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i wonder if it's common practice for other blogs to randomly change their blog names once in a short while. because i did it first and then connie did it and we both do it now to a ridiculous degree. so i'll just go rename my blog now again.
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Sunday, September 30, 2001
who's derek? i haven't seen any movies for a long time. i can't even get anything on television -- i don't think i've known what's playing in the theater for oh, since i went to taiwan and came back. i think "zoolander" is a cool word, though. anyway, so i started a website kind of yesterday before i went to tennis, and i worked on it for a bit today and now i have somewhat of a main page layout. i don't know if i like it yet. it seems a little .. sad. i don't know what i'm feeling. maybe i showed you the page, and if i did and asked you what you thought, it means i really care what you think. i value your opinion. you should feel special. er, yes. and if i didn't show you the page, well -- maybe i just didn't get around to you. see, no one's left out .. ! okay, i should go study for physics and chem. oh shoot, and read for english. does anyone know where i can find nice gray cotton sweat pants? preferably with a leg opening that's not incredibly tight, like this pair from maybe four years ago that i found. they were too small anyway. i have no sweat pants. my legs are going to freeze and fall off upon slight impact with um, the ground or anything else hard.
i was going to study all day today, but it never really happened. you see, i was attempting to read my physics book, when all of a sudden, i just fell asleep. just. like. that. yes, and i woke up an hour later and was mad at myself for wasting precious studying time. it was quite a turbulent afternoon. i don't know if i'll ever recover....
hm, yes, anyways. that was a bit melodramatic. :o) i saw zoolander yesterday. it was pretty stupid. pretty funny. not *quite* austin powers calibur, however. although, i found hansel and (of course) derek rather hilarious. oh, and mugatu. hahahahaha.. mugatu. that's some funny stuff. =) you know what are good movies? forrest gump and back to the future. quality movies. you should all watch them. ;) bah, i need to get back to studying. okay, bye bye. Saturday, September 29, 2001
hi, so i went to the mall today after tennis looking for a shirt -- actually, this one right here -- and it was gone. as in, there were none left in the store that i could see. maybe i should've asked, but oh well. this is i think the third or fourth piece of clothing ever that i've seen and i've wanted but then i think "oh, i'll buy it when it's on sale" and then it's gone the next time i look for it. anyway, i was looking for gray cotton sweat pants too. and i asked the gap man -- not "the" gap man, i mean "a" gap person .. um, person who works there -- if they had any sweat pants anywhere, and he said no. actually, he said something about how it was strange that they had women's sweat pants and not guys', and then he started talking to this saleslady and completely ignored me. yes. i'm halfway finished clearing things out of my room. i want to redecorate and refurnish, but i don't think that's an option at all. i'm going to be so happy when i have my own place .. i think i'm going to draw sometime how i want my future home to look. i'm thinking a loft studio kind of apartment in some high-rise building in a more quiet city area so i can walk out and go shopping for groceries and also for other things .. hm. maybe i want to live in manhattan.
Friday, September 28, 2001
ahh .. so this is the first time today that i've looked at this blog, and the first thing that comes to mind was something like "if you don't have anything to say, don't post idiotic comments" -- but then again, i do that a lot. except mine are a lot longer. okay, so i'm in the middle of room-cleaning, and the phrase "sometimes it has to get worse to get better" keeps running through my head. because right now it looks very very bad. i have clothes and books and cds and paper all over my bed and on the floor, and i'm emptying out my bookshelves and putting magazines in plastic bags to throw out .. i've been saving too many things. but i know when i throw them out soon, i'm going to start missing everything that i threw out .. so.
Thursday, September 27, 2001
hahahahahaha...
i miss reading the blog everyday. i don't know how all of you do it. i wish i had more time. but, i don't feel like venting about that again today. =) hey, ellen, this girl i know has a puppy named bear! it's a little boxer puppy. he's sooooo cute. i want a puppy, too. i've wanted one for so long.. but i think maybe i just want one because i can't have one. but if i DID have one, i'd love it anyway. :) puppies are so cute. so are kitties, but i'm allergic to those. :( ashley's kitties are so cute. they're brother and sister and their names are dolce and angel. dolce's a fatty. hee hee.. :o) wow, derek, a fan club? again?? WE used to be your fan club. hahaha.. but i think this one might be better. you know, since you get all that screaming fan business like real celebrities. yeah. ;) hehe.. and when you're a big, bad senior, they'll ALL be clamoring to get at you. :o) i want to go driving. now. i wish i had my license. and a car. *sigh* ... forego (for-go') tr. v. to go before; precede, as in time or place (just in case you were still wondering) yes, i think i will be going now. have a nice day off.. :)
uh, right. i'll have to go look that word up later. i really have never .. heard of it. i wish i took french instead of spanish. anyway, so i put up this "under construction" thing page on my website, which is going to be down for a long time before i put it back up. hopefully this time -- i promised -- it'll have some kind of content and it'll be a complete site, instead of one with missing pages. or like in the case of the last one i threw away because of the poop-colored pages, one with all the pages missing. so there's a message on my site. i like helvetica.
Wednesday, September 26, 2001
"by forcing ellie to go to aerobics with him, derek entirely threw off her quotidienne routine."
... that's a pretty bad example. sorry.
oh wow, two blogs were blogged while i was blogging my blog on my blog. that was a passive sentence, which is no good when you're writing essays. so is writing in first or second person. maybe my english teacher will like it if i use phrases like "most certainly" or words like "forego". how would you use that french-english word in a sentence?
i'm not old. and even though my family isn't as rich as most holmdel people, i don't think i could be called "poor" either. ah .. so harvard sent this thing a while ago telling me about an advanced studies program for something like "students of color". i was thinking "um, what". and then i wondered if i counted as a "colored person" -- isn't yellow a color? but then white's a color too, so. oh, i don't know. i don't have a freshman fan club. even though random asian freshman girls say "hiiiiii!" to me when they pass me .. no. and it is so not flirting.
er, so i lost my sweater on monday, and i asked sheila to find it for me the next day, and then she forgot yesterday, and she forgot again today [!!!] .. urg. maybe i should've just called right at the beginning and asked someone from the marlboro high school staff to look for it. what does "forego" mean .. i'm thinking of something like "pass it up" or "not do something". but i'm usually wrong when i go with my really bad instincts about vocabulary. when i take standardized tests, i think of things like "so, this word starts with the letter _ and ends with a sound like ____, so it's really close to this other word .. they must mean the same thing!" and they usually don't. i remember when i took the sat in seventh grade .. and i decided to skip the ones i didn't know and come back to them later. i did maybe two or three problems in the first verbal section the first time around. i want to take some kind of psat course. and a writing one. i've found out that i'm really bad at writing essays .. the first one we had this year in english, i completely did not meet those requirements for a good composition that english teachers give out every year. and i didn't even finish the essay -- my arguments were supported by weak and vague examples from the book, and my conclusion was pretty much "so all this evidence supports my thesis, the end". except i didn't finish writing the conclusion, so it was much worse. and today, i wrote really vague and general ideas for the quiz she gave us on "brave new world". ahh. er, that english word that comes from french is an accepted english word? and connie, if a dog bit your legs off, you would have no legs. at the very least, you would have no foot. how would you walk around on stumps? i'd think that it would be -- well, a little difficult to keep your balance. maybe i'll try it sometime. i mean, not cut off my feet .. maybe strap something with a stumpy bottom to my feet and try walking around.
hey guess what?! i was serena's lab partner in freshman bio, or at least she was at my table. i think kennedy had us in groups of four... that was fun, and then we screwed up the Carl Sagan "soup" lab and made the whole hallway smell um...putrid. haha i bet that was my cousin and her azn buddies hitting on derek, unless he has another fan club i don't know about...go derek! and i get to go to the dmv on saturday to get my permit. score! maybe i can practice on my aunt's 20+ year old Lincoln...with the peeling paint and 3 seater in the front....
Tuesday, September 25, 2001
"most certainly" is a strange phrase? and it's a caitlin phrase? (or a derek phrase?) geez, i just thought it was a normal thing to say. perhaps not. anyway, i don't know what to write about..again. i drove my brother and myself to get my mom a birthday present tonight, which was interesting. i like driving. it's definitely a great thing. except when you drive around holmdel to your friends' houses for random reasons instead of doing your homework, just because you can. which i've done, oops.
hahaha, so today i was walking down from har/src/nerd club/whatever you call it with derek and we pass these girls, freshmen or whatever, and this one sticks her face right in front of derek and goes "hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!" it was sooo funny.. hahahahaha... i'm still laughing about it. so apparently all these girls are "teasing" him.. which i think really means flirting.. which means: (hahahahaha) derek now has a freshman fan club!! sigh.. i'm extremely amused. poor old derek.
speaking of strange phrases ... today i said "forego" ... and got made fun of for it. you know it's bad when yale people actually make fun of the word that *you* use ... and besides that twice in english today my teacher felt the need for some reason to use "quotidienne" instead of "daily" (i'm not sure if i spelled that right in english, it comes from french). and i thought to myself, are we all so pretentious here that we need to use words like that instead of "daily"?! ... and then some hours later i said "forego."
so anyway. i've met someone ... just kidding ... well not really, i did meet a lot of people, but ... you know. aw ... i miss math league ... :'(
wow. i misinterpreted the same question. and so did my friend. we both thought x less y meant y - x. which sucks. cuz we both got 2 instead of 6. which means i could have gotten a 5 if i read the question right. those tricky math league people. i wish a dog would bite my legs off. then i'd be shorter. and then i wouldn't have so much trouble finding pants. or a guy. =)
that most certainly isn't just a caitlin phrase .. i say that too! i remember how one of my friends at high tech during freshman year told me about how he was selling candy or something door-to-door and when he rang the doorbell at one house, a huge german shepherd came out of the house and jumped on him and chased him around the block. he had scratches and cuts all over his face and upper body -- dogs are scary. and when i say i "met someone", it means what it means. what are you implying? i mean, what would you've said if i said that i met this guy who i don't really know? okay, i want my sweater back.
Monday, September 24, 2001
"most certainly"...
that is SUCH a caitlin phrase...i can completely see her saying that. =) i love you caitlin!
michelle! your dog most certainly will NOT bite your legs off. but i bet he/she's adorable. i want a puppy! no i don't. too much responsibility. derek, i was serena's lab partner last year, and alas, you will never live up to the standard i've set. but you can always just.. try. that sucks about that math problem, and your sweater, and those girls. and aww, you've met someone?
hmm, i don't feel like writing about anything really. i've finished my hw! (i can say that in spanish!! - he terminado mi tarea!) and i'm really kind of hyper, if you haven't already noticed. it's a passing phase.
and i'm back to rant on this thing known as my blog. or "a" blog .. i don't know if it still really mine. maybe it is, i don't know. anyway, what happened today. i went to school, serena's my lab partner for chem, i did math homework, i did nothing in physics while the sub was standing around, i sat in the library during my lunch period, history-english-precalc-spanish were boring. i went to a shore math league meet at marlboro high school, i misinterpreted a question -- "x less y" means "x - y", not "y - x" -- and left my navy blue gap cotton crewneck sweater there. augh .. sheila had better be able to find it, or it's going to be like my grey t-shirt that i really liked. gone forever, existing only in my memories .. and in the case of the grey t-shirt, it was in a few pictures. and then i came back to school and tried unsuccessfully to call sheila, then some freshman and eighth grade girls made fun of me at school and on the bus. haha, fun. i half-met someone new today .. this eighth-grade girl who i really don't know who she is. so, it was kind of a long day. i have to get better in tennis. it's that time of year again when i start playing and i realize how much better i should be. i mean, compared to how i've done in the past .. i really suck. i used to be so much better. and i've always wanted a dog too. well, not really -- i kind of wanted fish. or a totoro. michelle's dog is going to grow up to be a big monster and it's going to bite her legs off. i should really write some e-mail soon .. maybe tonight. i forgot to get back to some of my friends, ahh. sheila's blog is alive! you can go see it here: bluebearwallie.blogspot.com. okay, i don't remember really what else i wanted to say .. so i'm going to go. bye-bye.
Sunday, September 23, 2001
aww... i'm jealous. and envious. i'm green with envy. mannn i have always wanted a little puppy. then i would name it Bear...because you know, then that would make a lot of sense. but, i would -- i think it's a thing my brother and i had when we were little kids. *shrug*
so i promised myself i would go running sometime today, but it never happened. so i'm debating whether or not i should just get off the computer now and jump on the treadmill. or, run outside. although, my neighborhood is incredibly scary when you run at night...ah i think i'll go run around on the treadmill in a little while. i've been listening to a lot of live/acoustic/unplugged songs lately, and i'm finding myself really really really wanting to go to a concert now. and then i notice -- every show i want to go to is on a weekday. gosh, it's upsetting. ok you know what? i'm going to keep that promise i made to myself. um, yes. i'll just go now. =)
OMG I WANNA SEE YOUR PUPPYYY!!!!! what'd you name him/her???? ahhhh!!!! i want a puppyyy!!!!! i'm so jealous!
my mommy justgot a puppy!!!!!! OMMMMGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish she'd hurry up and get home so i can see it!! i can't beieve it!!!! whew!!!!!! btw ....oh nevermind, ew our neighborhood is sersiouly infested with daddy long legs we ust dfound two in the house and yesterday i was walking door to door selling gold cards and there was ahuge daddy long leg smack in the middle of this front door and i was like..agh....and yes some people around here are so CHEAP but i think i sold like all my cards so maybe i'll go back and get more and go to another part of the neihborhood...ok bye bye
Saturday, September 22, 2001
lunch at crown palace! was it dim sum? i haven't had dim sum there in such a long time. i remember there once used to be a time when we would be invited there maybe once a month or two to have dim sum -- i think that's cantonese for "dian shin", which means "dessert", right -- and it was fun watching waiters push their carts around and have people grab things off them. actually, it was kind of sad .. i felt kind of sorry for them. most chinese people who work in the restaurants down here are from chinatown and flushing, i think -- someone told me that once. but so they have to wake up incredibly early every day and take a bus or train or whatever they take for an hour or so to get to their workplace .. and then they leave after the restaurants close late at night to go home after an hour-long ride. at least that's what someone said. so i always feel bad for waiters. my mom told me a story about how she was a waiter in some restaurant when she was in graduate school, and she said she was fired on the first day for dropping a huge tray of plates and bowls and cups and they all broke. ask her about it sometime.
hi again. dinner was good, in case you were wondering.
anyway.. i slept a whole lot today. i came home from lunch at crown palace, took a nap, and woke up around dinner time. the sleep was good, but i feel lazy. uunngh. i don't want to do homework. bah. i think i'm already burning out. and it's only september. oh boy. oh, happy autumn, everyone. it began at approximately 7:05 this evening. i'm so sad that summer's over. *sigh* oh well.. autumn is one of my favorites.. the leaves are all so pretty. :) and happy birthday, richard! i'm so upset, i didn't get to sign your big fat birthday card. :( but i can pretend, right? hehe ;) i just realized that nothing terribly interesting has happened to me all week. actually, stuff did happen, but it all seems very trivial now, compared to when it was happening. kind of.. boring. yes, school is taking over my life and it depresses me. ANYWAY. i didn't come here to be depressed/depressing. depress is starting to sound and look really funny. depress. why not unpress? hahaha.. i'm going mad. i think i'll leave now. my train of thought derailed quite a while ago. hahaha.. :o)
wazoo! oh no, i have to eat now. don't worry, i'll be back. then you can all read about my exciting life. yes. :o)
okay, bye! Friday, September 21, 2001
wazoo! anyway, i took away those colors and fonts and whatnot because for some reason, it was causing my computer to screw up whenever i tried to look at the blog page. mm hm. happy happy birthday to richard. i think i'll rename my blog to something related to that -- i'll have to think of something good. and i'm going to sleep now .. i know there's something i want to say, but i forget.
richie rich rich! you should tell your mommy that "studmuffin" is what all the girls think of you as =) "super swai!" haha =) anyway, happy swe-- i mean, suave sixteen =)
the telethon tribute is really touching...why isn't jewel playing "hands"?
Hm I think the studmuffin part was from me, wasn't it? ::oops:: hehe. And Derek took away my COOL fonts and colors. Hrmph. Oh well, your blog, I guess it's your call. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory! All I remember was when that fat girl turned into a big blue blueberry and they had to roll her out... Oh yea, and when some other dude wanted a talking squirrel. Um yea I think. I can't believe I blogged 3 times in one day, even if they weren't really real blogs. And on a weekday too! Wow.
hey, THANK YOU everyone, for the big fat card, especially Ann! wow i feel so special. my mom was just standing here reading everything you guys wrote on the card, and then she asked me what "studmuffin" meant. so, i had an interesting day, with a lot of people giving me umm...hair rubs...if i ever have premature hair loss...:) and it's weird having your former xc coach sign your b-day card.
and i was just randomly wondering, could anyone imagine al gore giving us all those speeches about the wtc that bush did? that's a scary thought.
hey everyone, i don't remember the last time i blogged. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is on Fox Family channel. I wish we had a candy store! I want a scrumdidaliumcious chocolate bar... i hope i spelt that correctly.
yes, it most definitely does. but don't do it, because it's so annoying with bad fonts and ugly colors and sizes .. i don't think i've ever done html in a blog yet. other than putting a link or making something bold or underlined or in italics, maybe. anyway, i'll be back.
Thursday, September 20, 2001
wahaha, i'm corrupting other people with my stupid words. anyway .. um. so i've been looking at a lot of design websites lately, and i really want to make a new site. one that has nice colors. not yellow-green again, and definitely not poop-colored. i'll have to experiment a little. but then i have to think of a layout too, along with how things are going to be set up and how they're going to look -- er. it might get complicated. i've decided not to do my chem homework today, since it's due on tuesday .. so i'll do it before then. maybe over the weekend. and i've decided to look over history, make a physics graph and read-outline from the book, do spanish homework, and finish math problems tomorrow during my free period. or hm, that seems a bit much .. maybe i'll do some of it now.
hahahahaha i just realized i subconsciously used "wahaha" because i saw derek use it in his blog ... oops
wahaha, i'm on a mac at the moment. (it took me five minutes to figure out how to copy my non-breaking spaces.) anyway, it's pretty cool. actually derek i have the feeling you'd like having a mac a lot. the way everything gets highlighted is cool. um, i know what i'm talking about, i swear.
anyway i'm on a mac b/c i'm in the computer lab trying to use this stupid program which is supposed to explain quantum mechanics to me ... which so far has only served to make me much much more confused. which is ... bad. ah well, so i'm not going to do it. i'm actually getting a lot of schoolwork now which really, really, really sucks. but it's really cool to be able to do whatever the heck you want, too. like i thought i had freedom when i got my license, but it's nothing compared to this. um, not like i'm going out and doing bad stuff or anything. actually i had the huge urge to use the saying "paint the town red," like, "not like i'm going out and painting the town red or anything" but i decided it sounded really dumb and old-fashioned. hm, fancy that. Tuesday, September 18, 2001
hmm. so i went to the beach today...nothing terribly exciting. and then i watched tv all night. friends just ended. they're moving friends to 1130!! that sucks! oh well. i'm gonna be doing homework all day tomoddo. i have to write up my chem lab and do calc and read oedipus and play piano and then go to piano lessons!! aw man. but hey, at least i'm not in school=) ok yeah i know i'm obnoxious but i had to rub that in somehow =Þ
i think i have a bug bite on my eyelid. and...that's rather annoying.
oh wow. you didn't just go back and remove random letters from each word, did you? i should try that sometime. it actually looks very .. interesting. anyway, so i procrastinated and just finished my chem homework. it's eleven now. at least it was easy. and i wore my fob glasses all day -- i have to get used to these. anyway, i found a program that lets me save streaming realvideo too! wahahaha, now i can download anything. well, anything that doesn't have one of those weird realvideo flash interfaces where it's really a video inside a video, and then they encrypt some kind of source code so you can't find the location of the video, da da da da ..
wow its ben so long snce i postd sumthin i feel lke im so out of it bcuz i am to lzy to read everythin frum bfore o wel i gess i am doin ok cept frum the incidant frday its pretty much left me with headaches now i hop i fel batter soon darn it i cant seem to fnd a ride to "see u at the pole" tomorow i hope i can find a ride soon ok i got to to go byebye
hey derek...check my speling an gramor will ya? thanx=P j/p j/p
wahaha, i found the coolest program this morning. it's called "asf recorder", and what it does is let you save streaming video onto your computer .. so i can watch videos now that i couldn't watch before because of my horrible connection. i've been downloading music videos -- haha, whee. okay, so if you don't know what streaming video is .. basically, it's what they do when they don't want you to save their videos. like with music videos, if they only want you to view it but not be able to save or distribute it, they use streaming video. how to explain this -- it's like they send you bit by bit at a time so you can watch the bits as they come in, but you can't save them to watch them again later. which means every time that you want to watch the video, you have to connect to their site. hahaha, not anymore. and because my connection is so bad, all the streaming videos were such horrible quality .. so now i'm very happy. now i have to find one that works with realvideo so i can download chinese music videos --
whoops. i mean, doctor. i'm a little loopy from the medication, okay?? :)
hehe, anyways. i made it through practice today. but i felt so pathetic.. coughing and hacking while on a water break. and coughing and hacking while scrimmaging. eh, whatever. i better be better by tomorrow. haha, that sounds funny. :) hm, yes, those attacks. those darn attacks. every time i turn on the television, it's the news. and the news has been on those attacks. sometimes it's depressing, sometimes it's heart warming. the funny thing is, the heart warming stories are what get to me. whenever i hear a story about a self-sacrificing hero or how great the volunteers are or whatever, i want to cry. i actually did once. but i guess those were tears of joy, so that's okay. hm, yes. that is how i feel about this whole mess. :o) alrighties, time to vege out. wow, i have no idea how to spell vege. is it veg? but that looks wrong. vej? haha, whatever. have a nice rest of the day! :) Monday, September 17, 2001
hahaha, "docter". um .. okay, i don't know, i thought that was amusing. i just don't understand how someone makes so many spelling and grammatical mistakes in two sentences where one's a run-on connected with all those ellipses and doesn't end up really saying anything. okay, that was mean. it was what i was thinking. i still have no television, and i haven't heard anything about how i'm going to ever get it back again .. i kind of wish that something more than that really affected me out of this whole incident so i would know what others are feeling. i mean, what do i mean. maybe it's because i don't really know anyone at all or know anyone who knows anyone that was involved in the whole tragedy, even though it was so close to us and affected so many people, but i'm just .. not really. i don't know why. and then yes, i've been starting to worry about other terrorist attacks, but then that's not really there either -- i think i'm still in some kind of disbelief phase. the whole thing isn't really hitting me yet. or maybe it has, but it really hasn't .. okay, i have no idea what i really mean. i need to feel more. i wish i could cry.
Sunday, September 16, 2001
so i went to the candlelight vigil at the town hall today, and there were a lot of people. there was this one really weird part: we were singing America the Beautiful and everything was going fine and everyone was singing, until verse 2. then nobody knew the words anymore and the only thing u heard were erin keenan and this other girl on the mic and some people trying to see if they could remember the words but not succeeding. and in the middle of all that my melted wax started dripping off the candle and eventually attached the top of the candle to the umm "hand-protector" to make an interesting wax sculpture. then someone shouted "Happy birthday Caitlin!" ok no that's not really true, but happy birthday anyway. so that was my first ever candlelight vigil, and btw rush holt was supposed to come but he never did.
um, that's nice. maybe she's just not as anal about typing-perfection as some people are. shame on you, derek. :p
so i went to the docter (again) yesterday.. and now he says that it *might* be bronchitis. what is that?!?! aiyo. actually, what he initially said was that i had an ear infection, and that the coughing was caused by nasal congestion and stuff. now he says my ears are still "a little red" but the coughing might be from bronchitis. what the ish. fortunately, this new medicine seems to be working better. i want to get better. i want to be able to get through one night where i don't wake up coughing. and i really really really want to start playing field hockey again. i have this huge and gigantic urge to play. it's so weird. :) ack, i need to sleep now. bye!
you must be the worst typist in the world. anyway, so i was about to record songs from this karaoke vcd onto my md, but then i found out that the channels for the music are different .. right channel has vocals, left channel has instruments. which makes it all messed up, since that's now how it really is on the cd, and if i'm listening to it that way, it's going to sound really really lop-sided. then i was deciding whether or not to make it all monaural or monophonic, whatever you want to call it -- meaning the same sounds coming from left and right side, combining both channels into both sides. except then it sounds kind of, well .. i don't know. empty, maybe, or just kind of boring in some weird way. i've been taking stereo for granted.
it's strange how you have to lose something to realize how much it really means to you.
yea i saw that snn kids thing... i was kind of good to hear the kids' points of views i thought... yea, right now i'm not like "go kill them all" angry anymore... just sad and "calculating angry". yes i agree.
hey guys, thanks for all the happy birthday stuff.. grace, thanks for the card! i don't know HOW everyone remembered it was my birthday.. i really tried not to be obnoxious about it, like last year, grace.
anyway, no, i don't have my license yet. the dmv is closed on weekends! monday @ 8.30 i take the test. today i practiced parallel parking for like an hour with my dad. "okay, you almost got it.. let's do it AGAIN.. unfortunately, despite all this stuff, not a moment goes by when i don't think about the terrorist attacks. and i'm feeling very very angry.. not like raging angry, more like a calm, calculating angry.. on cnn there was this class of kids that they interviewed to see their views of the attacks. this little girl, maybe eight years old said, "i think they should catch the people who did this, and kill them.. slowly and painfully." i'm finding myself in agreement.. emotionally at least. intellectually and morally, i don't know how i feel. Saturday, September 15, 2001
hehe, i stopped going to the high school class for chinese school today...instead i'm the teacher's assistant in the kindergarten class...let me tell you, chasing around sixteen little five year olds for an hour after a cross country workout is freaking tiring. it really is...i slept for a while in the afternoon. i think i was tired of learning nothing in mrs. chu's class, and going was getting kinda pointless. i explained this all to annie today...anyway...
i just got back in from going to temptations with a few others...and now i'm going to go call my flute teacher...she wants to hear my melodic minor scales or some crap like taht. byee!
reading about someone's ears popping during yoga class really makes very amusing images in my mind. maybe i'll try drawing sometime what i'm thinking. anyway, i don't remember ever having an ear infection. how does an ear infection result in hacking and coughing and a fever? i mean, hm. what do i mean. what does an ear infection have to do with your throat, i think. in chinese school today, mrs. chu was talking about how there was a four word sign in chinese that said literally something like "please no spit phlegm".
as a survivor of an ear infection, i have some advice steffy, if you turn your head upside down, it helps a little. sorta, for a minute. it takes a couple of days, something like 10, but then you feel much much better. actually when my ear finally popped, it was in yoga class last year. i think thats enough... happy birthday caitlin!!! 17! you can give blood now! i hope your driving test is going well, did you take it yet?
oh wow, happy birthday. did you know you have the same birthday as roger chen? i seem to be hearing the word birthday a lot lately .. today mindie was asking me if i knew what her birthday was, and this random kid next to me blurted out "november fifth". that was scary, i'm sure. anyway, um .. i have to go do some homework. happy birthday to everyone, especially caitlin, feel better to steph, and well. wow, i sound kind of sarcastic -- i'm tired.
Friday, September 14, 2001
yes, you guys are all incredibly deep. wow. i love how my friends are all so smart. :)
anywho, on a more personal note, i feel like absolute crap. actually, i've started to feel a teensy bit better in the last half hour.. but most of the day was spent in the absolute crap state. in case you didn't know, i was sick on wednesday with a 103-degree fever and a cough, which turned out to be an ear infection. and for the last two days, i've been trying desperately to suppress my hacking and coughing in all my classes (but, alas, in vain), and wallowing in my own misery. which is what i am doing now. my stupid cough and stupid fever just won't go away. and i feel like my ears are plugged from the infection. waaaah.. yeah, so it's been a rough week for me.. emotionally and physically. sorry, i really needed to vent right there. Thursday, September 13, 2001
if you're curious, a university is like, a bunch of different schools grouped together -- divinity school, law school, etc. a college is just one school. like right now i'm actually at yale college, not yale university. interesting, huh. just one of the many things i learned during the incredibly annoying application process last year.
anyway, if you didn't see this link already logging into blogger, it's ... pretty darn interesting ... http://www.thefineline.org/tflblog/#5635383. two blogs in one day ...
i don't really know why, but after reading that last blog .. all of a sudden i want to learn how to play chess well. i think maybe it's because i thought of deep thought, that ibm computer who played chess, the one who lost to kasparov before deep blue was made after that and beat him. i read some article about it a few days ago. the deep blue vs. kasparov match wasn't fair, supposedly. so they're having another one between a german program named fritz and some other russian grandmaster .. right. and it should be more fair. something like that.
well, i just checked my e-mail last night and suddenly remembered that mit was having an "open house" kind of thing at the library tonight at seven .. except i have orchestra and i forgot to rsvp. so i guess i'm not going. hm, i probably should be annoyed at myself. oh well, it's no big deal. dartmouth sent this little note thing on really nice paper -- it's like that translucent kind that's a little more plasticky .. i don't know how to describe it. i always thought it was dartmouth "university", not "college". okay, i'm rambling. today's english essay was not a fun thing for me. i should study more algebra, too. Wednesday, September 12, 2001
okay, hi. i'm about to go to sleep. but i don't know why i'm deciding to blog something again .. so i'm here. which doesn't make any sense. anyway, i've been feeling really kind of disgusted lately with the way people around me act -- and then yesterday happened, which made that feeling sort of just mushroom into something really large. so it's sitting comfortably in the back of my mind, and i'm walking around all day and seeing the people around me being all these things that i really don't like .. i really don't know what i mean. i really don't have too much hope for a lot of people around me, since it seems like they've always been the same and haven't changed. people are mean, people are obnoxious, people are fake insensitive hypocritical rude and um. what's the point of this blog. maybe i'll wake up tomorrow feeling a bit nicer.
hey everyone, i know this is really tacky to post this on the blog, but it's come to that. those who have received an email concerning an event this coming saturday, i need to know if you can make it by tomorrow. its going to be around 5 o clock. i know im being vague, but its necessary. if you are dave wei, ellen tsay, sheila cheng, li shing, frances, zi, connie yung, mostly people i don't know and don't know who i am, please email me (serena) @ buster0619@hotmail.com. please asap.
concerning everything else, i know exactly how you are feeling steph, it's just surreal. i can't believe what i'm seeing. and mostly it's all that i see when i get home from school. it's so horrifying to think that in this world there are people capable of such evil. i read this really great poem somewhere a while ago. im sure some of you have seen it on my books and stuff, but for those of you who haven't... well here. Godspeed me an angel Let her be for me Know no life but mine Her hands to soothe me And wings cover me I know the real This is no dream A transcendal emotion Then I fall into heaven Godspeed me an angel -to keep me here on earth.
i can't help thinking.. judge not, lest ye be judged. and i know that high school is kind of THE place of ultimate and unfair judging, but that doesn't mean it's okay.. it's not fair to say that someone's not really a christian based on how they talk and act. maybe they aren't, but only they can really know it. personally, i know i really am a christian.. and maybe my concept of being christian is different than all of yours. and maybe you'll tell me that things i say or do make me not christian. but no one's perfect, and for me it's all about striving to be better.. not about seeing who should be praying more. yeah, kids are stupid..and they might be hypocrites. honestly, some of the kids at our school just suck. but so many kids don't. so many kids are really great at our school. and it's not up to us to decide if they're soiling the christian name. right now, of all times, we have to try and love everyone, especially the kids that, well, suck. it's really hard; i know i'm having a difficult time with it. and i know i sound like some crazy/preachy hippy or something. but i'm being earnest, and wow, it feels good.
mm, i read somewhere that europeans are blaming bush's foreign policy for creating a situation in which something like yesterday was likely to happen .. i don't know. he seems to be having a lot of very bad situations happen to him, and everyone's blaming him for something or other. i wouldn't want to be president. anyway, all my channels are gone -- i don't have cable, and apparently the main broadcasting antenna thing for most major networks was at the top of one of the two towers. if they're almost sure that it was bin laden, i think the united states is probably going to start blowing up every single place where he's suspected to be .. i really have doubts that afghanistan would last through something like that. and if they call in their ally pakistan, who we know has the capability to launch nuclear missiles, well. i think i need to have a better grasp of foreign affairs.
on another topic .. i was about to walk out the door to the buses today after my ninth period class when i saw the large group of people standing outside. okay, maybe i'm being close-minded .. but it was supposed to be a special fca prayer meeting, but then i saw one of the student leaders -- i'm almost sure he's supposed to be one -- inside the commons chatting with some girls, and then i looked outside and half the people there didn't seem like they were really praying. i'm not too sure what i mean, but i know for sure that many of the people i saw weren't exactly really christians, from how they talk and act whenever i see them. some kids in the back weren't even paying attention .. they were just being stupid. i don't know why, but it all makes me really kind of angry when people are such hypocrites and .. i don't know. okay, if you're really making an effort to pray and maybe learn about what it means to be a christian, that's good -- but if you're there for some other idiotic reason such as to look like a good person in front of everyone, you shouldn't be there. at all. like the people in the library yesterday, how a lot of them were there just to watch and say "woh, did you see the tower blow up, did you see that" or "man, that's a lot of dead people" .. i don't know why i'm so angry all of a sudden. it's either hypocrisy or insensitivity or obnoxiousness.
derek, just for the sake of argument.. osama bin laden (or however you spell his name) has already "declared war on the us." personally, i think the future of warfare may consist of events like this - attacks on civilians not involving the military at all. why fight against the world's most powerful army when you can easily kill thousands of innocent civilians in a surprise attack? while this was a terrorist faction and not another country (at least apparently), it's still one group committing unspeakable acts of violence against another. and i think it's pretty certain that we WILL strike back.. hard. my friend told me this quote from einstein, i don't know if you guys have heard it, but i thought it was poignant..
"i don't know what world war three will be fought with, but i know world war four will be fought with sticks and stones."
every time i think of that.. incident.. from yesterday, i get this amazing feeling of disgust and discomfort all over me. it just makes me feel so tired. but then you hear about all these wonderful people volunteering their time and energy, donating blood, and all that.. i guess a bad thing like this can bring out some good things, too.
so apparently the people in my gym class were some of the first people from south to hear the news... we were walking to the woods 2nd period (like 9:20) and some guy drives by and stops and says "hey, wanna hear something weird? 2 planes just crashed into the twin towers" and drove off in a frenzy...
so my gym teacher took down the guys license plate and went back and told our asst. principal about the guy and he phoned the police and they tracked the guy down and searched his house to check if he was a terrorist or something... (no, he wasn't.) yeah, freaky, freaky stuff. heard rbc closed because it had like 20 students who lost one or both their parents and a whole lot more who had missing relatives... and then found out my friend's dad died at the wtc and another friend's dad was on the pittsburgh plane... yeah, still praying for all... Tuesday, September 11, 2001
even though some people rudely disagreed with me today on what i thought, i'll just say what i think about total war and what's happening right now. i really don't think that it counts as "war" until you really have two opponents, two sides that are clearly attacking each other. and in this case, these were specific targets hit to -- well, i think -- make some kind of statement. is that total war? in my opinion, i thought the goal of total war is to end the war hard and fast by discouraging the other side from fighting. i would have to say that this is a little bit different .. when you don't know the enemy, when there's no actual war going on. but hm, then again -- if they're calling this "act of war", do they mean that this incident's most likely going to start a huge international conflict? like say, when iraq invaded kuwait, was that total war? individual terrorist attacks .. okay, now i don't know what i think anymore about if it counts as this whole "total war" term or not.
i'm.. afraid.. of nuclear war. please, please, please don't let us nuke anyone..
how many people feel like rewriting their essays on total war? it's amazing how first person experience can change one's opinions so drastically. what else is there to say. so much can't be put into words. you know.
yea i've been in some half-daze this whole day. like in latin i was kind of staring out into space and mrs. boueil asked me a question and i was like, "duuh....." for quite a while. and i guess mark was pretty smart to go to school today instead of obeying his boss and going to work, i think, actually inside one of the world trade towers. scary. you're only supposed to see these things in movies. and i'm being honest when i say that yesterday morning when i was walking down the hall to my locker i said to myself, "it seems about time for something totally weird to happen. i have no idea what but something weird is going to happen." uggh and just the day before we were writing essays on total war. so i guess all we can do is pray, and maybe something really good will come out of this.
i um, well. i don't know what to say about today. i don't think i really believed that it was really happening at all, and i was in this half-daze kind of thing the whole time. like when they announced that the two towers had been hit by a plane each, i went to the library and was one of maybe five-six people who watched it happen about ten times while they replayed what happened .. and i still was in this state of disbelief. and i turn around and there're a lot of people behind me watching and either having these blank looks on their faces or crying. what a retarded day. i really hate it when people are really loud and insensitive .. some people were laughing really loudly in the library. and i really don't know what to say. i'm praying, but i'm not sure what for. for it all to be fine for everyone? for it all to go back to "normal" again? i just think -- or i mean, i know -- that god has his plan with everything that's happening ..
it definitely is freaky stuff -- i'm not quite sure what to say about what happened today. i mean, especially for the people around where we live...because there certainly is a lot of parents/aunts uncles/etc who commute from here to work in nyc.
over at south, everyone kind of didn't know what was happening; we didn't watch tv in the library like the holmdel people. but i think everyone got the picture when so many kids started being taken out of class and we saw others crying because they found out one of their parents was no longer alive...i am definitely worried for all my friends and people i know who still don't know if everything's ok. yikes. keep praying for it all. Monday, September 10, 2001
yeah, i guess we're not that old. haha.. i don't know what came over me. :) oh, and ellie, you're not old, either. just in case you were feeling that way. =)
anywho. i finished most of my homework already and it's not even ten yet. woohoo! this is great.. hopefully it'll be like this every night. hmm.. my history essay is kind of.. bad. i don't seem to express my ideas very coherently. actually, sometimes it happens, but never with school. okay, maybe sometimes with school. and i'm babbling. i have a babbling problem. babble babble babble. babble. NO! i think i'm developing some sort of cough. NO! not now! i hate being sick.. :( especially the kind where you are sick for about two weeks before it really goes away. nooo.. :-/ maybe i should take my vitamins. la la la.. i guess i'm off to read some physics now. good night. :o)
haha... that's why it's usually not wise to try and literally translate anything from chinese. not like i personally could anyway.
anyway ... (oops used that word twice in a row ... how annoying) i'm sitting here reading about how you guys all feel old ... well ... you're not. you are not old at all. not old at all. you are all young. actually today in chem they checked hw and that made me feel kind of young. (i also couldn't hand it in because i wrote it, like, *in* my notes so, well, that was dumb. i'm going to go make a copy so that i can hand it in next class.) um, that was incoherent. well, my glasses should be coming in the mail today (my parents sent them), YAY! (i'm really looking forward to them, if you couldn't tell from that.) ew, my face looks dirty (there's a mirror next to my computer). these are all unrelated statements. ok ... bye. Sunday, September 09, 2001
have you ever noticed how weird chinese grammar is? i'm listening to this song by mayday -- which is in chinese, "wu yue tian" -- and i somehow start to think of a direct translation for this chorus: "could you or not not say what you want is what, could you or not just love me (you) don't ask me why" .. right. i guess you can translate it loosely to "can't you not say what you want, can't you just love me and not ask me why". something like that. i just finished my chem homework, wow.
pikachu = peek at you.. if you read it out loud, grace. don't worry, i actually had to say it outloud for it to make sense... my brother looked at me really funny for a second. and everyone did get older! except somehow they all still look very much the same... one of those weird paradoxes. but i definitely feel older now. older as in aches and pains... my back and my neck are always hurting, and once in awhile the butt joins them. haha :) you all know what i'm talking about... when i sit down on the floor now it takes me a whole lot longer to get back up than it used to. oh well. we've only had three days of school and i'm already sick of it. i'm ready for the summer again!
yes, derk, you do look like you're upset in school. at least that day that i caught you in the hall and talked to you for five seconds, anyway.
caitlin, i know what you're talking about. this year (okay, the first three days anyway) i've just been sitting quietly and watching people around me..i feel like everything is out of place and i note that i'm definitely not as energetic and as silly as i once was.. okay, don't get me wrong, i still am, it's just that things do seem older. and it's depressing, actually. i want to get excited about little things, but that's not really coming much anymore. and i take naps all the time just like you two =). but on another note, maybe i still am very young-oriented.......because i don't uh....really get that joke.......it makes me feel better that norman didn't get it for five minutes...but i'm still not getting it. daaaaym. Saturday, September 08, 2001
if i have this much homework every night, i think i'm going to die by the second week of school.
hm, anyways. i feel old, too.. and in that physical way. i do the old lady groan when i sit down, while my knees and other parts of my body are cracking.. i get winded climbing the stairs.. and i think i need a nap right now. oh man.. i wonder what it's going to be like when i'm forty [shiver]. i wonder if it seems like i've gotten older over the summer.. it was kind of funny when michelle realized that you looked "older." we were in the middle of a song and all of a sudden she says that you look older. well, maybe it wasn't that funny. haha, okay, nevermind. :o) i got a cavity filled today. and the left side of my mouth is still numb.. it feels so weird. the novacaine (woah, that does not look right) shot wasn't bad, actually. the dentist was good and did it so it didn't hurt at all. and i learned that he has three little girls.. 4, 2, and 1. isn't that cute? there is something very cute about a dad with no sons. hahaha.. i have no idea why, though. it's just cute. yeahhh.. ;) i love those chem jokes. speaking of jokes.. some of you already know this one, but i'll tell it anyway: Q: why shouldn't you take a shower with a pokemon? A: because it might PIKACHU! hahahahahahahahaha.. you have to say it out loud for it to make sense.. :)
actually, i was referring to how maybe i was older somehow after being poked and prodded by some female security guard .. like you know, when something significant -- not that that was, it definitely wasn't -- happens to you, don't you sometimes feel like you've grown, like somehow you're in another stage of your life. yes no, okay. i really don't know what i mean, maybe like when you first ride a bike without training wheels .. don't you feel older? anyway, caitlin, you sounded very serious about the whole being older thing. does less naive have to mean more cynical? i think those two are extremes, and there has to be some middle ground somewhere. i can't believe how many books i brought home yesterday. and wow, playing keyboard yesterday was sort of a rush when i didn't have music .. you all should try it sometime. and somehow i'm on all these committees for fellowship without knowing that i'm on them, and it's very surprising when henry announces my name with other people's and says for people to see me to sign up for this or that. do i look like i'm upset in school too?
a lot of people seem to have gotten older after summer vacation. and not necessarily in a good way. we're all less naive, and therefore more cynical than we were last year. great. i feel older. like, really old. like i don't have enough energy to do normal kid stuff anymore, like run around with the kids i babysit. and i have to take naps. and i tell my friends that i can't go out with them because i'm too tired. and people keep coming up to me in school asking me if i'm upset about something. and i say, yes, being in school. and i'm serious. but i didn't know that i really looked that miserable. wow, this blog makes me sound like i'm depressed. i'm not really..
okay, i'm going to look at cars with my dad (!!!!). i get my license a week from monday. if i pass the test that is.
okay, some of you might've heard this story. i'll tell it again here because i just remembered, but you can ask me in person and i'll tell you in person. apparently, it's very amusing to some people. um, so the airport security at narita airport outside of tokyo was really strict .. like they thought my oil pastels were some kind of flammable liquid paint and then they had to take my deodorant spray away because it was compressed air that could've burst, things like that. anyway, so i was walking through the metal detector and it beeped. it was my belt buckle and the buckle for the straps on my sandals, but the woman security guard decided to take her little hand-held stick metal detector and run it up and down to check if i had some kind of weapon on me, and she was pulling on my clothing too at the same time to check if i had anything concealed. it was very embarrassing. what's worse is when the thing beeped when it passed my belt buckle, and so this woman makes a sign for me to show her what's making the thing beep, and i have to lift up my shirt and show her my belt buckle. and that's not it, because then she says "can i touch?" in that crude english that lots of not-very-fluent foreigners have when speaking english, and i was like "um, okay .. ?" it was a very awkward situation. i'm in the tokyo airport in a public place with this japanese woman tugging on my belt, apparently to check if i'm carrying weapons or bullets or a bomb behind my belt buckle, which i wasn't. okay, anyway. oh .. michelle tai asked me today why i seemed older after coming back from vacation.
Friday, September 07, 2001
whhat's your chem teacher's name? is it chen? i think she and my old chem teacher are good friends or something. and brian and i used to talk about her for some reason. or ... something. doesn't she do that thing like ... if you ask her "what's new" she goes "c over lambda" ... and laughs ... um ... chem jokes are funny.
like these two atoms were walking down the street and all of a sudden one stopped short and goes, "oh crap! i lost an electron!" and the other one asked worriedly, "are you sure?" the first atom goes, "i'm positive!" anyway ... i did not come on here to write chem jokes. but then again ... i didn't really have anything to write in the first place. so ... goodbye.
mm, so day three is over. at least for me it is. people are still in school for practice for whatever sport they play .. i think i should do a sport. maybe winter track. i wonder how my workload is going to be this year -- so far, it seems pretty large. i spent an hour or so last night doing my chem homework, and since i didn't know whether to write out the questions or not, i did. and it took me over two pages front and back to do the homework. argh. at least i won't have to write the questions out anymore. and this whole "outlining" thing is new for me. i've never done it before .. and now i have to for physics and history. i mean, i've "taken notes" from books before -- well, very little, i only had to do it once or twice in my history class during freshman year -- and when the teacher's talking, but i don't know what outlining is. do they mean the whole numbers and letters with titles for topics and paragraphs, like outlines you have to write up for a research paper, or i don't know what. i'm just going to take notes like i usually do. someone show me an example -- a good one -- of how they outline. um, what else. oh, i've found out that almost all of my teachers have some kind of weirdness when they talk. my chem teacher is chinese, and she has this accent that i want to laugh at the whole time; my physics teacher is one of those people that like to hear themselves talk, and he rambles on and on about something he can say in five words or less, and he always uses these horrible cliches and weird phrases and inserts large words into his speech and he pretends to be cool; my spanish teacher is this skinny rather old woman who seems like a nervous grandmother. like the kind that's always wanting to coddle you and ask you if you're all right. so what are the other teachers like .. um. my history teacher is pretty funny, and she made fun of me on the first day. maybe that's a good thing. since my chinese name is also printed on official documents such as an attendance list, because my parents weren't thoughtful enough to give me a proper english name that english-speaking people would not have a problem with, the teacher hesitated before my name and then she went "uh, der .." so now even though i explained on the first day, she likes to call me "der". even though it's only the second time in two days. and then i heard that today in the history periods after my class, she was making fun of my handwriting, something about how it seems like i write with my foot. haha, oh well .. i wonder what she's going to say in class about it on monday. why am i describing my teachers, i don't know. er, my english teacher seems a little like the one from last year, except maybe not as boring. she seems sort of like a no-nonsense -- well, very little, if any -- type who's going to be pretty strict as the year goes on. i heard her class is going to be harder than last year. how wonderful. okay, i'm going to go eat something now.
Thursday, September 06, 2001
hi. so, today was day two of the horrifying torture they like to call "school." school. i'm a junior and i still feel like a sophomore. a sophomore that still feels like a freshman. *sigh* i think it's the fact that our locker locations have not changed that makes it seem like i've been here forever. i need a new venue! although the upstairs hallway kind of sucks convenience-wise. eh, whatever. i don't know if i can take it. for another.. however-many months.
and i was going to say something else, but it slipped my mind when i was typing something else. don't you hate it when that happens? anywho.. i should go to bed soon. maybe i'll read some ordinary people. we're having a "discussion" on it in english tomorrow. whoopee! haha.. okay, good night. :)
a couch and a tv. that's so not fair. a new computer too, ugh. i'm immensely jealous. well, maybe not too much .. and not for long. my uncle gave me this mini computer that his company sells, and even though i haven't tried setting it up or using it yet, it seems promising. it's about the size of a cd-rom drive, and it has an external floppy disk drive, a cd-rom drive, a 12gb hard disk, 128mb of RAM, and i think there's a pentium III processor. so this little box thing is better than my large purple sony tower in practically every way. i just wonder how it'll handle in real life .. hopefully my multimedia things will go better. okay, i can't sleep.
Wednesday, September 05, 2001
my water has lots of little bubbles in it. i think that's because it's been sitting for like two hours or so.
anyway my dad came up again to drop off a couch, a tv, and my new computer, which is sooooooo cool. i mean, so much faster than the one i was using previously. yeah, baby, and now i have a dvd player so i can watch my one and only dvd (emperor's new groove b/c it makes me laugh and feel better ;-). other than that ... classes started today ... i only had one (chem) and it was boring. yep, then again, it *is* class so what else could i really expect. i can't believe school started for you guys too ...
today i went to school.. and had practice. nothing's changed. except that the good old seniors are gone and there're [nice contraction, huh?] some new little kids crowding the halls. i feel.. pensive, i think. if that's a word. i think it means thoughtful, contemplative. if so, that's how i feel. i'm in the mood to go read longfellow poetry. you know, all those ones about time and the inevitability of the future. scary.
er, so i'm back from everywhere. it was all fun, i bought way too much stuff, and well. ah, i missed summer camp. i can't make up my mind as to whether that was a "ah well" kind of "ah" or more like a "AHH" type of thing. and my sentences seem to be more unflowing than usual .. it's probably because of my horrendous jet lag. i think that's how you spell it. i think i'll try and throw a lot of references to other blogs around here. um, i stayed after school for about an hour to change my courses around -- anyway, now i have a different english class and a different gym class, and now i actually have spanish. whee. and it's some teacher i've never heard of .. maybe she's new. hopefully it won't be too bad. last year was nice. so anyway, i guess i'll probably think of what i bought in japan and tell everyone who reads this blog. i read an article in some magazine about blogging -- they kept calling it "weblogging", which is the not-as-cool unshortened word -- and they said that the three types were personal journal-diaries, musing for an anonymous audience, and lists of links. i think mine falls into the first two. okay, so i bought stuffed animals this trip .. a medium-sized blue totoro in taiwan, i should've bought more because they were so expensive in japan, a medium-sized brown rectangular monster thing from japan with a huge mouth and sharp teeth, and then i have a little shrimp-squid-octopus thing with a hat and a green dinosaur-dragon thing. hm, so maybe that's not too much. i bought too many cds. i'll have to make a list sometime. and what's annoying is that on the music video vcds, i can never figure out from the packaging whether it's a karaoke vcd or not .. for the karaoke ones, they have the voice-removal thing and the stupid ugly karaoke words. i was so mad when some of the ones i bought ended up having the ugly ugly words. i was angry. anyway, i need to find vcd software to see if i can do karaoke with my computer. whee.
Tuesday, September 04, 2001
Monday, September 03, 2001
i LOVE boston. i want to live in boston. except.. i never ever ever want to drive in boston. i first fell in love with that city when my dad took all of us there for a long weekend for free. (i think he was giving a talk..) anyway.. i really really liked it there. but we went out for dinner one night at this really good italian place with my dad's friend and the driving was horrendous. (is that how you spell horrendous? i'm not a very confident speller, in case you have not noticed.. :p) it felt like the longest, most winding car ride of my life. i think we might have gotten lost.. or maybe the streets were just so twisty that it felt like we were driving in circles. haha.. that was fun. and the food was good. good times, good times.. :o)
i don't think i've ever dreamed of going to hi-tech. hehe.. now i kind of want to. it seems like an interesting dream-setting. =) i bought this really funny sat prep book today. (agh, i am SUCH a dork. oh boy.) but seriously.. it's hilarious. i went to barnes and noble and bought an sat book and read it while drinking a frappuccino. hehe.. it was fun. i was initially looking for "a walk to remember" by nicolas sparks, but they only had it in large print. haha.. i felt weird buying a large print book.. so i didn't get it. the letters were about half an inch high. haha.. maybe i should have gotten it anyway. would've been easy on the eyes. hm, anywho.. i picked up "anonymous rex" for my brother. it's a book about a dinosaur detective. and it's not a children's book. haha.. i need to read it when he's done. apparently, it is quite hilarious. hehehe... dinosaurs. hehehe.. :) school is starting in approximately two days. i think i am going to cry. WAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH. there, i feel a little better. :)
last one for me. yay! ok sorry, i'm immature.
wow ellie. i can't believe all the ex-seniors are gone!! you guys were the last batch!! wahhhhhhhhhhhh. oh man oh man. oh man oh MAN. i have quite a bit of work to do. so why i'm here blogging instead of attempting to work is beyond me. "dang, still can't believe i'm..." a senior!! sniff. i still remember preschool, and how this girl michelle ate glue and got in trouble, and how we were all trying to flare our nostrils...and how the teachers would play "kokomo" and "dont' worry be happy" everyday during nap time when they thought all the kids were asleep. all the kids except me. sigh. those were the days... i wonder when i'm going to get over this whole reminiscing bit...only for me to go through it again next summer...except i'll have a whole year more to reminisce about. oh the joy.
well! i'm online!
ok i had to figure out all my ethernet stuff all by myself (actually my bro helped me figure out what configuration i should use b/c my ethernet port isn't in the same room as my computer is) ANYWAY ... yeah so i'm finally online. i've been at college since friday now (wow that's weird to say) and it's kinda weird ... you know ... finding people ... trying to figure out what classes i plan to take, etc. but it's been ... ok ... very very tiring actually. i'm taking a music placement test tonight and i get to take a chem placement test tomorrow morning bright and early at 9am ... my dorm room's actually pretty decent ... we have bunk beds, but i got the bottom bunk, and i put a shelf like hanging from the upper bed so i've got a little shelf hanging over me :-). and i have stuffed animals. and my dad's bringing up a tv and maybe a couch (for the common room). btw, yeah, the pictures from summer camp i think are all digital ... i kinda wanted to bring up the digital camera, but my dad said i shouldn't. i may buy one for next year, though. dang, still can't believe i'm at college!
this blog is almost a year old, isn't it?? wow.. anyhow, another school year about to start. second to last one. ever. thank god.
Saturday, September 01, 2001
when i was in hawaii i ate literally a pineapple a day. well gee i got sick of that.
i'm in boston (ooh, a weekend in boston...yes, i'm a dork.) right now, dropping off eugene/moving him in. i am beginning to like this city; tonight we went to the quincy market or whatever and tomorrow we're going to start moving the guy into his dorm. hopefully i can hit urban outfitters while i'm there near newbury st. =) they have these cool shoes i want. aw yeah. oh! and us open. on thursday. i went. (hm..i seem to be typing in..short fragments) lots of fun. tim henman is adorable. we stole all sport from the courts. greg resudski signed my coffee stained white visor. eric took tim henman's towel. all in all a good time. i've never been paintballing, but when i was little one of eugene's friends shot me with a paintball by accident. "by accident". it hurts! i had a bruise. ouch man. i had a dream once that i went to high tech. weird. it was weird.
i played paintball for the first time today! i went with Srikar, Frank, Frank's brother, Andrew, Howard, Dennis Chang, Eric Hu, and Jonny Lee. And Kathryn Gong's mom gave us free upgraded paintball guns b/c we were from Holmdel. The first game was screwed up cause we had no idea what to do, and there were these paintball experts with their own hi-tech guns rolling around the leaves and inbetween trees and sneaking up behind us and pumping paint all over us. then we started to learn and i think i hit maybe 3 or 4 people. anyway, it was really fun, like being in all those war movies, only with paint, especially after reading All Quiet on the Western Front which is a pretty darn good war novel.
so gee, i had a dream that all of you went to high-tech while i was the only one still at holmdel, and one day i came to visit you guys at school and you were eating breakfast buffet-style in the cafeteria. and then i woke up. |