cooooooolest person in the world! :) i want a snow day tomorrow. or at least a delayed opening. man, that'd be sweet. i'm using that word a lot lately. sweet! it's sounds so.. so.. how do you say? surfer-ish? i don't know. i just like the word. it's sweet! ;) "i exist in a perpetual state of confusion." where did i read that? hm. i just thought of it on the bus today. it's such a cool quote. such big words.. yeah. i am weird. i'm hating this whole homework concept right now. it's frustrating me much. very much. hehe. blah. blah blah blah. okay, i'm going to go now. must finish hated homework... :P okies, bye!
I think I am in a quandary. I want to try out for tennis, and I think I have a really good chance of making it, but then there's Mr. Loughran and spring track. Since I did cross country and winter track he probably expects me to do spring track. So I decided to go to the track meeting anyway, and then Dave said that he would go too, though he's trying for tennis too. So I was like "Yea! I'm not the only one." So I feel bad and traitorous about trying to leave track, but oh well. That's life. Now I get to face the wrath of Loughran when I tell him about this.
girls don't sweat?? hahahaha... unfortunately we do. well at least i do. and i don't know about glistening and glowing. and this is what pliny (the younger) said, more or less:
(ahem) "the blessed are those who write something worth reading, or do something worth writing about. the most blessed are those who do both." pretty cool, huh steph? so it's snowing out kind of hard. snow days are always cool, of course. but i want it to be spring. because i feel like wearing sandals to school, without socks. and winter clothes are just so blah and woolly and itchy. wow, it's kind of sad how i relate to the seasons in terms of clothes. pretty materialistic. or you could say i'm a "visual" person. yes, that sounds nice. so anyways, don't you guys love spring? when it's nice and warm and you can walk/run in holmdel park but there still aren't any mosquitos and you're still not sunburned? and the sun sets really late so you can eat dinner outside...mmm i wish it were spring right now. Wednesday, February 21, 2001
i'm out of shape too. actually, i've always been. i wonder if i should try out for tennis or track, or maybe i'll not make tennis and then go out for track -- but i hear he hates that. and do i really like tennis? maybe i won't do anything. hm, hard decisions. and what was it that pliny said? i think i might go to sleep in like two minutes. and yes, being sweaty and feeling accomplished is such a um, well. i don't know, maybe it's not such a great feeling. i don't like feeling sweaty. and hey, girls don't sweat. they glisten and they glow. and by the way, michelle -- we all think you're so cool.
WOW! this blog is doing so well.. *sniff* it gets me all misty eyed.. hehe. i leave for one day and all these blogs... this is pretty nifty. PRETty nifty. =)
caitlin, you quote pliny! i am so proud of you.. :) and for all of you that think latin is a dead language, poo poo to you. yeah. hah! :) i finished all my homework today in under two hours. oh my. you know how much of an accomplishment that is?! man. i haven't done that in weeks. i think i've been in a spell of laziness lately. it's horrible. you get this disgusting feeling of dread every time something involving work is mentioned. it's pretty bad. but, i think i'm finally out of that. yay! i feel happy. today was a pretty good day. even though i lost some stuff during lacrosse practice. but that's OKAY. hehe. just a retainer case. yes, the blue one which everyone seems to like to stare at, then laugh at. ANYWHO.. =) can you believe that i was actually looking foward to school yesterday? weeeird. i was getting so desperately bored of sitting on my butt and doing nothing. i wanted to do stuff. oh weeeell. ;) it was amazingly cold today at practice. at one point, when we were running around the school, the wind was right in our faces and blowing really hard.. we were running against the wind [i think that's a song..]... and it felt like i was running in slow motion. kind of funny, actually. hehe. maybe not.. ;) ok, that's good for today. buh bye, y'all. hehe :)
hi everyone. yes, i haven't blogged (what a millennium-ish word) in quite a while. but wow, is this blog busy. ultrabusy. i just had a pretty good time reading what you all wrote, but i'm feeling kind of like i'm not going to write anything worth reading (quoting pliny here, you latineers). so you guys all love derek? i can't help but feel i initiated this trend when i asked him to dance at michelle/jessica's party. awwwww. yeah. so. i really should start running. track starts march 8th. i am in worse shape right now than i was a year ago. i think i'm past my prime. i also think i have sophomoritis. i also think i'm a hypochondriac. actually, i don't think it, i know it. but anyway, track should be fun, aside from all the pain and suffering. i love that sweaty accomplished feeling after a workout. or at least i think i do. i don't really remember. it's been so long since i've really run. well, i'm off to eat now. i'll see you all later.
you know what i just thought....well i've thought of it before but never wrote it down....so i hate like asking ppl to do stuff and thinking they don't really wanna do it but then they do it anyway just to be polite...i hate that...and then i also hate....cuz like i know i talk about all these ppl behind their backs (not you ppl of course!) but i mean...certain people...yea...and so i just wonder, like i wonder what people say about me...I'm just one of those people that's like obsessed with what other people think of them as they're walking down the hall or something...i'm just in one of those contemplative/paranoid/complaining moods, you know when you start thinking of all those things around you and what do people really think about you, cuz you just assume people generally like you but then what if it's a case where they don't really like you...like with John Coyle, I wonder if he knows...he probably does...but that's sad, and it would be even sadder if he just thought la dee da everyone likes me when they really don't. I am shallow. I guess Derek tipped me off last nite. Or something. yea. So that's all.
um, hello. i love you all too, most of the time. except i will not.. marry richard. and michelle, i don't understand what you're trying to say. i thought you would know better -- that you exist? like, it's an "i think therefore i am" kind of thing, and you shouldn't believe what other people say. if i said you were, say, um, okay nevermind. anyway, i wonder if anyone notices that i changed the blog look. christine says that it looks more spring-ey or something like that, brighter. i'm thinking of moving it to digitalrice, too. stupid banner. but then again, i would have to tell everyone that it's at a new address and well. that's kind of annoying. go see my site [ derked.digitalrice.com ] and tell me what you think. you can see the blog off the site, if you click on the link off the main page -- so i'm thinking if i move this onto the site, i'll get more hits. or maybe i could attach a counter to this blog, but it's too late now. what's your estimate on the number of hits? even if it's the same.. people. oh well.
i thought i had more to say. hm, let me think. oh right, i just fell asleep for two hours. i think i'm sick again, because my throat has this itchy with a little burning feeling and i keep coughing. this morning, i stupidly hit my knee against the sharp under-corner of the wooden bathroom counter, and it still hurts. it feels like a strangely numb kind of pain. and um, how did you find all those things about stretch princess? i think they're british and in new york somewhere, but that's all i know. i'm going to get the cd, i hope. and that bbmak cd was supposed to go to me, if serena or eric or allison ever read this. my math teacher is gone for yet another week, and we have this incompetent lady as a substitute. even though mr. hufnagel was pretty incompetent as it was -- i wonder where he is. i want to be a designer still.
apparently eneverum is on a blogging streak [ellie, i'm sure i used "eneverum" wrong]. this "i love derek" fan club blog is like, sooo cool. like, yeah!
so anyways, coming back to school wasn't as bad as i thought..then again, that opinion might change once its march. why, i ask, are there no days off in that month? aiyo. february should have more days. its always a good month for me. but..there isn't. is anybody else freaked out over how quicky this year has gone by?? i can't believe i'm actually a bit past the half way point. i feel like i haven't done anything productive. then again, i think i've been suffering from mutant strains of freshmanitis and sophomoreitis. either that or i'm just lazy. =P derek and stretch princess...hm. i remember hearing one of their songs in She's All That. they're....ok. the cool things about them is that they're european [british? scottish? irish? *shrug*] and the girl that sings plays bass. their songs are....ok. oh well, never listened much to them. watching crouching tiger on an illegal tape? that's just wrong. movies in movie theatres are so much better. niiiice and daaark and coooold and souuund and..i have no idea what i'm talking about. riight. i love derek. oops, i mean..alrights i'm out. btw, although i have proclaimed my love for derek, i am willing to let richard marry him. =)
My weekend was ok. I saw traffic...on the road!! Anyway, Traffic was a really good movie. You should see it. And I saw Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon on an illegally made copy of a tape. Now I want to go see it at the theater for the sound, and because I actually understand it now. And then I went to Ann's house to work on a math project with her and Allison. Ann's sisters Erica and Freida kept jumping up and smacking me on the head. Then they decided to turn on Allison and smacked her on the head. It was a new experience. Yesterday I went bowling with George, Neil, Frank, and Andrew, and I got a 115 and 133. I'm so proud. BTW, I love Derek. Will you marry me?
Tuesday, February 20, 2001
Whoa, so many blogging entries....i even had to go for "show last 25 posts." Yeah derek, uh...i never told you this but i am also madly in love with you. It would be my delight if u were to ask me to dance at allison's =). Anyway, i'm having fun...not doing any work. I am finally able to set into that no-work groove that seniors enter......except i'm a junior. Oh well, i was telling ellen how senioritis seems to have gone through natural selection to mutate into....junioritis. Whoa....i am dorky. Yeah i probly should stop meandering around to start doing some work again. That *would* be the smart thing to do....ok i'm done
apparantly this is what derek thinks of me: "you are non-existent"
i hate you derek apparantly, apparantly is my new word for the day. i hate you derek
you know what I just did twice? stupid blogger cut me off while I was writing an IM so I posted a blog that said "um" and then I was writing "whenever" when it cut me off again so my blog changed to "eneverum." so, yes, eneverum, everybody.
wow ... this blog has been, like, taken over by people I don't know. okay, okay ... maybe ... two. three? yeah, whatever. HI. I'M ELLIE. ... YEAH.
anyway, I do feel a bit guilty for not writing here in so so so long ... it's been quite a while as derek never really fails to remind me. (by the way I'm in love with him too. forget my boyfriend. he's stupid. ... yeah.) anyway, ... incidentally, this weekend (mine was five days btw, sometimes private schools are good after all) I went down to visit brian (went up actually...) and it was very fun. I just wrote that b/c that was the only interesting thing that's happened to me. also I ordered a new robe and it came while I was away, so that was interesting too. I meant to write last night and I was wearing it so I had it all planned: "hi everybody! I'm sitting in my comfortable new robe. it rocks!" but now that I'm not wearing it... all the fun is gone. :-( all right, that was fun. oh and I got a minidisc player too. (yeah... I'm... spoiled sometimes... :-) it's fun to play with! but the quality isn't so perfect. but it's fun to play with! all right I'm leaving, I'm leaving...
maan michelle, for a sec there i thought you had gotten into my diary..whew...hehe...
this has been such a blah four-day weekend, i'm almost looking forward to going back to school tomorrow....and i can't believe i just said that...but, i need to get out, i've been trapped in my house all day studying like the good little dork i am... oh doh! and now i gotta go, this was fun...okay...well, i'll be back.....
I don't know what I'm supposed to write for like half of these virtues for English...i mean, I'm just so perfect as it is, what is there to say....hah, ok but really, my life is just too boring to actually right anything...so blah
oh yea, i know, i'll write all about my mad crush on derek! that'll juice things up a little... "dear diary, today i actually talked to derek online!! oh my gosh, ok breathe, breathe michelle breathe! ok, so like, he's just soooo cute and like, but i know like, like i like totally don't have a chance with him! like, life is just so unfair!!!!"
i think i want some cds. i have my next order almost almost ready to send off to bmg, but i don't think they'll ever have these cds that i want. just for the heck of it, i'll tell you what they are. dexter freebish - "a life of saturdays", evan and jaron - "evan and jaron", m2m - "shades of purple", the mission impossible two score by hans zimmer [ it's really really good ], the bbmak cd -- whatever it's called. oh, and stretch princess's self-titled album. i think they're my favorite band of the moment for now, even though i'd heard of them so long ago. michelle says that i must go for the "whole sweet voice kinda thing". i used to really like lisa loeb's voice -- well, i guess i still do. but yeah, it's so annoying when bmg doesn't have a cd. that means i have to go out and buy it for like fifteen dollars, ugh. maybe i'll go look for it at half.com.
just a random thought....but ever notice how when you read stuff you can hear the person who wrote it? like you can hear what it would be if they were saying it out loud....yea, just a thought
oh, you don't have to be overly super-nice to me all the time. some of the time will be enough -- i can probably deal with several dozen of your mean sarcastic cynical remarks every time i see you. secret secret, i've got a secret. domo arigato, mr. roboto. i just downloaded that song, and it's getting really annoying in how it's slowly burrowing its way into my head. please, thank you. thank you, mr. roboto, for helping me escape just when i needed to. see, it's so stupid and annoying and it doesn't really make sense. well, today's probably going to be another day of nothing. i'll probably be back later.
Monday, February 19, 2001
blah
i am so bored and hungry and now...i've promised to be nice to derek... so, no more fun i suppose :( bllllaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh BOREDOM
alive and kickin', alive and kickin'. you guys so must have no lives. ugh, another day stuck at home, and now i'm reading this stupid driver's manual because i have to. i don't understand all this licensing and permit stuff, and it's really annoying. i'm feeling kind of bitter too. i cleaned my room a little, but all the stuff is still there -- so i have to throw it out sometime. some other time. i think i'm feeling jaded, j-j-j-jaded. now i'm looking for some article online, and i can't find a good one anywhere, and i don't feel like using one about daytona five-hundred and dale earnhardt, and well. i like european formula one racing better. um, yeah. okay, this is getting stupid. and i so was honest on that conformity quiz.
whoops, i meant to say, "so we didn't see a movie yesterday." hehe, yeah.
i know, i have a really weird brother. *sigh* what to do, what to do? sorry you had to hear that, ellen. =) we should rename this site 'the i love derek fan club.' or something along the lines of that. hahaha. oh yeah. what a stud muffin. why am i blogging again? i think i've spent the majority of the day online. how sad. okay, i have to leave now. i need to do something productive. okay. yeah. leaving... now. bye!
wow, this blog is just so alive and kickin! i've never seen so many posts in one day..derek must be proud. yes, michelle you make me cry. =*) and i just realized all the girls [almost] in derked.blog have either asked derek to dance or declared her love for him. derked.blog has turned into an "i love derek" fan club. because, you know..derek is such a stud.
hm, i am feeling very bitter right now because i have not been able to leave this house all today. instead, i practiced piano and cleaned my room. score! hehe..i'm bored. and i want to go buy spring clothing! steph, your brother is weird. fat wang?!? chlymidia chris?!?! weirdos. =)
i um, never saw those messages. but it was a nice declaration of your love, if i may say so. and that conformity quiz was about how non-conforming you or i or anyone is. it was in sunday school, so maybe you can uh, i guess come to church one sunday and take it. and no, we no did see movie yesterday. i hate this weekend. it's almost as bad as going to school -- i think i'll go to barnes and noble like in a few minutes. and yes, i saw michelle dancing and i just couldn't help but cry..
hiii everyone... hehe, you guys are all so great. and of course, i am positively dying to dance with mr. derek tsai. and i'm wondering who this reserved dance is with, michelle.. =) hehe, i am way too nosy.
so we didn't see movie yesterday. i wanted to see chocolat but if we did, it'd only be christine and me, and we were like, naaah. haha. WAY too lazy to drive all the way to monmouth mall. not that i'm doing the driving.. but whatever. ;) i need to make some sort of game plan for allison's party.. hrm. i need to reserve dances. any takers? ;) hehe. i also need to develop some sort of social life.. i am so bored right now.. i wish i knew more people who could drive and take me places. this is the worst part of four-day weekends. blargh. oh well. ooh, ellen! dwight sounds cool. hee hee. it's too bad eugene was there.. ;) oh well. it's cute how he's so protective though. i wonder what it's like to have an older brother.. alls i have is a younger one. i want some kind of older sibling. it'd be cool. or maybe not. i don't know. i'm babbling. :) well, i'm spent. i'll probably be back sometime.. later. hehe, okay. bye!
Y a M g U r L 13: and even if the sun refused to shine, even if romance ran out of time...
Y a M g U r L 13: you're all i need, my love, my valentine... ddeere e k k signed off at 1:12:48 PM. ouch. That's all I can say about that one.
shoot...oh yea now i remember...whats this wole conformity test thing? like the higher you score the more of a conformist you are? is there a link? i'd probably be like the most conformist-like that you could be...yea...if that made sense...well derek, my reserved dance is certainly not with you...ellen, i made you cry cuz my dancing was just sooo good, right? ;) it's like, man, that michelle girl, boy can she dance!! she dances so well, it just brings a tear to my eye....hehe oks....ooo ellen, looks like ur gettin it on with the older guys!! ok, well I'm done--you guys can prob tell i'm bored outta my mind here since i've posted like three times in 2 days...i need to go see a movie...
woh, new people!! i guess this is what i get for not posting in a really long while. this will be a niice long blog..you know, to make up for lost time. but anyways, HI MICHELLE and HI RICHARD! i know michelle..and richard i think you've been in my tennis class before. with..eric chang? funny thing is that both of you were in my tlc preschool class -- but of course i bet you guys don't remember that. i remember being good buds with eric in those days...ah the days. oh well. =P
but yes, the party was fun!! michelle made me cry. hehe..argh, derek you should get up and dance. you and the texas kid [or so i hear..?]. its really much more fun that way..even richard said so! its something different you should try. and hey, you scored a 60 on that conformity test; logically speaking if i'm a 26 and i like to "try different things", then oh man you should too. of course, then again...how honest were you on that little thing? personally, i like to make a fool of myself...nah, just kidding. if its fun, its alll good. =) so..did anyone actually go out to watch a movie yesterday? as it turns out i didn't skip tennis, and i did go to amy's 18th bday party. lots and lots of dancing. i thought i was just going to sit at the table the whole time [i knew 3 people, 1 who was my brother..and amy. i was lost among the sea of korean people and high tech seniors] but it was fun =) i was pleasantly surprised to find victor wearing REAL shoes, not sneakers..REAL khakis, and a REAL tie. and he danced a lot. woh, weird. annoying things? being the youngest one there and having my brother there. interesting when victor says, "i would dance with you, but your brother would kill me." i met this marlboro guy named dwight for a while. nice conversation blah blah blah, and then he goes, "so what colleges did you hear from?" i say not yet, i'm a sophomore. he says, "oh." he asks me to dance..hm, eugene the older brother is here..giving me glaring looks. soo..i don't. argh. so dwight, who i think i would've liked, goes to talk to some senior girl. boo..i hope i have someone to dance with at allison's. derek will you dance with me? i am after all giving you snatch and sweet november...haha, right. that was a pretty long blog..ok, i think i've redeemed myself for not posting for a few weeks. alrights, i'm out.
well, whatever makes you happy. and i thought that it was always the guy's obligation to ask a girl to dance, but oh well -- gender roles are always being changed nowadays. and of course, i was just dying to dance with miss stephanie chuang. oh, and i got a sixty on that conformity quiz. steph got an eighteen. the description for my score was "are you kidding?" ah, oh well. yesterday was another day of nothing -- this isn't turning into the ideal four-day weekend i'd dreamed of. i never saw a movie yet..! wah. and sniff. i think the last one i saw was in december. and so michelle, who's this guy who you have a dance reserved with?
Sunday, February 18, 2001
hey, i got onto rich's page of quotes!! yay!!!! its like incentive to embrace my stupidity....score!
steph, don't feel pathetic!!! no one asked me!! so you're one step up :) i think i have one dance reserved so far for allison's party, so yay--and what juicy news I get to hear when I listen to people talk :) u know every guy is just dying to dance 2with you so just ask them and make their lives happy! haha :) ok, off to watch Malcolm in the Middle
hey everyone. that party was so fun! yeah! dancing is fun. you guys should really try it. i mean, i probably made the biggest fool of myself, but who really cares? you have to let go of all your inhabitions. or whatever the word is. it was funny with the dancing circles. hehehe. occasionally someone would get thrown in and they wouldn't know what to do. i did that.. hehe. anyway, the music was sooo loud. i went home and i couldn't fall asleep due to the ringing in my ears. haha, i thought i was going deaf or something. i felt a little pitiful since the only reason i had someone to dance the last dance with was that sheila forced eric to dance with me. i know, she did it because she's a sweet person, but i still felt pretty.. pathetic. WAH! *sniff* i need to get some courage or something so i can actually ask a guy myself and not feel like a fool. the whole dancing-and-making-an-idiot-of-myself thing i'm okay with, but asking a guy to dance is something else.. grr. oh well. i think i'm shy to a certain extent...:P
we took this quiz thing in sunday school today that told you if you are a conformist today. i am such a conformist! it upset me so to find that out. although i've always known myself to be a conformist..it was still rather upsetting. blah. oh well.. :P i bought pants today! yay! :) ok, i think i'm done. bye bye everyone! [hello richard! hello michelle! =)]
oo, my first blog. Derek, you must feel very loved...yea, the fruit punch was good-i was like chuggin down the drinks cuz i was so thirsty--------so before I had the urge to blog but derek wasn't on to invite me and when he finally did come on I didn't feel like it anymore...so, yea-aww, richard i'm sure all us girls really wanted to dance with you but we were all too shy to ask ;) I really liked that DJ, i think if i ever have a sweet 16 i'll request him or something...how do i post this thing...oh ok here we go got it
Saturday, February 17, 2001
hahaha, you danced..? i didn't notice. and um, i didn't really. maybe next time i'll actually try to do it, but maybe not. i think that in my subconscious, i just refuse to do that kind of thing. it's like an "you're born with it" kind of thing, probably. probably not.
Hello everyone. I joined Der-lei's blog. Yeah. Haha. I can relate to Derek. I spent probably half the party sitting with Derek and Alex drinking some really good fruit punch. Yummy. I actually went into one of those dance circles, but I had Karthik push me into it the first time. Our table was planning to make our own big circle in the middle of the floor, but people were already there before we finished our food. I was too shy to dance with anyone in the slow songs. I was just standing there like, "I feel dumb," and singing Bohemian Rhapsody with Neil. Then Carly called me cute because I was standing there like a confused short kid. Ken and Neil requested Tainted Love for the cross country people, but that darn DJ didn't play it at all. Everyone had like 1-3 inch heels, even the boys, except for me, which made me feel so much shorter than usual. When I actually felt half-brave enough to dance, it was pretty fun, though.
mm, i'm probably stuck at home today doing nothing. but that's okay, whatever. last night's party was kind of hm, i don't know. i don't think i was really there -- like an "outside looking in" kind of feeling. i always feel dazed at these big social things with loud music and a lot of people and well, it's like an overwhelming "woh" kind of feeling. and then i'm the shy self-conscious "um, okay" type and so. i wasn't really there, but it seemed to be fun. ugh, there isn't enough memory for winamp to play a song. anyway, then i felt like such a lucky person afterwards that people actually wanted me to dance with them. today, i just started thinking about it, and i was just thinking "oh wow.. why would they want to dance with me?". i wish i was the more outgoing "do anything and make a fool of yourself" not-caring-what-others-think kind of person -- that knew how to dance and could do it. but you guys, whoever you are that's reading this, thanks for dragging me over to that [ pseudo-quasi ] dance floor and um, i guess trying to get me to dance. oh, i don't know. thank you for whatever it is. i'll think of it.
Thursday, February 15, 2001
fat?! you are NOT fat, derek. *sigh* ;P
bad days suck. don't you hate it when you feel like the scum of the earth and that nobody likes you and all that junk...? yeah, it's stinky. i felt like that.. a lot of last week. pretty depressing. but, you can find solace in the fact that the bad days will always pass and there are other days that can be good. or something. hehe... i've realized that i'm not too good at making people feel better. i need to get more sensitive. i can't wait for tomorrow!! yay! it's friday and there's a party and it's a four-day weekend. wow! this is so cool. ahhh... i feel.. a sense of release. or some other good emotion. hehe. you know what happened today? so i stayed after for "SL" [that would be science league..] and after that was over, we all went to the library and did homework. then mr. baronowsky kicked us out of there with his megaphone and whistle and we tried to go to the commons, but they kicked us out of there. so we went to an empty classroom and started doing homework. a custodian comes in and kicks us out of there, so we go and sit in the middle of the hall. the same custodian comes out into the hall and kicks us out of there, too. ARGH! i felt so.. rejected. and nerdy. hehe. so that is my story of the day. the end... =)
it's a bad day. it's a snow day.. it's a train ride. it's a sinking feeling, pulls me through the seat of chairs -- when will you come rescue me, find solace and then take me there? ugh, what a depressing day. and i don't really know why, either. i kind of want to see a movie. like a happy sad touching poignant funny romantic beautiful kind of movie, or something like that. i think the last movie i saw was what, like "vertical limit". and i never saw "snatch" either, or ugh -- "antitrust". it opened and closed in a week..! well, i think i'm going to go look at movies now..
oh, i studied for drivers ed. what'd you get? and i'm fat. Wednesday, February 14, 2001
happy valentine's day everyone! although it seemed like a regular day for me... hehe. and i think everyone thinks that derek likes allison now. hahahahaha. :)
my brother is reading all these come-back and yo-momma jokes. they are rather amusing. crude, but amusing nonetheless. hehehe. i nearly died at practice today. they ran a lot faster than usual.. which is not that fast, but still! man. i got so winded. and dizzy too. that's not too good.. hehe, anyways, we also played one of those 3-passes-to-score games and my team got whooped. i think i might justify our loss by saying that both captains were on the other team. yeah. so there. ;P hum. i think i should study for driver's ed.. or not. to study, or not to study. i would pick 'not to study' but i'll probably end up studying anyway. because i'm such a good girl. hahaha. right ;)
happy valentine's day..! wow, today was kind of weird. i went out last night to get a rose for allison, and then i came home and wondered how to take care of it and how to wrap it and how to carry it around. well, i don't think i embarrassed myself too much giving it to her in the morning -- ha, everyone probably thinks i like her now. uh, writing an essay for the whole period in english was quite nice, and so was the chem test, and computer programming was kind of strange again. hufnagel is out for the whole week for some reason, and we took the second part of the chapter something test today. i have to make the first part up. in ceramics, i'm making a pig-cow thing with horns, but i'm just going to say it's a new pokemon that i made up, and hope that she'll take it like that. it has three legs and a hump and a snout and people make fun of it. no, i'm not naming it "tripod". oh, and we got to pick our own seats in spanish, and i took the one all the way all the way in the corner. this entry is kind of boring. i think i'm just making a note of everything that happens in my day. well, the rest of the week should be okay -- movies in two classes, a quick test tomorrow, and then nothing else. four-day weekend, whee!
Tuesday, February 13, 2001
what a nice day. i felt sick in the morning, english was boring, then i was off to take a one-and-a-half hour math test and miss a geometry test with a sub and "last of the mohicans" in history. and yes, computer programming seemed kind of weird with the three people around me all being very touchy. like a delicate situation kind of thing. oh, and they called me "annoying" -- which i am. and then that chemistry puzzle: we figured it out first in like two minutes, and then after triple-checking it, we handed it in. except no one in our group heard her say to write the number of the box on the paper, and when i took the paper from janet in the beginning to start writing, the first thing i heard was "write your names" and then the rest of the things. i think she told us to write the number before she said to write the names, but of course, no one in the group bothered to tell me or write the number, and so um. we finished probably five-ten minutes before the rest of the groups, but then we got seven out of ten because of the no-number thing. before she announced who won and everything, my group was being quite weird and singing the mendeleev song, except substituting my name whenever "mendeleev" came up. haha, and then after she told us we finished last, they started saying "it's all your fault it's all your fault it's all your fault!" mm, that felt good. you know what, it's kind of a nice warm feeling when everyone hates you and wants to see you fail. i was feeling sick still, but then i attached fat legs to my ceramic pot. and finished my spanish homework in class. so when i came home, i fell asleep for three hours. i think i'm kind of a weak person. i'm always sick.. mmpf.
well, i just love pressure. oh, and getting blamed is kind of fun too.
hmm..chem test tomorrow. which i am going to fail. yay! this stuff is too confusing. i probably should have tried to understand it a while ago. i have problems with procrastinating.
i was in kind of a pissy mood all morning today. i think it started with algebra. i nearly died of boredom. and i felt kind of bad for the teacher, since most of the people that do any talking were out taking that test thing. the class was a lot more boring than usual. and that's pretty boring. so then after that, michelle and i were getting pissed off from our stupid programming assignments [and i think i yelled at her too much :( ]. but it got better by chemistry. sort of. i don't know. we had to do this lab, and whoever figured it out first got 10/10 and the second group would be 9/10 and so on. my group got 9/10 [yay!]. it felt kind of good to figure the puzzle out. a feeling of accomplishment. hehe, yeah...i am a dork ;) i can't wait till friday!!!!!!! four day weekend! oh yeah! =) hah, ok, i really need to get back to studying now.....bye bye.. Monday, February 12, 2001
Sunday, February 11, 2001
wow, so we had an orchestra concert today at the paramount theater in asbury park. and it just so happened that the circus was in town too, and there were elephants outside the place with eew, urine and huge droppings all over. and while the monmouth symphony full of old people was playing, you could hear circus music in between during the softer parts. it was okay, even though i don't think they were that great. when we went up to play with them, it was so crowded. i was in constant fear of getting stabbed in the face by a bow, the one my stand partner was holding and using vigorously. um, she was kind of old too -- i think she was a little deaf or blind, or both. she had her face like five inches away from the music the whole time, and i couldn't see anything, so. anyway, i don't think i want to do it again. eew.
oh well. i think i have to return the thing i got for jessica now, because someone else has the exact same thing. and then because i bought the same kinds of things for michelle and allison, only in different colors, now i think i might be weird. so i think i might return michelle's and get her something else, and then get allison something else too. except um, i probably won't get a chance to go to the mall again. ungh. this is so annoying. i want to see a movie now.
teenage mutant ninja turtles is such a cool movie. wow. i just watched it for the first time in, like, three years and it is still such a cool movie. i feel like watching the second one. the second one has that cool asian kid. hehe, yeah. you know, now that i'm "wiser" and more "mature" i get a lot more of the movie. it's actually really really funny. hahahaha. you guys have to see it again [or for the first time]. :)
i wanted to see a movie today. but it didn't seem like anyone else could. or maybe i just stopped trying too early. hehe, oh wells. i had fun watching teenage mutant ninja turtles. hrm. my parents went to see hannibal today. they're not back yet, though. i wonder if it's as gory as i hear.. Saturday, February 10, 2001
what a weird day. but productive, i guess. i finished shopping with ellen and had her and steph to help me pick things for allison-jessica-michelle, and i'm very indecisive. uh, tennis was tiring. i don't think the new class i'm in is much better than the other one -- the people on my court were horrible. there was this one tall annoying cocky kid from last week who's whacks at the ball as hard as he can, and then there's this other tall skinny kid who's like the most awkward kid in the world. we were doing first volleys, and if you ask me sometime, i'll show you how he looks when he does his. then later i played doubles and won, and then i played singles and won, and it was kind of hard because i was running the whole time against this kid who used to have an afro. right, and if he had had his big serve, i probably would've lost. but i didn't, because i had my serve and it was medium big. i smell gay. uh, so my mom got a structure credit card and it's all these monthly things starting in march, where you buy anything with the card and you get something free. mm, that's kind of cool. i can't wait for the beach towel in april. retail price: $29.50. oh no, i used real numbers. well, too late. i don't remember what else happened today, so maybe i'll talk about it later.
um, i think mikey was that little nine-year-old kid [ or however old he was ] that beat me down a few weeks ago in a make-up lesson at tennis. he's the most annoying pusher in the world, and he stays back there and just hits it back, and then he runs all around the baseline getting anything, and the only way you can beat him is to keep hitting winners on every shot. okay, so i was bitter. i'm not very consistent, and i kept getting stupidly drawn up to the net by him and then passed -- and then i tried to draw him up, but this kid is like speedy gonzalez or something. he just runs back to his baseline back there and waits for the next shot i give him so he can just hit it right back to me. yeah, it was pretty embarrassing, and i ended up losing after a three-game lead. i have to get better at tennis sometime. like sometime soon, i guess. i like coffee ice cream. mmm.
Friday, February 09, 2001
ellen! you're back! hi! hehe. you know, i'm one of the only other people that blog on norman's blog, too. [that did not sound grammatically correct, but whatever ;P] i am such a dedicated blogger.
those big words were confusing me. darn. i need a bigger vocabulary. we learn all these word in english and i should use them. like...oh! here's one: evan and jaron are very ubiquitous these days. alright! i used a vocab word...score. *ahem* anyways... ;P i'm feeling a little down .. and i don't know why. *sigh* i feel so... out of character. or something along the lines of that. dur. ah well. i have a sudden urge to go to the mall. [yes, i know, that was awfully random] but, uh, yeah. i want to get out. it didn't feel like friday today. it felt like a monday. eeeew. it felt like friday yesterday, actually. i think it was because i had a dearth of homework [another vocab word!]. hehe. i wish i went to practice today. but i couldn't. and i didn't go on wednesday either. grrr... i feel so .. out of it. GRRRR!!!!!! anyways.........i think i'm done. i don't feel like writing anymore. hehe. well then.....okies, i'm out. Thursday, February 08, 2001
i decided that i would like to break that little steph - derek streak they got going on there. maybe i'll do it by blogging quotes from Saturday Night Live. which by the way, is so funny! well, sometimes. and they always have cool musical guests who do different things. well, sometimes. anyways, evan and jaron? hey, i believed you when you said that they were good! i think my first reaction was something like, "wow, they played in that girl's living room?" or something stupid like that. i remember reading that on the site derek sent me. that, and the one with shorter hair is cuter..and he seems sweeter...well, when i saw him on mtv. hehe..speaking of cute guys [???? ok, weird transition]..i guess i won't have a valentine this coming wednesday. depressing? ah, not really. i think the excitement of getting valentines and candy and cards died out in middle school or so. you know, when you had these really COOL valentine's day dances, the carnations, the lil' candy grams. now, well..south is ghetto so we don't have those anymore. that, and, darn't i've never had a valentine that meant anything. i.e. last year, my "valentine" was mikey [ok, maybe not really]..this lil guy who is...ok, he was 7 or 8. something like that. riight. if only it had been his older brother....[ah! JR! ok..hm..derek might know these guys..ocean?] anyways, so that is my little blurb about valentine's day. riiight. i dunno, but i have the biggest urge to say something about "Fight Club". the movie. how freakin WEIRD is that movie?!? its sooo disturbing..in a quirky kind of way. the story was messed up. the movie was good. ooo so many deep layers! haha...brad pitt can really carry off that scruffy kind of look. blah! what am i blogging about? i remember the days when my blogs used to be so nicely put together and coherant..and now..now? hehe..ok, wait..my blogs were never really coherant. mostly because whenever i blog i'm in the weirdest moods. oh wells...i'm off to study chem.
see, i told you evan and jaron were going to be big. or whatever the adjective is that i should've used to describe that they're popular now. i must've heard about them like twenty times in the last three days. and then i remember how i was like "did you hear that song, what was that song" in october, and then i was writing the song down on napkins at lunch and telling people to hear it, and well. i told you so, i told you so. that's still on my list of "cds i haven't gotten but i will soon whenever i have the time to". and i was trying to make a list just now of adjectives i like, but my notepad program isn't working right. hmpf. my first two were "subtle" and "elusive" -- and then i hadn't thought ahead to what was next. but some other time, because the stupid program. doesn't work. doesn't work. i make a lot of lists. i'm going to start a list of words i would like to start using often, grouped by parts of speech -- like adjectives, nouns, verbs, et cetera. why, you're looking very brobdingnagian [ also often spelled/spelt "brobdignagian" ] today. i have to get gifts [ donations, presents, cadeaus? ] still, and i still don't know what to get. oh -- and clothes, semi-formal.
Wednesday, February 07, 2001
aw, derek. aaaaaaaaaaw! ;) you are so ... sentimental. hehe. and that's all i can think of saying about that. :)
art was fun last year. i think mrs. teitelbaum got a lot stricter this year.. and mrs. fehrs is always nice. and ceramics is fun. last year, steph ng made wheezy [like in toy story 2] and laura made mr. potato head [also like in toy story 2]. i made a die. as in dice but singular. i don't like how dice has to be "die." it sounds so...morbid. i rembember how mrs. hinkle or some other math teacher in satz said they started calling them number cubes. haha. i never believed that story. and i also remember her jelly bean dispenser. it was a chicken, i think, and she would put root beer jelly beans so it looked like the chicken was pooping. hehe, that was pretty funny. ah, the memories from satz. brilliant stuff, it was. aiights, it's getting late. i have a math test tomorrow. must get sleep...
i'm not aware of too many things, but i know what i know, if you know what i mean, and i know that my blog better not turn into what i saw other blogs were like. i was reading some other people's blogs and they're so boring and pointless and have a bunch of people quoting that guy on saturday night live that steph's brother has on his website, and it was just dumb and impersonal. but then again, mine is kind of turning like that -- i think i'm going to go sit on the curb outside next to the little flowers and the little pebbles and cry cry cry in my lonely heart. here i am, so alone, and there's nothing in the world i can do.. ahem.
okay, so i'm going to say a few interesting things now. i've noticed that ceramics isn't quite as fun as i thought it would be. it's nothing like how norman described it. and i think my pot came out slightly off, like a little lopsided, and i couldn't do any real design because i was at one of those times where i couldn't think and the pot was hardening like um, well. i don't know how to describe it really, but it was getting really hard really fast. or i mean, it was getting kind of hard really fast. and yay, i'm like the only person that gets to eat in that class. i found out popcorn chicken is actually kind of fattening.. eew. that's one paragraph. i think my next one's going to be about valentine's day. i never thought of it as a big holiday thing, and i never gave [ or got, *sigh* ] any valentines or carnations or big heart-shaped boxes of chocolate or anything of that sort. it was just february the fourteenth, i guess. nothing special. except now because of people kind of telling me about carnations like every day, i'm actually thinking about sending people carnations. except i probably won't. because one, i don't have an order form. and two, i'm shy. i'm introverted. even though for some reason, that emode test said i was a "shark". do do do do do do do do. that was the "jaws" theme, by the way. my blog's fading away..
wow, so our little "who wants to be a millionaire" [ emphasis on "wants" ] game thing today was kind of interesting. so many people did so bad, and i was surprised. and then when i went up, i had to get that question about which famous aviator was nicknamed "the lone eagle", and my phone-a-friend person was no help [ he told me neil armstrong was the answer ] and so i guessed amelia earhart when it was really charles lindbergh. ugh, i thought he was "lindy". oh well, it was a fun waste of three hours. now i have homework, and blah blah blah. i haven't really been blogging about anything interesting lately -- maybe i will sometime soon. and i need to make my website too.
Tuesday, February 06, 2001
hello. you guys should have had school today. psh. i live right across the street from middletown, too. blah. oh well, at least we had a delayed opening.
la la la. i finished my homework really early today. now i have nothing to do. i love this! i am so going to miss this when lacrosse starts. *sigh* i must savor the moment. or moments. whatevers. anywho, i really love this free time thing. =)
you didn't have school today. that's retarded. i looked outside this morning and everything was plowed: roads, driveways, parking lots, everything. middletown-lincroft-whatever must have a crappy municipal agency thing, then. that part of the township that does things like plow snow and sprinkle salt and et cetera. i'm really tired lately, and i don't know why. okay, i think i'm done for today --
so uh....we didn't have any school today. I was kinda shocked cuz when i looked outside in the morning i was like "there's no way we shouldn't have had school today." Heh. Anyway, im not complaining cuz it all worked out for me and other southies. Our system rocks! So as it turned out i actually had a lot of work to do. I guess i took a gamble last night and didn't do a lot of homework. Looks like it paid off too =).
Monday, February 05, 2001
DELAYED OPENING TOMORROW!!!!! yes! i am ecstatic. ah...two hours of extra sleep. oh yeah. i love snow. i was getting sick of it, but it actually served a purpose this time. i love snow.
so, fight club is a really disturbing movie. man. why does edward nortan always choose these weird roles? like american history x and primal fear. but the way they filmed the movie was really cool. i won't try to explain it, because i;ve found that every time i try, it comes out all wrong. so i'll just say it was really cool. [i have to work on my communication skills..] that korean place was good. thank you ellen!! and i WILL get you your present. SOON. hehe. anyways, it was a very fun and enjoyably experience. =) hey derek, where's my pillow? i guess that it...okies, i'm going.. Sunday, February 04, 2001
oh, i almost forgot. it was norman's birthday too, but he told me the day it was his birthday, and i was like "what, why didn't you tell me" and he was like "i forgot too" and so, duy. that's a cool word. happy birthday to norman too, and i'll find something sometime to give you, along with the pillows from christmas that i haven't gotten around to yet..
well, what's happened. instead of going to the chinese new year thing yesterday night and using my raffle tickets and maybe winning something and watching the show and having the whole "wonderful chinese cultural experience" thing, i went to ellen's house to watch fight club. except we didn't start until like nine when steph finally came back from friendly's, but we did download a few trailers -- i showed ellen how to save them, and now whenever i want a twenty-five megabyte trailer, i'm going to get her to get them for me. haha, um. anyway, the movie was kind of disturbing, even though the film part of it was pretty cool and the effects and everything and the story -- but it was still a little strange, in a bad way. but i did like the soundtrack and the good parts, like the parts that were cool. what do i mean.
and then today we went to some upscale korean-japanese restaurant in fort lee for this mini birthday brunch thing for ellen -- um, i didn't get you a present, but i will, and i'll give you the pillows, and i'll have them by sometime. sometime soon, i mean. or later. the food was pretty good, except for the weird pink salad dressing that i unwittingly used and then almost spit out when i put it into my mouth. but the peking duck burrito things were good, whatever it was that was inside them. i liked the sauce, but i don't know what it was. and the apple cobbler too, yum. well, so what i have to do sometime this week is get presents and semi-formal clothes for all these sweet sixteens -- ugh. i mean, fun. i want a blue sweater. and the "bathroom issue" of that design magazine, i have to go to barnes and noble sometime.. oh, and i forgot to say -- happy birthday, ellen. Saturday, February 03, 2001
i want a black jacket. or coat, i mean. but well, not really all that black -- maybe a like a dark grey coat. but a black jacket. anyway, i'm kind of wondering if i want to go to the new years thing tonight, i have all these raffle tickets and it seems like a waste if i don't use them. maybe i should've given them to someone else, and also maybe i shouldn't have asked for them from people who weren't going. or aren't going, because it hasn't happened yet. i'm going to go update my website now.
Friday, February 02, 2001
yay! my neighbor finally returned Shaft! that is the funniest movie. can ya dig it? [cue funky music] anyway, he's had it for a while. and as soon as he borrowed it, i got the urge to watch it. ah, well, it's back now. yay! hehe. it looked like we were making some illegal exchange when he came to return it. he had a black jacket on and everything and he kind of slipped the dvd out of his pocket while i gave him an N64 controller. and it was dark out, too. well....maybe it wasn't really like an illegal exchange. whatever. i think i'm losing my mind. again. ;P
i am quite hungry. perhaps i should go and grab a bite to eat... okay, i think i will. catch y'all laterz. ;)
uh, worship seminar? if that's tomorrow -- i didn't know about it. oh well, it's probably too late to sign up anyway. so we got our report cards today, and i tried to make an appointment with mr. bye who appears to be an extremely busy man because i haven't been able to see him for over two weeks. anyway, high tech may have screwed up my whole high school grades, gpa-wise. if i can't get them fixed, i probably won't care. or wait, i probably will. yeah, i probably will. i want to go to barnes and noble later. and the mall too, because i just started to remember that when you go to a birthday party sort of thing, you're supposed to bring a gift -- and if it's a sweet sixteen kind of a party, you're supposed to dress nicely. so hm what that means is that i need clothes and presents. i'm going to go look for design magazines.
you guys are nerds. actually, I shouldn't really talk since I did science league every single year of high school. oh I got my report card back already. I'm quite proud of it actually.
anyway, my room is definitely the messiest out of all the people who ever come onto this board. trust me on this one. I mean, eugene came by like a week ago and he was in shock. and that was a week ago. it's gotten much worse since then, and I don't think I'm going to have time to clean up this weekend either. yes, story of my life, I'm not exactly the cleaning type. and I'm incredibly tired *and* incredibly busy this weekend. I mean tomorrow, saturday, which is supposed to be my day to sleep in and laze around, I have to get up at like 9 or some crazy hour (c'mon I'm lazy, it's a crazy hour to ME) and then there's the worship seminar at 1 or so and then I'm going to the semiformal that my school's holding at night and then I'll probably do something afterward or something for a short while (I hope it's eat) and then I won't get back until kinda late and then I'll wake up and go to church and I should really stay for sunday school b/c I had to miss it last week for that piano thing. how come my life seems to be getting more busy now? no sense whatsoever, I'm in all honesty done with school. (and yet I still plan to study some on sunday until I'm sure that the 2nd half of the year doesn't totally count for gpa's.) well there are a lot of holes in this story that I'm too tired to fill at the moment and I should be working, so ... Thursday, February 01, 2001
yuck, i got seven wrong. actually, that was quite surprising, even though it probably shouldn't have been. i was looking at it last night for the first time and thoughts running through my head had a pattern of being like "what the heck" and "um, i don't understand this" and "freaking grr" and so on. but oh well, i guess i won't beat dave's score of whatever-it-was that got him eighth place. or something like that.
oh, and here's what blogger has to say about losing blogs: "tip: the best way to keep from losing data, is to copy your post to your clipboard before hitting the post button. while in the posting form, you can do this in windows with two quick keystrokes -- ctrl+a, ctrl+c. i'm sure there's a similar easy way on other platforms. i do this for all web applications where i'm entering a lot of data, because by nature, they are precarious. but it's especially important in these times for blogger and has saved me many groans of frustration." right, so i guess you should do that. or not, if you don't want to.
hi everyone. ah, ellen. i sympathize with you. or is it empathize? i don't know. anyway, i feel bad for the fact that you had to stay up until 1:45 doing a history project. :( we all really need a vacation. badly. *sigh* and munchkins are really good. yummmm.. i remember when everyone would bring in munchkins and/or cupcakes on their birthdays and the class would have a party. those were the good ol' days. i feel old. :P
i took one of those chem league tests again today. i got 9 wrong! yes!! i am so smart... yeah. actually, i think i got the most wrong out of all the people that took the test. but it's still pretty darn good for not learning most of the material and not studying. haha, i know, i'm in denial. ;) i need to redo my room. i think i might have mentioned this before. well, i still haven't gotten around to it. it's getting really messy now. i have all this junk piling up in the corner. and then i have more junk piled up on my desk. there is junk everywhere. ick. i need to get organized. weeell, i'm done here. bye!
apologies for not writing for such a long time (although I really don't think that's something I need to apologize for, exactly). I don't even know why... just don't think of it so much anymore, I suppose. well I'm at school so this can't be long. in fact, I'm going to get yelled at very soon, so bye!
i guess its my turn to blog before this thing is deleted. and at 1 45 in the morning no less. anyways, i'm FINALLY done with my us history project/timeline. my group, our retarded selves, procrastinated so much that we found out that we had conflicting schedules for the one night we had left to finish this. so what do we do? we finish the whole diddy [did i just say "diddy"?!?] over im, email, fax, and phone. quite a ride. and i have no idea what i'm typing right now, all i know is that i didn't finish any of my other homework, i still have a test tomorrow/today, and i have a weird craving for munchkins. yes. what am i talking about? anyways, i promised derek i would blog "sometime later tonite", so here i am blogging. see, the blog isn't dead after all - derek blogs..steph blogs..and i blog! right. so, once again, am i making any sense or is this all incoherant rambling? i think its the latter. well, the one thing i'm surprised about is that there are actually 9 people on my buddy list, and only 3 are from college...so THIS is the time that some of my friends go online. weirdos. right. and..i'm online too. and blogging. what is wrong with me? ok, i'm going to go sleep. or, study for my test. or somehow find munchkins in my house, which is very unlikely. actually, i think i'm going to go to sleep. i'm going to look like crap tomorrow and my eyes wiill be all weirdly red on the bottom. i wonder if my gray pants have been ironed...alright, it will be fun rereading whatever i'm writing right now. can i delete posts? i don't know. ok, i'm no good without sleep. alrights, i'm out.
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