i wonder if it's common practice for other blogs to randomly change their blog names once in a short while. because i did it first and then connie did it and we both do it now to a ridiculous degree. so i'll just go rename my blog now again.

Friday, February 28, 2003
a bright, shining day full of little white bunnies and wicker baskets filled with loOoOve. that was so random.

eric is super ping pong champ of the world -- super cool!

i think i was infected with senioritis in september. i'm a hopeless case. today, being one of the few times i've been at holmdel after school, was quite shocking. i was amazed at the sheer diligence that students have in starting hw RIGHT after school! i was also amazed at the asian population. for a moment there i thought i was in chinese school. ;) haha.

i have coldplay tickets (!!!!!!!!!!!!) so now i can

Thursday, February 27, 2003
to see frank kung take his shirt off!! that will never get old...because it is true!

hmm..just got back from hitting fuzzy green balls with helen and eric. that was a blast. i think i am 5.7% infected with senioritis. i dunno how fast it's gonna spread. hopefully i can keep it below 20% until the AP's. it seems some of my unluckier friends have already succumbed to this horrible horrible illness. maybe i developed a bit of immunity during freshman year when i suffered from freshmanitis, which i guess is only a slightly different strain from senioritis.
nice, eric. i will always be proud to have known the 2003 HHS CCCCCCCC ping pong masta! go yellow!! we have bragging rights now!

tomorrow looks to bring

pee. and sleep. or at least i do. no matter how hard i try, i can't get to bed early!! something always comes up. thats annoying. i really hope my coldplay ticket buying fiasco works out. in advance (because i know there are going to be problems): i'm sorry stephanie and chris.

i'd give my arm

Wednesday, February 26, 2003
allison kao? aw, i guess that joke is getting old. i don't deserve to play this game. :(

hehehe, anywho. no one rubs me down like you do, my little saxon. i just had to insert that somewhere.. how do lines like that get into a play like beckett? not that i've ever read beckett. but the cover makes it look serious. because.. you can always judge a book by its cover.

why am i so weird..

i really need to

gay. what did he say in the opening scene, like "no one rubs me down like you do" and "my little saxon". maybe it's just manly affection. i remember being amused when reading this during freshman year. and i thought becket was the coolest literary character i'd ever encountered -- intelligent, urbane, athletic, handsome, and then he does a turnaround and becomes a man of god. something very complex going on. i had a crush on becket. i have a crush on everyone now, including

take my purse with me after school today.

hey we could an interesting twist to this game, like award points if the next person finishes the previous person's sentence correctly. so that means fat jess has a point for correctly finishing my statement saying i would do anything to watch frank kung take his shirt off. and if i remember correctly jess did almost forget to take her purse yesterday. wait...do you call it a purse or a handbag, or just bag? whatever.

and everybody at the pit at 2:15 tomorrow to watch eric play ping pong! wheeeeeee.

even with all of ms. maltese's pleading, i am still a firm believer that thomas becket and king henry II are

take his shirt off. har har har.

ahhh i'm late for practice! bye bye kiddies.

i almost forgot to

chris martin, who was seriously vesano. with all that torque exerted by his neck and the magnitude of the rotational acceleration of his head, i don't see how he could have named the new album anything other than "a rush of blood to the head." suddenly it all makes sense. i want to figure out how to play clocks and politik on the piano so that i can also snap my head off my neck.
oh i had a revelation during latin class today that jimmy kimmel used to be on win ben stein's money. that made my day.
i would do anything to watch frank kung

Tuesday, February 25, 2003
i will eat chicken pot pie. i bought an issue of gq on saturday ("the hollywood issue") and they rated l.a. steakhouses and the overall consensus was that they don't compare to new york. so i think an excursion to a new york steakhouse is in my short-term plans. jennifer garner was also in the magazine. she didn't smile -- just that slight open mouth natural slack mouth look that people seem to do in magazine photo shoots like that. so in tonight's poetry reading, william carlos williams appears to get away with the most idiotic of poems. i think i have a crush on

filet mignon steak with yummy side dishes like mashed potatoes and all that fatty goodness. mmmm.. and yes, coldplay is amazing. i didn't see them though. :( i heard chris martin was freaking out seizure-style during 'politik'.. that's pretty awesome.

woah! there's a ladybug right by my keyboard! randomness.

anyways. when i first posted that blog, it was after reading this blog from dave, but that one was magically erased as soon as i posted, so i had to edit mine. the internet is so fickle. sorry for any confusion, kids. ;)

i think there might have been a point to this blog at one time or another, but it has definitely disappeared completely. perhaps

Monday, February 24, 2003
my stomach hurts. barrrrf. this game is bone crunchin', eh? raawr. i also don't know why norah jones won so many grammies yesterday. i admit that she's good, but i don't think she's that great. bruce should have won over her, hands down. but thats just my opinion.

i stayed at school until eleven today! but newspaper is done, thank goodness. its a paper of epic proportions. you'll see. yay leeshing for sticking it out along with me, even though there were very annoying...things (meaning, people) there. =P

my car door lock froze this morning (alas, i have no keyless entry), so i couldn't open the doors. my dad then took my keys and held it over a stove to warm it. now that can't be good.

i'm sad because my poisonous (but very beautiful) snowman started melting in the rain. it looks like it has a shrunken head. kind of like what you'd imagine if you saw a shrunken voodoo head. well then!

i say it a million times, but i'll say it again: coldplay is freakin amazing. more amazing than a nice, juicy

stuff my face. hey hey hey...wait a second......what happened to steph's old blog? something is very very sketchy. was i seeing things before or did someone edit steph's blog? i think the old one said something like: "to a [blank] kid." ::sigh:: ...i guess i'll give her the benefit of the doubt...even though it takes some of the bone-crunchin', heart-poundin', fire-blazin' excitement of this frostily random game away.
i don't know why

we got to sleep an extra two hours! even though the phone chain call came at 6:15 am and woke me up.. which is 45 minutes earlier than when i normally wake up. oh well. i couldn't fall back asleep so i decided to read a chapter from my econ book. which i should be doing now instead of blogging.

oh and steph didn't kill the game! go to new york and wander around buying super cheap stuff! that makes sense =).

i'm hungry. i think i'll

that you realize, steph, that you killed the game!! you didn't complete derek's sentence, or maybe what you said just isn't completely pertinent to what derek meant. oh well. i guess that means you lose. us: 1; steph: 0. bwahahahaha!! :) well i suppose we could start another one.

so did everyone watch the grammys last night? coldplay was freaking awesome. "give me real. don't give me fake..." they are perfect cool in my house anytime. and the drummer for the foo fighters is hilarious. he reminded me of a hyper little chipmunk, kind of like alvin in alvin and the chipmunks. that was an awesome show. Dave: "AAAAAAALLVIIIIIINN!!!" doo-doo--do-do-do. today was a good day because

wander around aimlessly and buy super cheap bootleg dvds and kate spade bags. if i had the time, that is. oh well. :)

yes, derek, you can be a jerk. but i only mean that in the nicest way possible. if i didn't like you, i'd hate you forever for doing that. but i won't. i didn't even hate you for a little bit.. i was only messing with you. :) you should really work on the whole "being a good friend" thing, though. ;)

yuck, scholarships. i need to do those. but don't remind me.

and on another note, delayed openings rock my world. i hope



Sunday, February 23, 2003
stands really close to me and looks down at maybe an eighty-five degree angle when i go up to talk to him. but i don't hate psychology, because it's an interesting class. steph called me a "jerk" today because i showed up to her party two hours late and left maybe half an hour early (meaning i stayed how long, i'm not sure) but i just wasn't in the party mood. even less than usual, which is usually almost not at all. but yes, i have these presents i have to go out and buy this week -- after i write some certain college letters and apply to the scholarships on my list, i'm finished! let's all go to new york next week to

do a little dance, make a little love, get down tonight...get down tonight...
look, ellen saved the blog by starting this game...or whoever it was who started it...anyhooo, i want brownies. and i hate psychology because mr. sanecki

cartwheel. :)

anyway. i have the best friends in the entire world. period. there are no other ways to describe the gratitude and love i have for you guys, so i think i'll just leave it at that. :o)

and to continue the blog continuing tradition, i'm going to

Friday, February 21, 2003
a big duck who is waddling around a large pyramid of bowling balls. it seems to be quacking some kind of mystical duck-chant. ellen turns to run away before the duck can hurl a bowling ball at her, but it magically turns into her interviewer, and they sit down to talk.

calc was fun today. we had another good laugh at srikar when he was at the board and blurted out, "wait guys, horizontal is like this right?"
and and today was the most amazing day of physics since that enchanting class of quantum theory a few months ago. and we spent a third of our gov class talking about the bowling ball problem. you can call us dorks, but we still outnumber YOU! ha!

i really need to learn how to

allison kao. derek must be jealous, because she is his true love. i wonder if allison reads this blog...=D

i have a tufts interview today at my interviewer's law firm (its in red bank). he gave me directions and finished by saying, "you'll find it! its right across the street from a used car lot." so i try finding it yesterday afternoon. i found the used car lot, but i look across the street and...there's nothing there! an empty plot of land. i'm extremely sketched out. oh well. wish me luck...i'm just hoping that i'll go to the empty piece of land and something will magically appear. something like

a hot date. with

Thursday, February 20, 2003
at this website here http://www.charlottesports.org/ trying to think of new names for Charlotte's new NBA team. so far richard has come up with the "devolution", that word from ap gov used to describe federal aid patterns, which also happens to be the frostiest word in the world. he also came up with "stallions" hoping that he might at least get a response for a decent suggestion. he also thinks that "Charlotte Derks" has a nice ring to it.
i better get to sleep now cause tomorrow i have

i opened the car door when i was four. it was our ugly beige dodge station wagon and i was in the back seat and my mom was in the front and we were in san antonio -- and the car was moving about sixty miles per hour on the highway, and somehow i just decided i would unlock the door and open it. i got into trouble. this girl at orchestra today looked at me strangely ... it was sort of a exaggerated raised eyebrow wide eyed look and a smile, kind of like the look i would give to someone i know if i wanted to talk to them. i think it caught me off guard so i kind of just went back to reading my spanish play. "la casa de bernarda alba" is getting kind of scandalous.

i have to visit upenn and boston schools sometime in the near future. does anyone want to come with me? it'll probably be soon: upenn by the end of the month probably, even possibly on a weekday (i have to meet with the dmd director and show some work and i want to sit in on classes and meet the students in the program), and then boston maybe early march. we'll see. i should be doing my so much work. but instead i'm

masochist. yes, that is right, my name is derek tsai and i enjoy putting myself through torture. such as sledding down a steep steep hill and then up a steep steep ramp and into the steep steep air... and then onto my face, yes my face. and oftentimes i lose my glasses in the snow. but then i find them since i am all powerful and i climb back up that steep steep slope and do it all again! unfortunately, i chickened out on the most masochistic run of all, where i was going to be a super snow surfer and go down the hill standing on the sled... next time, perhaps. i got scared due to a traumatic childhood experience where

deprived because i've never had a pretzel from auntie anne's. so i have this plan to get myself into the rice bowl journals by making a new blog (but powered by movable type, not blogger) and making it nice and clean and pretty. or maybe i'll just keep it for personal use. anyway, i have to go do so much work. but first, i'd like to say that i found out this weekend that i'm a

watching my taped episode of the bachelorette where I expected Trista to choose Charlie, but to my immense delight, chose Ryan! Hot firefighter Ryan! But alas! I am Stephanie Chuang who is not allowed to watch television on weekdays so I should really stop watching this before my mommy gets home.

I went to the mall today after school to pick up a present for Jessica's party on Saturday and ended up consuming three, yes three pretzels from Auntie Annes. Now I feel

a fantastic display of kaleidoscopic colors, but then i realized that i was just hallucinating from eating too many special k bars and drinking too much.. water? yes, water. i am jessica tai, the number one gymnast in the whole world. and i cannot walk up a snow-covered hill. =)

heehee.. i'm just kidding, jess. you're still number one in my heart! HAH. okay, i'll stop now. i should probably get back to

Wednesday, February 19, 2003
go to jessica's house where i will kidnap her brother jonathan and force him to play tennis with me for hours on end (puhahaha).

one time when i was playing tennis someone on a different court made a strange sound. so i looked over and the tennis ball hit me in the head. i fell to the ground, and in my stunned state i saw

a lot of dead birds. and standing around them a semi-circle of tall men dressed in black business suits with dark sunglasses, slicked hair, and wearing little earpieces talking in a hushed tone. and randomly staring towards ellen's house. then jackie chan pops out of the snowman and using the poisoned Ocean Spray craisans, single-handedly defeats the strange men, who turned out to be a gang of teenagers from nebraska who were inspired by the hit network show "Alias" on ABC to dress up as CIA agents and stalk strange-looking-snowmen-makers like ellen. ellen subsequently runs out screaming (in chinese) "Jackie you're my hero!! I love you! I watch your cartoon every saturday morning on the WB, which is channel 11 here in monmouth county! Why don't you come in here for some nice green tea and we can clean up this fake-CIA-agents-from-nebraska mess later?" meanwhile the gang of teenagers from nebrasak who were inspired by the hit network show "Alias" on ABC to dress up as CIA agents and stalk strange-looking-snowmen-makers regroup themselves and move towards the next snowman, which is two houses down the street.

i also had something else to say but I forgot what it was. i think i'll

hehe..we should play a game where we continue each other's blogs. the one i did of derek's stunk. maybe you can do better.

today i didn't go sledding, but i made a snowman (and a snow fort..so great)! my friend and i set out to make the biggest and greatest snowman ever. we failed horribly. the snow was too heavy to push after a while, so its not that big. but then i got a great plan to make clothes for the snowman. so i took red spray paint and sprayed the snowman a shirt. i did not think about the environmental hazards i was causing. in any case, i carved a tie for the snowman, so we named him businessman bob. i told my brother about the spraypaint fiasco and he said something like, "you idiot!! spraypaint toxins are going to kill our grass and leak into the water supply!" he's right. also, birds will probably die. i used craisens and walnuts for businessman bob's eyes/mouth. then i realized birds will probably die if they get near our creation, so i scattered craisens around the snowman in hopes of duping birds into only eating those, not the spraypaint poisoned ones on businessman bob. i fear that when i wake up tomorrow morning, i'll look outside and see

rocks and lions and tigers and bears, oh my. then i was stuck in the hotel with the stalker girl....AAEORIGAERIGHG!! after sledding i went home and thought about my true love, allison kao. i'm wily.

i tricked allison three times in a row during an online conversation on sunday, i think. i got her to ask "who?" three times when i told her i had a crush on a girl, and each time i would say "her name is, allison kao" and she would say "stupid derek". the last time was this elaborate (well kind of, not really) scheme where i said the girl was a senior in our school and in fellowship and she was in my english and bio classes and allison said "is it christina??" and then i said "no, her name is allison kao". and since she didn't save the conversation (ungh, and i told you to! i told you many times!) i'm writing this here for posterity. three times allison was tricked by my wily ways.

i went sledding today too. flying through the air is so hilarious, and i'm so lucky not to have gotten hurt. i think next time we need to find some better snow, and some longer slopes. i want to sled at a ski resort, like the "calvin and hobbes" strips where they have cliffs and trees and

i had much fun last night basking in the glory of baskeball and almost falling into a series of convulsions as i watched syracuse barely sneak past st. john's (yea let's go orange!) and the nets hold off the miami heat...jeeez miami...for pete's sake. have some pride guys. then i watched yao and the lakers play. there was one hilarious play where this guy morris from the rockets, as he was inbounding the ball, bounced the ball off of brian shaw (lakers), caught the ball as he stepped inbounds, and then got an easy layup. oh yea, also in the nets game, this miami guy airballed a free throw. yea my dad and i got a hearty laugh out of that.

ow. i feel slightly .. off. i fell on my back/neck/head while sledding and yeah... i don't feel quite right. ah well. :) anywho, my first sledding experience was loads of fun. we went to this crazy hill behind the first aid center. it was super steep and people had built ramps all over the place. i now have a fear of ramps. ;P snow is still awesome though. =)

i think i'm going to pass out now. ahhh..

Monday, February 17, 2003
so i'm trapped in pittsburgh. i've seen enough of the carnegie mellon campus to know that i would seriously consider coming here if i were accepted into the design program (and i wouldn't ever take a math-science course again) and it's snowing and the streets are dirty. eh. because the hotel shuttle bus is now running again, i'm going to some shopping district neighborhood with my mom and some other mother and her daughter, which leads me to this conversation:

derlei say: so
derlei say: what a nightmare
Steffy225: what?
derlei say: so when i was a freshman
derlei say: there was this girl at high tech
derlei say: who was somewhat stalkerish
Steffy225: uh huh
derlei say: then she moved to california or something
derlei say: and i went back to holmdel
derlei say: and thankfully i never saw her again
Steffy225: right
derlei say: anyway
derlei say: so my mom meets this asian woman yesterday
derlei say: and in the typical asian parent way
derlei say: they start exchanging information
derlei say: and it's like
derlei say: "oh you're from california?"
derlei say: "oh you used to live in new jersey?"
derlei say: "oh you used to live in marlboro?"
derlei say: "oh your daughter went to high tech for her freshman year?"
derlei say: -- and it gets worse and worse
Steffy225: ... sigh
Steffy225: what happened then?
derlei say: so it was the same girl
derlei say: and even better, she was staying at the same hotel
derlei say: and even better, my mom makes friends with her mom
derlei say: and even better, since both our flights are delayed
Steffy225: did they arrange a play date?
derlei say: and because both my mom and her mom are cheap
Steffy225: ;-)
derlei say: WE'RE IN THE SAME AAEORIGAERIGHG HOTEL ROOM!!!!
Steffy225: AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Steffy225: i mean
derlei say: ... and when i said "better", i meant the opposite
Steffy225: you should be a mature person and handle this situation maturely

of course i am, of course i am. i'm polite, i'm gracious, i walk into the room and see her there and i run away as quickly as i can. someone get me away from this place.

Sunday, February 16, 2003
so i was terribly bored and i decided to go on a little profile stalking spree... when i stumbled upon this site. it's actually quite good. it's kind of like another xanga.. except the people on it seem to be more design-oriented. the layouts are pretty. =) anyway, here's a nice quote from some random girl. it was the quote of the day or something:

"The words that drip off your tongue are so beautiful. The echo your shadow makes is so breathtaking. But when I venture into the windows of your soul, I become speechless. Not because I have discovered some astounding epiphany and words fail but because there is nothing to say."

i wish i could write like that, even though it could be seen as somewhat melodramatic. mm. :o)

Thursday, February 13, 2003
hey wait...i say alas in faily conversations...stupid derek.

Wednesday, February 12, 2003
happy birthday allison!
wow...
thursdays = orchestra + homework + studying for math and latin = no life
science league = no life
lim (thursday) [t-->no life]...ok screw this...the point is the limit of my life sub(thursday) = no life x no life...which is indeterminate. now i must use l'hopitals.
and now you really see that thursdays have scarred me for life...one which i don't have. on thursdays.
and yes i know today is wednesday. i'm talking about tomorrow.


happy birthday to the cow! i don't think she reads this anymore. but oh well. happy birthday on the off-chance that you do read this. =)

wow, so i feel rather fat right now. somehow, allison wound up getting two big cakes for her birthday, and we tried to eat it all during lunch. aww man, they were GOOD. but now i feel inactive and blob-like. sigh, oh well. it's too cold to run. and my brother's on the treadmill.. :o)

hmm, i need to buy birthday presents.

Derek Derek Tsai is the most normal person I know!!!!

Tuesday, February 11, 2003
seriously, what normal person says "alas" in daily conversation? i took pictures today too, except i was in red bank and it was for a design project assignment. all i have left is "a car that i would want to own and drive" and "an interesting wall of a building or house" -- i can take care of those tomorrow. and the other remaining assignments are so difficult. does anyone want to go to new york next saturday? i think everything for me (except a few scholarship applications) will be done by then ..

Monday, February 10, 2003
i took pictures of deer today! i was sitting at the computer, doing some work, as my brother jonathan did the same next to me. and then, lo and behold, we looked out the window and saw no less than seven deer outside in the snow. so jon and i rushed about and got our cameras. but alas, the windows of the study have screens covering them, and all the pictures were blurry. but, the deer then traveled around the outside of the house, and so we made our way over to the kitchen, where we proceeded to take some more pictures. alas, the windows there were covered by screens as well, and again, the pictures were blurry. but, the deer were still on the move! so we then ran over to the living room, jumped on the couch, knocking some throw pillows to the floor in the process.. and goodness gracious, there was no screen covering THIS window! and so we got a few nice pictures of the deer living in our back woods. =)

me? a cheerleader? stephanie you must be hallucinating... i would rather die.
::cheerleaders are dancers gone retarded::

so i'm missing thirty-hour famine because i have to go to carnegie mellon on saturday morning to show my design project and portfolio (or lack of one) in an on-campus interview -- ehh. i'll be back on monday. after this, i think mostly everything is finished except for some scholarships that i've already made a list of. that should be pretty straightforward. i was going to go red bank today to take pictures but it's snowing and so. i think i'll go take some pictures of the sky .. i'll be back.

hahahahaha.. jess, you sound like a cheerleader. very scary thought. =)

yeah, mel gibson is pretty cool. have you ever seen the snl episode with him? it's pretty old.. back when he had the mullet-esque hair going on. there was one sketch entitled "mel gibson: dream gynecologist" that was pretty hilarious. hahaha. i read that article you mentioned in latin that one time.. on the movie he's doing about jesus. i had no idea he was catholic. nifty. i really think he should do subtitles, though. people tend to have short attention spans.. ;)

i wonder if this snow would be nice and last until tomorrow.. :o)

Sunday, February 09, 2003
i thought chicago was awesome!

i watched the patriot too!

so did serena!

whoooooooooooo!!! =)

heh. and once i say the blog is dead everyone comes back and blogs...but it probably won't happen this time, will it?...........
i watched most of "the patriot" yesterday. gah that movie is so sad. i never really had a favorite actor, but if i had to choose one, it would have to be mel gibson. russell crowe is in a close second, but he loses points for being a jackass.

i like how once the idea of a blog revival is mentioned, the blog immediately reverts back to its silent state =) I suppose I'm not helping...

Who thought Chicago was awesome?!

Friday, February 07, 2003
this is good. the blog is having a revival! this calls for a renaming...like..."almost-dead-but-not-quite blog"
i took my first science league test (physics 2) ever yesterday, and it will probably my only sl test ever b/c tennis season is coming up. but i did get in (score!), even though i thought I failed miserably, and i guess i'll probably be going to my first and only science league meet ever. what fun.

ah honors english is the best class ever, behind physics, and mike craparo and mike saputo are hilarious. we were playing our usual vocab game on wednesday, and mike c. and saputo were both on my team. the word on the board was "rationalize". two of the possible definitions were something like 2: "to derive based on evidence" and 3: "to draw conclusions that are inherently wrong" or maybe i'm completely off on number 2...but anyway. the first thing mike c. yells out to our team is "it's gotta be number 2! cause that's what [saputo and I] don't do!" but the answer turned out to be definition number 3. so mike c. yells out, "hey...then that means we do rationalize!! that's what we do! we rationalize!!" and he and saputo slap high-fives. aaaaaahahahahaaaaaa that was hilarious. if you're not laughing then i guess you had to be there. btw, our team won the game on our last bet. score.

wahahahahahaha..

snow is quite fantastic. =) for the first time in a very long time, i have that what-do-i-do-now? feeling. that is also quite fantastic.

all right. i'm going to go loaf around now. i'm LOAFING! this is so exciting. =D

wowie... where did all these blogs come from?

SNOW DAY! YAY! I feel so awake cuz I got so much sleep and I don't have any work to do because Midterms are over, College Apps are done and I don't have any tests that I can study for!!!!! I think... I'm going to read a good book today =) Namely one of the harry potters or maybe I'll read some lotr today... OR .. I'll watch My Sassy Girl cuz friend gave it to me on dvd =) Or maybe... I'll watch Maid in Manhatten cuz EJL burned me a copy. Oh the possibilities =)

Thursday, February 06, 2003
wow i thought it was "swing swing swing from the TABLESIDE..." hahaha.

i'm procrastinating.

"hey girls! let's all get together and go smack some guys around!" -- ok connie. ;)

today i nearly spent a hundred dollars on cds (twelve). but my dad convinced me to wait and rethink my purchases. so i'm going to buy them tomorrow. this will, by far, be the craziest and most frivolous thing i've ever done. i lead a very sad, small, uneventful life. but hey, i'm excited. though not nearly as excited as derek and his souped up dream computer. haha.

yea these high prices are really forcing the demand for cd's to shift to the left and reducing our nation's gdp.

the notes are old
they bend they fold
and so do i to a new love
did you think that i would cry
on the phone
do you know what it feels like
being alone
i'll find someone new
swing swing swing from the tangles of
my heart is crushed by a former love
can you help me find a way
to carry on again...

if i learned to sing maybe i could stop resorting to typing out the lyrics on blogger all the time.

this is my dream computer. the line's been discontinued in the united states but they still make them in japan and europe, but this one right here's been upgraded to 2.4 ghz and 1 gb RAM and 120 gb hard disk space and ahhhh. it doubles as a stereo system with md and links to your tv and you can record dvds and make your own and edit video and audio and i want this. i will have something like this in the near future, i promise.

i watched my sassy girl today. i watched part 1 last night and part 2 this morning. part 1 was so freaky, i wanted to die. "wanna die?!" freaky! part 2 was freaky until the end. hey girls! let's all get together and go smack some guys around!
=)

"...maybe coldplay"??? derek sometimes you disappoint me. all american rejects cd is ok. i listened to it on mtv.com. sixpence is playing at the bottom line club in new york on the 20th. i wish i was 21. but alas, i'm 18 (!). perhaps i'll go in philly. if i did, would you want to come with me? ("you" encompassing everyone here)

man, cds are really expensive. and they always go up in price. ..which is why it took me a long time until i finally gave into ridiculous prices and bought coldplay. i wanted to get the blindside cd at bestbuy for seven dollars, but i only had five in my wallet. so then i went back the next week and it was eleven dollars!! it was a sad day, to say the least. i harassed 106.3 for coldplay tickets over the weekend when i was at work. the dj guy started being really rude to me.

i hope that there will be an alias dvd of all the episodes. because i've honestly seen like two. i disappoint myself.

(not even) one week after midterms and i stayed home one day, went in late on another, and took a half day off on yet another. this trend should really stop soon...(but i was sick, so i guess theres sort of a valid explanation for one of those days)

ahh, i love swing swing. swing swing from the tangles o-o-of my heart.. i probably have the lyrics completely wrong, but oh well. =) you should definitely get the coldplay cd. and jimmy eat world is just so cool. have you heard their cover of 'last christmas'? excellent song. but anywho, it's not like i know that much about music. some stuff just sounds good. :)

i ran two miles today. i am so proud of myself. :o)

i don't know, derek, does prom love you? does pwom wuv yoo? teehee. i find it funny that certain social circles are obsessed with prom while others are not. for some people, senior prom (well, the post prom, anyway) is practically the pinnacle of all four years of high school. it's kind of odd. i hear all these people talking about renting houses and blah blah blah and it's strange to me. hm.

that's a really nice quote, by the way. =)

hmmm...old navy pants for 7 bucks...all-american rejects cd for 7 bucks....

i'm trying really hard to refrain from mentioning all the great cds you should buy/download............it's eating me alive....
gah! .....

Wednesday, February 05, 2003
i preordered the all-american rejects cd on sunday. 7 bucks and free shipping on bestbuy.com! i think i also want the audioslave cd. or maybe i'll just dl it. i think it's about time i actually bought a U2 cd...all 43 of my U2 songs are downloaded.

sounds like a great show, okay. i seem to be drawn to a certain rock sound now, sort of a pop-emo type -- i really like jimmy eat world and after searching forever and not finding anything because i had the wrong lyrics, i found this song "swing swing" by a band called the all-american rejects. their cd came out yesterday. and i really like it, i don't know why, something about the distorted guitar and bass and drums on every beat maybe. dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun .. let's see what cds i want. jimmy eat world, all-american rejects, get up kids, duncan sheik, michelle branch, radiohead, sixpence none the richer, weaklazyliar, ivy, pete yorn, maybe coldplay. and the "my sassy girl" director's cut dvd.

so i'm thinking of funny lyrics that i can start saying in person. so far i have: "all you people look at me like i'm a little girl .." and that's it, because i just thought of this a minute ago while listening to some remixed bootleg songs.

i really like this quote from "meet joe black":
i want you to get swept away, i want you to levitate, i want you to sing and dance, be deliriously happy, fall head over heels, find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you back, there's no point in making the journey and not falling in love at all, stay open, who knows, lightning could strike.

i didn't mention model un yet, hm. it was all right -- the going around new haven with other people and seeing frances and ellie more so than the actual committee sessions. i went into the conference pretty serious about it all, but then people in my committee (world health organization) were just complete idiots that i knew wouldn't play along. they were just voting whenever they felt like raising their placards. i think i'll probably do this in college, where hopefully the stupid people are weeded out. there was this kid who couldn't pronounce any r's and would say things like "the wusshian fedewation" or "biotewwowism" .. i like making fun of chinese kids. too many of them are too easy to ostracize. so many kids in our school have problems, especially this one person whom i won't describe here and now. maybe later.

someone mentioned prom to me the other day. and then today i noticed it (heard it saw it) in so many separate instances. what is prom? does prom exist? does prom love me? i don't feel like renting another tuxedo, and i don't know if i want to go this year. hm.

oh, and a.u.s.a. is this new sitcom about lawyers.. it stands for assistant to the united states attorney general.. or something like that. apparently, every single writer on the show is an ivy league graduate.

hahaha.. 'smells like teen booty' pretty awesome, too. you should all have a listen to these.

yeah!!!! coldplay + alias!!! haha.. i'm glad that you thought of me, zi. teehee =)

i'm listening to 'under ice' right now. it's kind of cool.. but mostly because of 'under pressure,' which is a great song. david bowie is so cool. even though he looks like a lizard. haha..

.. wow, i really like this song. hahahaha.. that is really funny. =)

Tuesday, February 04, 2003
and happy birthday Ellen!!! wherever you are....HAPPY 18TH. we are the same age! now you can get a REAL license. mwahahah. =D

yeah SALT =) that's the name of the collegiate fellowship group of the church i go to here. made up of g-town and gw students. mostly korean. i think it's an acronym, but i forgot the meaning. oh well. the "booty" one is my favorite. it's the only one i could listen to, so it is my favorite.

STEPH- you watched alias on sunday right?? remember when they played coldplay at the end? i thought of you. how cool was that: alias + coldplay. too bad it was the music for their horrid little love scene.

what's ausa? anyway, so in psych while looking at the pictures in chapter 9, we like to make funny comments while sanecki lectures like "woh, her upper arm is the same size as my thigh" and "this is the rat version of you" (referring to this hugely obese rat whose hypothalamus was cut in a certain place, which made it eat uncontrollably) (not unlike some people i know).

my new hobby is finding mash-up bootlegs -- i read about them months ago in wired magazine but then i never went around to download until a few days ago, after hearing a pretty cool song in urban outfitters on saturday night. here are some of the ones i like:
1. "under ice" - vanilla ice "ice ice baby" vs queen and david bowie "under pressure"
2. "smells like teen booty" - destiny's child "bootylicious" over nirvana "smells like teen spirit"
3. "a stroke of genie-us" - christina aguilera "genie in a bottle" over the strokes "last night"

all right, i don't feel like writing any more links. go search for some yourself, and tell me if you find any good ones. bye.

wow, i love saltines. and not those wussy ones without salt. SALT, baby. it's all about salt. =)

so we're learning about hunger and obesity in psych now. it's kind of depressing.. but amusing if you think about it the right way. haha. :) yeah, basically, if you get fat cells, you'll never be rid of them again. they might shrink, but they'll still be there. how sad. but then sanecki was saying how obese people tend to get highly, highly excited about food.. and i thought of our little group of fatties. teehee. we're all mentally obese, i suppose. :o)

i saw a little bit of trl today when i was running, and scott foley was on. they showed him a picture of jennifer garner in that black lingerie outfit with the whip and he was like.. "she's mine." i thought that was funny. and then he spoke some japanese because he lived in japan for four years or something. very cool. i wonder if A.U.S.A. is good.

that was completely random. oh well. :)

Monday, February 03, 2003
haha rich, i read this too. sometimes...so steph is not alone! alas, i too love alias. i can't decide if i love micheal vartan or jennifer garner more. that sounds weird. but basically, i either want vartan or want to be garner...sigh

Sunday, February 02, 2003
i'm so in love with alias =)

i don't know why i'm posting this here...it's not like anyone reads it, or even comes here anymore, besides steph.
anyway, i got an email that says, if you happen to be driving a car with cruise control, you're not supposed to drive with the cc on when the road is icy or wet. if it is on, and you hydroplane, your car is going to accelerate like vesano and you are pretty much screwed. have a nice day.

mm, mock trial was pretty intense. especially diana arnold/john coyle's trial. they went up against middletown south, and one of their lawyers (who i latered learned to be some guy that has a really long name with a "the third" at the end.. apparently people think he looks like the monopoly man) was annoying the judges. a lot. he was kind of pompous and condescending.. and he objected to everything. every time he got up to speak, one of the judges would lean back in his chair and roll his eyes. hehe. holmdel won that one but lost the one i did. i thought i kind of sucked, but touma said alex and i 'held our own'.. whatever that means. :P well, he told me later that we should feel good because the team we went up against was probably the best in the competition. ehhh. the only thing i'm worried about now is the fact that we have to go back on monday.. and they won't tell us which side (mine or diana's) is going until.. monday. super. =)

i should get back to work.

Saturday, February 01, 2003
and if the darkness is to keep us apart
and if the daylight seems a long way off
and if your glass heart should crack
and for a second you turn back
oh no, be strong
walk on
walk on
what you got they can't deny it
can't sell it or buy it
walk on
stay safe tonight
and i know it aches
and your heart it breaks
you can only take so much
walk on...

ahh this weekend has been quite depressing...everything that happened with the rumson swim meet and then columbia. and then this awful weather...well it's supposed to be 50 degrees next week.
but then it is also chinese new year, and the posse had a big mahjongg party last night. that was fun.